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The sunlight burst into my room freely through the window that I forgot to close the curtains last night. Because some shocking incident last night made me forget some habitual things I used to do like closing the window curtains.

My head hurts a lot, feels heavy and dizzy. Maybe it was raining last night and crying too long.

Tinkg..

One incoming message notification sent via WhatsApp.

"Good morning.. Already awake?"

A short message sent by Farhan.

I ignored the message and got up and walked to the bathroom.

Phone's ringing..

"Who? new number?"

Calls from unknown numbers came in, and after I checked this was his thirteenth call this morning and some missed calls last night from the same number.

I'm not the kind of person who gave my phone number to someone else, the other friends also knew so well that none of them dared to give my phone number to others before asking permission from me, even if this is a friend, why call so many times? Why not try to reach me on social media when I don't pick up the phone.

My phone vibrated again, one short message, and it turned out that there were a few other short messages sent last night with the same phone number. I'm like a person who forgets memories until he doesn't realize there are some short messages coming in but I don't realize.

"Salwa. Please pick up my phone, I have a lot of things to explain to you dear.."

Ah, I see now, this is the message Fauzi sent over the new phone number. Yeah, I just remembered, because I was too sick and upset last night, my Fauzi phone number was blocked so Fauzi couldn't reach me.

My memory goes back to remembering last night, where I was really hurt and fell into a lot of pain.

I finished doing the stage of the Traditional Dance Competition between High School Level, me and my friends did not have good results that made me very hit because I felt that failure was because I was unprofessional. Even though none of my friends blamed me, they kept comforting me and trying to convince me that it wasn't my fault that I kept blaming myself. To cheer me up my friends took the initiative to eat together after the performance at a cafe beside Maleo Mall. I who came late because I had to calm my feelings first finally got drizzled which caused my lower clothes to get a little wet, due to the discomfort of my wet clothes I finally stopped by to change clothes at the Maleo mall next to the cafe and found Fauzi my lover was with another woman.

I keep thinking, why should I change clothes while the wet ones are only the bottom of my clothes, why should I go to the store next to the accessories store while there are many other stores, why I was so interested to enter the accessories store while I was very aware and remember my friends were waiting for me at the cafe. And. most painfully, why should I see my lover being with another woman, not just together but clearly I see her stroking the woman's hair. Why should there be a time when I am a spectator in a romance drama played by my own lover. To this day, the questions kept turning around in my head and making my heart ache again. Well, maybe it's an instinct, it's a clue where I'm supposed to see the other side of my lover.

Remembering last night's events brought me back to tears. Suppose there was a Mom, maybe Mom could help me calm my feelings down a little bit, but on the other hand I'm also grateful that Mom and Dad are not home so she doesn't have to see me crying like this and see me coming home soaked last night.

A wet home?? Yes, I came home wet last night. Seeing Fauzi with another woman last night really surprised me and spontaneously ran away from Fauzi. I don't know if Fauzi came after me or how it was just that when I realized, I knew that there was no Fauzi chasing me. I was also very sick considering that, did Fauzi not have any intention to pursue me just to give an explanation of what I saw, did Fauzi care at all about me? It was only when I got home that there were some messages that Fauzi sent and his calls that I didn't want to miss.

I spontaneously ran away from Fauzi last night. I can't think clearly, my feelings that I can't handle make my body impulsively do things that I can't even be aware of. I don't know how long I fell down in the rain until Farhan came. Farhan came to accompany me, comforting me and... OH MY..!! Why can I forget? What did Farhan respond last night about that. I was surprised after remembering it.

My phone's vibrating..

"Ehhh ehhh anu anuu..." I said spontaneously in shock and my phone slipped out of my hand.

"Not awake yet??" message sent by Farhan.

"Who is.." I reply

What did Farhan think about last night? Does he think I'm obeying his request. Why was I impulsive once last night? I got dizzy thinking about it myself.

"Milk.." My reply.

"New suit is being answered?"

"Just hold Hp.."

"Have breakfast?"

"Not yet.."

"Yes, I'll pick you up, let's have breakfast together"

"No need, you can order food, ngerepotin you only"

"Udah no papa, I'm there now.."

"Yes. but.."

"No buts, wait for me there okay.."

"Gakk..." Not until my phone was cut off.

Seeing Farhan's reaction it seemed like he was taking my actions seriously last night. I don't know what to look like, I have to respond to how Farhan came and how I will be. I see, even if I were in Farhan's position for someone we've always liked would be very enthusiastic and obviously take my treatment seriously last night.

I thought for a moment, this is something wrong. Yes my relationship with Fauzi is now in a bad state but there has been no breaking up between us, even if in the end I completely broke up with Fauzi I will not be able to accept Farhan directly, I need time alone for a moment and I don't want to make Farhan a mere outlet.

Yes, I have to explain this misunderstanding to Farhan so that this does not drag on and will be more confusing later. Not only was my feeling still difficult to accept Farhan, my thoughts about other people's thoughts also seemed to reject my relationship like this as Farhan. I will explain and try to make Farhan understand about what happened last night, I myself am not aware of my actions like that. Yeah, I know I'm gonna hurt Farhan with this, but if I keep Farhan in the wrong, there's gonna be a time when he knows the truth and it's gonna hurt him even more. I hope Farhan understands.

I was getting ready before Farhan came to pick me up.

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Hello everyone.. Salwa's back..

Earlier I apologized for taking too long Up for season 2, due to busyness and a little health problems so it can not Up faster..

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Thank you for reading the story of Salwa :)