Dear, Soul!!

Karin's jealousy

Karin is confused by Salwa's memory, which she thinks is too shallow. Karin can still understand if Salwa does not remember her, but it is very difficult for Karin to understand when Salwa even asks to make it clear that she is an alumni with Fauzi, her husband.

But the confusion that was brewing, only Karin kept it to herself, do not dare to ask more or clarify the memory of Salwa who can not remember things that she should not forget despite her old age later.

Amidst Karin's confusion, there is a sense of anxiety felt by Fauzi. Fauzi who initially did not want to tell people more about his wife, finally there is no other choice but to let Karin also enter the list of people who know the situation of Salwa.

Seeing Karin's expression that he couldn't hide, Fauzi made a conclusion to let Karin know. Fauzi did not want Karin to give Salwa a negative value. In addition, Karin will better understand if later Salwa said things that do not make sense, if Karin knows the condition of Salwa. Fauzi also had to give Salwa direction now, so that his wife would no longer be so misled in his memory. Karin would find it strange to see Salwa get direction from him, without knowing the condition of Salwa.

In Fauzi's heart, he was a little lashed out at the presence of karin at their table at the moment. There was a feeling of regret for having brought Salwa to the restaurant and meeting Karin. But what is the meaning of regret at this time, everything has already been done. All Fauzi can do, just keep directing Salwa and tell Karin the state of Salwa later.

“Honey.. used to be one school, one High School. And this Karin, our upperclassman”

Fauzi is trying to revive his wife's memory. He knew that Karin would be confused by the thousands of questions in her head now, but Fauzi did not care that, he would explain the situation of Salwa later.

“We are one class?”

It was true what Fauzi was thinking. Karin is trying to digest what is happening now, seeing Salwa who keeps asking about things that she should know and remember her entire life.

“No. You are first class, I am second class and Karin is third class”

Salwa turned her gaze that had been fixed on Fauzi who was giving her an explanation, leading to Karin who looked at her with a confused look but still showed her sweet smile.

“Ah sorry, I did not remember kak” said Salwa showed her regret that she could not remember her upperclassman.

Karin looked back at Fauzi for a moment, with Fauzi already looking at her first. It was as if the two were talking via telepathy, telling Karin to follow the current course.

“Yes, it's okay” replied Karin smiling.

The food that had been ordered before, was finally served on their table. Karin, who was already sitting on a chair with one table with Fauzi and Salwa, finally enjoyed lunch with him that afternoon.

They enjoy eating together in interspersed with chatter. The chat did not go so well, as Fauzi occasionally had to stop his conversation and explain things that confused Salwa in the chat.

“I go to the toilet briefly”

“You can go to the toilet by yourself baby?” Tanya Fauzi made sure of Salwa's condition.

Salwa nodded with a smile.

“Bring your bag and phone, if something makes you confused, call me”

Once again salwa nodded, then passed.

Fauzi continues to follow Salwa with his views, making Karin increasingly save the admiration of Fauzi, as well as the growing jealousy. Karin could not deny how she wished she could be treated like Salwa by Fauzi. The way Fauzi called, noticed and looked at Salwa, really made Karin feel jealous. Yes, but behind the feeling of confusion with jealousy that flared, Karin was still able to realize, that Fauzi was the property of others. Although sometimes terbesit evil intentions to be able to have Fauzi, without caring will be the second, or be the only one by getting rid of the first.

“It looks like you love very much Salwa.”

Karin's words that disperse the view of Fauzi who had been following the position of his wife.

“Iya.. She's my wife, it's natural that I love her as she”

Hearing Fauzi's reply, Karin felt a slaughtered attack of pain in her heart.

“You are very privileging.”

Fauzi no longer paid attention to what Karin said, the feeling of his wife who is now in the toilet alone, constantly harassing him. Until he realized something, Fauzi finally shifted his gaze.

“Emhh, Karin”

“Ya?”

Karin's response was quick, as if she was waiting for Fauzi to ask her to speak from earlier.

“It.. About Salwa's condition now.”

“Ah yes, I feel weird with Salwa, she..”

“Sakit” cut Fauzi.

“Sa-sick? What pain?”

“Alzheimer” Fauzi replied looking down. Fauzi was still sick every time he realized his wife's condition.

“Alzheimer? What kind of pain is that?”

Slowly Fauzi began to tell me about what kind of disease Alzhheimer was, a disease that was swallowing little by little the memory of his wife, including their most precious memories would be forgotten Salwa.

Karin was astonished to hear it, she never thought something like this would happen. More precisely, she never knew before that the disease called Alzheimer's existed, and swallowed the sufferer so savagely.

Fauzi who told me with pain that cut his heart, and Karin who listened carefully with occasional terbesit disbelief.

Fauzi let out a long sigh as he closed his discussion on Azheimer. His forehead was rubbed slowly while trying to calm his feelings.

“Karin, please understand that like Salwa asking strange things or maybe doing strange things later. Salwa now not only lost certain memories in her head, she also slowly lost her other survival ability”

Karin nodded. “Yes, I'll understand. I'm sorry about what happened to Salwa at this time. I hope, he gets well soon”

Fauzi shook his head slowly, leaving Karin clueless with the reply of the rejection gesture Fauzi gave.

“I also do not want to believe this, and even now I am still trying to heal Salwa. But the doctor said, Alzheimer's does not have drug”

“Do not have medicine??” Karin asked even more surprised than when she knew about the disease that was in the midst of Salwa. “I-that means??”

“I don't want to believe, I still hope Salwa can be healed. Although I still try to prepare myself to accept the bad possibilities that could happen”

Karin could no longer say anything. The facts he had just learned really shocked him.

Fauzi glanced at the digital clock on his phone. It had been almost 10 minutes that Salwa did not even come out of the toilet, making Fauzi worried.

Fauzi kept his eyes fixed on the entrance waiting for Salwa to get out of there. Karin who saw Fauzi with a view that could not be separated, followed the direction of Fauzi's view.

“Why?” Ask Karin.

“It has been ten minutes Salwa went into the toilet, and has not come out yet until now” Fauzi replied without taking his eyes off.

“You want me to suck?”

Spontaneous Fauzi turned to look at Karin. “You can?”

Fauzi's spontaneous response, further clarifying how he who was very worried about Salwa, made Karin's envy grow more fertile.

Karin just nodded.

“Still Karin. I've been worried about Salwa, but I can't take her to the girls' room either. I'm worried something happened to him”

Karin got up from her seat, walked to the toilet to check on Salwa.

The stronger the jealousy Karin has, the more envy explodes and the more desire to have Fauzi becomes. However, Karin realises that Fauzi is a husband.

“Salwa..” call Karin slowly, do not want to disturb other toilet users.

Karin finds Salwa standing in front of the sink with a mirror in front of her. The woman who made him envious was half-dead, looking at herself in the mirror with a confused expression.

“Salwa, you why??”