Forever Love

Two Men Chat

Tristan POV

Bego, I'm really bego. Why could my mouth be so sadistic as to call on Qania. I can even see all this time she is a woman who keeps her distance from men. But because of the burning jealousy and demons that have mastered me I finally out of control and I did not expect the impact to be like this.

Arrograph ...

How could I tell Qania was that kind of woman anyway? Any woman who has been traumatized by physical abuse and abuse could be who I accuse. Hahh, what a big nigger my brain is.

I deserve a blow from Raka and even if I could hit myself right now. But that is not possible for me to do considering that Qania is currently being examined by a doctor.

After Qania passed out earlier, Raka and I immediately took her to a nearby clinic. I swear my feelings are not because of the condition of Qania who was unconscious. I got stabbed by thousands of daggers. And the more painful fact is that I caused it all.

"Where are you, Doc?" I heard Raka asked the doctor who was still beautiful even though I was sure she was five heads old.

"He seemed to be so depressed that he fell unconscious. Does this happen often?" asked the doctor and I patted my chest twice as tight, while continuing to feed myself in my heart.

"No Doc, this is the first time I've ever known. I don't know that before. But it was likely that Qania was like this because of the thought of a case that almost harassed her." Raka's explanation made me more tormented.

"The greatest possibility of a patient experiencing trauma. Maybe only now the effect of the incident of that time in natural again to the patient. My advice, please avoid patients from things that smell abuse and physical violence because both of these things will make patients feel depressed. I can say again, if the patient is aware and his gaze is empty, then you should immediately take him to the pskiater. I was worried that his mental state would be disturbed. Because not a few women experience psychiatric disorders due to cases like this. And don't let him hurt himself if he gets depressed again."

I swear, the doctor's explanation is getting on me. I caused Qania to be like this. But one thing, I feel both degdegan and deja vu.

I did not dare to approach Qania, I just let Raka accompany him when the doctor finished explaining about the state of Qania. What is clear is that if the trauma of Qania continues, I will take it in treatment even abroad I will be able to for the recovery of Qania. I'm sorry Qania, this is all out of my will.

I can't hold myself close to you. It seems like every time we are together, the devil always dominates me. It is very difficult to see you along with other men with a close distance.

If killing people is not a sin and will not violate the laws of the country, maybe Raka's life has long been in my hands. I object to seeing Qania close to another man. I don't like it!

But I have no right to be angry or forbid, considering that me and Qania have no ties whatsoever. It was wrong. I want to be angry there is no right, want to forbid especially. There was even Qania who made me even worse than that. He can escape from me.

Tristan POV End ...

Raka approached Tristan who was sitting outside while daydreaming. Raka could see how messed up the man was. He believes that Tristan is currently condemning his mistake. He sat down with Raka in the waiting chair.

"Ah, how is Qania doing?" tristan asked without turning his head as Raka was already sitting beside him.

"So he was conscious but due to the influence of drugs so that at this time Qania back to sleep.

"Sorry," Tristan's great-grandson.

"Gue doesn't know what Qania is, but please don't repeat it again. He's had a trauma our time at the KKN site. There was a man named Juna who wanted to rape her and fortunately her brother the Felin came otherwise we would not know what happened to Qania. And moreover, we will all be silent with Arkana," said Raka.

"Is that man Arjuna Wilanata?" ask Tristan.

"Kok you know?" asked Raka surprised.

"Qania once mentioned her name" replied Tristan.

"Yes, that bastard who almost harassed Qania. He even committed physical violence against Qania, and it is thought that the man was also behind the Arkana deaths" Raka replied infuriated at Juna.

"Can't you?"

"From the story of his sister Qania, Juna always sent people to kill Arkana but always failed. And right when Arkana accident, Juna was until this moment not seen his existence," explained Raka.

There was a sense of indignation in Tristan hearing the story. The woman he loves must suffer a tragic fate because of the work of a man named Arjuna Wilanata.

"Hmm, I hope he's okay" said Tristan.

"She's a tough woman, not going to be anything," said Raka.

"But the doctor said ...."

"Lo doesn't know how great a woman I've admired for so many years, even when I was in love with her when she was Arkana's fiancee" Raka said, chuckling.

"Oh yeah?" Tristan suddenly felt curious about the figure of Qania in Raka's eyes.

"Yes, and I was rejected for the first time. I fell in love and was heartbroken for the first time. I already know that I will get a rejection considering how cute Qania is to Arkana and vice versa. I just envy myself to see the harmony of the two. It's just so short a time for them. Though I have predicted that they are a couple who will be eternal afterlife. Even I had planned one day to fool my son with his son Qania and Arkana. Yeah, but maybe God has other plans."

"Gue could see that Qania's love for her husband was enormous. Do you actually love Qania or just simply admire it?" tristan asked, in his heart he wished the man beside him only had a sense of admiration, nothing more.

Raka giggled, she could tell that this man beside her was really hoping that he would not really love Qania. He alone did not know how hard Raka struggled to get close to Qania.

"At first I was amazed, try to think for yourself how you are not amazed by girls who are beautiful, smart-brained and have a lot of talent. Has many achievements, campus excellence, campus princess and diamonds of Engineering students. And you'll definitely be amazed if you see for yourself what cool Qania was when she led the demo on campus at that time," raka's story recalls their story when they were together on campus first despite different majors and knew later at the KKN location.

"Me-lead demo?" tristan Beo.

"Yes, lead the demo. Demo because Qania felt unacceptable because the value of her college eyes emptied while she was the brightest student on our campus," Javan Raka.

"Great," muttered Tristan.

"I'm saying he won't do anything, sure. If you point out your concerns, you will actually hear these words 'I am Qania Salsabila Sanjaya, her fiance Arkana Wijaya, the number one wild racer of the province. The daughter of the campus as well as vice chairman of HMTS, and also the son of the chairman of the board. This kind of problem is nothing for Qania Salsabila' so she must have said it," kekeh Raka made Tristan laugh too.

"Hahaha, he is indeed very confident," Tristan chuckled.

"Very. He said trust was much needed. And don't forget, he always carries the Arkananya frills. It will never be alpa from his words" Raka said.

"And you're not jealous?" ask Tristan.

"No, the truth is that, right. I was amazed by Qania's love for Arkana and vice versa. If only Arkana still existed and saw elo approaching his woman, I swear I believe lo will trematar just because it was stared at by Arkana," said Raka while shuddering in horror considering how Arkana used to look at him.

"Oh yeah? Have you ever seen Arkana?" ask Tristan curiously.

"Don't ask again, I often. He could even tell who liked Qania. Wih, the look in his eyes made the heart stop beating, fortunately he was cute. Thank goodness again I'm a guy so can nahan not scream time stared at full of hostility with him, hehehe."

"Sadly very yes, I do not imagine that I was in this position when Arkana was still alive" said Tristan.

"Yes, let's not go near Qania. Have a feeling of liking to Qania aja lo bakalan abis si Arkana. He doesn't embrace elo physically, but mentally bro. He will deliberately manas-manasin lo by showing off his affection with Qania and you do not expect that Qania did not help the Arkana in terms of showing off his affection. You are very wrong if you think Qania will pity the same fate lo. I just let myself see them," Raka told me.

"Truly a powerful way to beat back an opponent" Tristan joked. "Then does your admiration turn into love?"

"of course. I and Qania have even made friends since the first grade of Elementary School" replied Raka.

Although slightly disappointed, Tristan could accept Raka's feelings towards Qania. A foolish man who is close to him but does not put his heart.

"Then, what about you?" ask Raka.

"Gue?"

"Yes, how do you feel about Qania?"

"Gue has loved him for a long time. Liked from afar and wished Qania could see me actually falling in love with her since first sight a few years ago. But the way I approached him was wrong. I always make him upset and angry just because I want him to keep remembering me even though he only remembers that I'm a bitch. You know for yourself, if love and hate that the difference is very thin. Yes, I admit I fell in love with Qania. That's what I'm feeling right now" Tristan replied.

"Gue hates to say this, but how else do we have to compete. Even though you have the same face as Arkana, I will not back down. Except ...."

"Except what?" ask Tristan.

"Unless you are Arkana, then I myself will retreat regularly for you," said Raka broke Tristan's hopes.

Raka chuckled softly when she heard a sigh of disappointment from Tristan.

"If I were Arkana, then what would you do?" tristan asked curiously, suddenly he hoped to become Arkana Wijaya.

"Hahahaha .. some hope to be Arkana Wijaya nih," ledek Raka.

"Jawab only," to Tristan.

"As I said earlier, if you are Arkana then I will with a heavy heart back regularly for you. I'm going to take care of your second marriage which was delayed. If you are Arkana," answered Raka with a smile when in his heart he continues to suppress his feelings.

"Thanks," Tristan said with a smile and it astonished Raka.

"You should go home and let me keep Qania here. I was afraid that later he would come to his senses and see that he even remembered the incident earlier," Pinta Raka.

"Although reluctant but yes I must return. Please take care of Qania" said Tristan.

Raka nodded then looked at Tristan who had boarded his car until the car disappeared from his sight.

Sure is not sure but I feel he's Arkana, Raka's inner.

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