Forever Love

One Step Closer

Qania looked at the man who was sitting in the living room chair of her boarding house who was engrossed with her mobile phone. She had just come out of the room after changing clothes and Lala knocked on her door because she said there were guests.

“Ekhmmm ..”,.

Qania cleared her throat violently making the man shocked and dropped her phone, while Qania only giggled at the look on her upset face.

“Salsabila, Lo ngeselin really. Kan, I am not a savage” complained Raka.

Qania rolled her eyeballs and walked up to Raka who was pressing her phone screen.

“You're this early what's here?” qania asked as soon as she sat down beside Raka.

Raka took off her phone and kept it on the table then stared flatly at Qania.

“Hei princess, it could be eleven o'clock in the afternoon you said morn” raka's nag.

“For children this technique is still morning” said Qania.

“Not wrong? Isn't that the Law child now?” ledek Raka's.

“Yes I'm still a technical kid, people I know undergraduate Teknik” kekeuh Qania.

“Yes, yes. Debate the same campus princess and her engineering faculty queen never won, I know kok” said Raka put on a resigned look.

“That you know”,.

Qania laughed, and seeing her heart worship laughing made Raka laugh too.

‘Crazy, Qania is still as beautiful as ever. Hah, my feelings until now can not turn away from Qania’,.

“What's face-to-face, ntar fall in love” sentak Qania.

“From first we fell in love Salsabila” sahut Raka.

Qania fell silent, her words that wanted to prank Raka turned to her instead. He forgot that this man in front of him was the only one who still waited for a love answer from him when the others had retreated and disappeared somewhere.

“Emang still?” qania asked softly and was barely heard by Raka who was again busy with her phone.

“Ya is still, I will not give up” said Raka.

Out of nowhere a tinge of red dyed Qania's cheeks, her heart warmed to Raka's confession. An intention arose in his heart to make Raka reveal his heart.

“Yes geez Ka, I've told you you should just find another girl” said Qania provoke Raka's emotions to let out her heart.

“Qania, from the past until now there is no one who can make me turn away from Lo. Although thousands of times Lo reject me, then a million times I will return to elo again and wait for Lo to say yes, I love you also Raka. Please Qan, do not forbid me to fall in love with Lo, because that's right I” said Raka seriously while staring fixed netra Qania who was also staring at him.

‘I really want to hold his hand while revealing my feelings. But I'm not brave', though',.

“Sorry Qania, but I really can't if you tell me to go find another girl. I don't know why my heart just wants Lo to take it. I beg Lo do not go farin me just because I still have a sense of love to elo Qan” continued Raka pleaded.

Qania sighed, she was again confused eh Raka with her feelings that she had just expressed.

“Raka Saputra, you are handsome very handsome even, kind and considerate. You are the perfect package, many girls in line want to be your lover even your wife Raka. I'm just a woman who already has children and is not worthy of you. I'm not forbidding you from falling in love with me because it's your right. I also will not know you because we are friends even from childhood we are friends and I am comfortable with you. But I'm sorry I haven't thought at all about replacing Arkana in my heart. Only stupid girls reject you Raka” said Qania unconsciously grasping Raka's hand.

“Dan ..” Raka has not continued her speech due to nervousness of her hand held by Qania.

“And I am that fool” muttered Qania softly.

I don't know at this time Raka was moved and wanted to laugh because Qania had just said that she was stupid, something that Qania had never wanted to admit all this time.

Raka also clasped Qania's hand while staring closely at the two netra Qania.

“Qania, you are a fool for wasting a handsome man like me who you say is the perfect package. But I'm more stupid because I keep waiting for you who actually keep rejecting me. You know Qania, I always tried to wake myself up to this unrequited love, but it only lasted for a moment because I fell in love with you again. Every time I look at you, think of you, the feeling I've let go back even deeply I love you Qania”,.

“Raka me ..”,.

“Sttt .. don't interrupt me first Qania. You just shut up and be a good listener” said Raka and Qania nodded.

“Qania, I do not want to be hypocritical if until now I am still waiting for an answer yes from you. I don't want to pretend to give up and wear a friendship mask to get close to you and stay by your side. You can be angry with me but please don't stay away from me Qania. You don't know how tortured I am when I'm away from you. Qan, I've been hunching on this feeling for a long time and Lo knows here, in my heart already stored a place for elo that I do not know when Lo will come and live in a place that I have prepared it”, so,.

“Gue knows Lo's love for Arkana is huge and will never be replaced. I will not maksain elo to lupain Arkana because I know how difficult it is to eat people we love, like me who although elo nolak I Lo angry and ngemauhin me, I can not escape elo and more and more days it just feels me to elo it continues to grow and torment me Qan”,.

“Gue feels like giving up but not giving up. I know what position Lo can't seem to Arkana so. I understand because that's what I'm rasain to elo. I only ask for one percent of the place for me in Lo's heart. Lo has every right to love Arkana as she pleases because she is the first love and husband of Elo. I just hope that someday this place that I have prepared will be Lo visit and my greatest hope Lo will stay and settle there”,.

Qania fell silent listening to Raka's heart. It is a lie that Qania says she is not touched by Raka's words. He was confused how to respond.

“Raka, I thank you so much for loving me so much that I am so ashamed to not be able to return your feelings. You know Raka, I'm honestly touched by your confession. But I can't give you any hope even more so I'm a woman who has children ..”,.

“I don't care ..”,.

“Sttt .. don't interrupt my words” said Qania softly and Raka nodded.

“I tell you one thing that makes me not want to open my heart and the opportunity for another man to approach me, it is because I do not want my son to be set aside. I prefer to be alone so that my love for my son is never divided because you also know he has lost the affection of his father since he was still in the womb. I was afraid that when I got married and had another child my Arqas would be set aside and it was not impossible that the man who would become my husband would love his own son more. I'm afraid my son is sad and feels a loss of affection. I just want to bestow affection on my son so that he does not feel a lack of affection even though his father is gone”, said Qania at length followed by his sobs.

Raka was stunned by Qania's confession, not knowing that the reason Qania had been shut down was because of her son. Fear of the possibility of his son will be sidelined and hurt.

Raka who sat beside Qania immediately carried her into her arms, letting Qania spill her tears on her chest.

“I now understand your situation Qania. It may be true that you think so because if I were in your position I would prioritize the interests of my son who has lost one of his parents. You were right by anticipating it all” entertain Raka while rubbing Qania's back.

“I'm afraid Raka, I'm so afraid to make my son sad let alone cry because his heart hurt by being sidelined. Understand” Isak Qania then release his embrace from Raka.

Raka wiped away the tears on Qania's cheeks then she smiled broadly.

“Qania, I can't promise you anything much less swear I won't spare your son because that's not necessarily what I can fulfill. I just want to help you get out of your pit of sadness and your loneliness. I want to take you to a future where you still have the opportunity to gain the love and protection of a man who will be your priest. I know you will reject me immediately but please think about my request and this Qan”, please,.

“I don't ask you to be a bad boy and make you feel ignorant of your in-laws. But I'm sure your in-laws and your parents both want your happiness” Raka said earnestly.

“I'm afraid to accept your feelings but it turns out I only think of you as an outlet Raka. You're the one who sucks, you who likes to sing to me and always pisses me off and all about your habits it reminds me of Arkana Wijayaku” lirih Qania.

“Don't bother that Qan, let you think of me as your impingement. Don't worry about me, because I've been thinking about it for a long time and I know it's a risk I have to bear because I dare to want you. I am sure of one thing Qania, not always cloud cover the earth because the sun will come to drive it away. Remember Qan, there is a rainbow after rain” said Raka steadied her heart.

Qania smiled, she nodded.

“Will I think, and pray that God turn my heart” Qania said with a sweet smile.

Raka was wide-eyed to hear the Qania saying, he did not expect that answer would come out of the mouth of the woman who had always rejected him.

“I will try Qan, will keep trying to seize your heart. I will even force God to turn your heart” said Raka girang.

‘’Will my decision not hurt my Arkana?,.

“You should not be happy first Raka, not necessarily God will grant your wish” ledek Qania.

“If God doesn't want it then I will continue to force it and I will seduce it. If necessary I tikung Lo in a third of the night” kekeuh Raka.

Qania chuckled, she laughed with Raka's persistence.

“Don't laugh like that, you always make me fall in love many times every time I see you laugh. But you until now did not take responsibility for my feelings” Raka said then he laughed.

“I would have said that I did not want to be responsible” sahut Qania still accompanied by laughter.

Raka snorted, then she smiled sweetly at Qania.

“Raka, do not be disappointed if later my decision will be the same” said Qania in a serious tone.

“If my efforts and prayers do not come to fruition I will definitely be disappointed but I will not force you. Maybe it is God who does not want my wishes” said Raka Legowo.

“Thank you Raka Saputra” said Qania while smiling sincerely.

Raka nodded while returning Qania's smile.

“Jalan yuk Qan” take Raka.

“Where?” ask Qania in shock.

“Where aja princess campus mau” replied Raka origin.

“Ya already come” said Qania directly standing.

“Come, but how's Lala?” asked Raka who had not seen Lala's whereabouts after opening the door for her.

“He was gone. He's taking care of his grades on campus. I'll send him a message later if he comes home and find me. Let's measure the way” replied Qania.

Raka happily obeyed the wishes of the owner of her heart.

‘One step closer. Soon Raka, soon Lo will have a place in the heart of Qania. Oh my God, I beg you to cooperate', please',.

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