Dear, Soul!!

Friend..

The night was getting late but Nina and I were still busy with our conversation. Nina gave me a little idea of what good move I would take in the future. I felt Nina say that just to calm me down, even so Nina kept making me try to hope once more.

"If you want to give up hope for Fauzi I'm sure you won't. Your feelings are too big for Fauzi, so giving up on expecting it is futile because you still keep your love for Fauzi. So all you can do now is keep hoping by continuing to try to get better. So that if Brother Fauzi returns you still look worthy to accompany him"

"But Nin, up until now I've never heard of Fauzi's brother"

"Listen I am Wa, my brother Fauzi's family is now in Mamuju the same as yours. One day you will go back there to see your family and so will Brother Fauzi. your chances of meeting are still great and with your feelings like that I'm sure you'll still love Mr. Fauzi until the day you meet"

I thought for a moment. There was nothing wrong with what Nina said. I want to give up on my feelings for Fauzi I won't be able to, so it's true that I have no choice but to hope that one day Fauzi comes back to me. I just need to live my days better so that later when Fauzi returns I still look like a woman he deserves.

I smiled and Nina smiled back.

"Where? Do you know the same thing I mean?" Ask Nina.

I'm nodding.

"Remember Salwa dear, no matter how far you are separated from Mr. Fauzi right now, no matter how million you are with the news of Mr. Fauzi right now, no matter how far you are, if he is right your soul mate someday he will come to your parents' house to ask for the right of responsibility of your parents to be made his duty. Just pray that your sincere feelings and love can reach Fauzi's brother. I'm also sure that Brother Fauzi won't be easy to eat you because I know exactly how Brother Fauzi loves you"

"Thank you Nina, my feelings are better now.."

Nina hugged me back.

"Remember, there is a God-created me as your friend where you share all your anxieties, so don't keep it to yourself.."

"Yes, as long as I keep it to myself until I end up slumped for too long. But now I won't be like that.."

"Uwu's a good boy.."

My feeling was really relieved after telling everything to Nina and Nina that gave me spirit made me better again.

"Oh yes Nin, did you just say your nyusulin Farhan brother? Where's nyusulin?"

"To my place.."

"your place? You don't live here?"

"Salwa, I went to college in Palu. So at that time Kak Farhan flew from Makassar to Palu to persuade me who again craved. Uwuuu my girlfriend turned out to be romantic once, not less the same oppa oppa that we usually watch in drakor.."

"So you're here?"

"Cuman added holiday, hehehe.. "

"You didn't come back to Palu instead? How's college?"

"Mumpung take a leave of absence yes all the added holidays right. I miss Farhan's brother, anyway.."

"Ck after I thought it wasn't Farhan's brother who was bucin. You're like a bucin, too.."

"Whatever the name is, you want to wash it or whatever it is I don't care. His name is also someone else in love, brown sugar can taste chocolate.."

"Ck ck.. Give me Nin.." I said while throwing a pillow at Nina's face. Nina threw me back with a pillow.

What I kept all this time I finally got out. If only that day I could think clearly and not close myself to the slump maybe I could be relieved faster by telling Nina that day too. But it is also useless I regret it, by regretting that things have passed will not be able to change the reality that exists now, but by thinking about things that have passed it can make me take better actions in the future.

I also should not be able to regret that time, however, with me who was down at that time, it can make me realize how far I feel about Fauzi so I do not worry today to decide to continue my hope of being with Fauzi later.

It has all been a fate arranged. Now I just live the destiny of my choice at that time and again make the choice today to determine my destiny in the future.

I thought back to Fira's words that day. He said Fauzi was after me but no matter how hard I tried to remember I was still convinced that I didn't see Fauzi chasing me that night.

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No matter what time I fell asleep last night, after a chat session with Nina we continued to throw jokes and tell each other the days we went through after graduating high school. Of course there wasn't much I could tell considering I was quite depressed back then, in contrast to Nina.

Even though I slept late last night, I still had to get up early to work on my report and learn to prepare the response door before entering the practice later.

"You woke up early in the morning.." Nina's newfound complaining.

"Oh, wake up. What do you want breakfast with?"

"What yes? I'll call Farhan's brother for anterin to eat here.." Nina said with her voice sounding still sleepy

"Go on.." Ledek.

"Because I'm already here so Brother Farhan must treat me well, including my food napiapin.."

"Yes, call Farhan gih. I'll go to college with Farhan. He he he"

"okay.. You should be able to go every day to the same campus as Farhan, right you guys are in the same direction, enough money ojek you can buy other kebbbutuhan.."

"Ck since when can a Nina think like that, well after a lecture your mind can minimize money huh??" My ejek.

"Ck, I'm Salwa's economic son, those thoughts are my basic thoughts.."

"Ha ha ha serah you said, you have quickly contacted Farhan's brother, I take a bath first.."

"Heem..."

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I am so grateful to have met Nina after one year we never met. There are so many things I can tell her that make me feel better.

This morning before going to college, Farhan's brother and I drove Nina to the airport. May the journey be safe and comfortable until the destination.

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Sorry this episode was ineffective :'(