SECOND LOVE
CHAPTER 90
"So you've been restless since yesterday, your mas Bas country has no news?" Amanda asked, to which Nilam answered with a weak nod.
"Why don't you call?"
"No ah. Males. Chat I'm not bales with him," said Nilam with pursed lips.
Amanda was embarrassed to hear her best friend's answer. Looks like Nilam had to hear a short lecture from him this morning.
"Lam, prestige will not make you happy, which actually makes you regret later." He pressed every sentence.
"What about donk, Nda?"
"What do you want?"
"So, please ...." Nilam is weak.
"Now I'm asking you, actually you don't feel the same way Baskara?" Amanda Fishing.
Nilam stared at his best friend's bead with a wistful glance. He also did not know what he felt about the man. Precisely limiting yourself to still be able to deny his feelings.
"I don't know what I feel about him, Nda. I feel comfortable and safe being around him, I can also be who I am, without having to show my best version. He can always understand me, always trying to give his best for me. But, I was afraid of giving her more of this sense. I'm afraid I'm disappointed again, Nda." Answer Nilam at length.
Amanda listened to Nilam's outpouring of hearts. The tomboy girl already knew what was going on between Nilam and Bas. As a friend, he also understood what Nilam felt all along.
But so far, he did not want to be too deeply involved in the personal affairs of the two of them.
"You're too strong to hold your heart, Lam. But you do not realize, that strong grip, has made it slowly detach. You don't want to fall in love with her, but that sense has grown in your heart for her, without you noticing Lam." Nilam was surprised, Amanda knew what she was feeling, and tried to deny her all this time.
"No, I have not reached the stage of falling in love with Pandu." The girl denied.
"What is the name if not love? You fidget like a hot worm like yesterday, thinking about it, right? Don't cover me up Lam ... I already know everything. It's just that, my message, your feelings it's good to show or express to the Bus, to make him happy. So that he knows, if his struggle all this time is not in vain."
"But I'm still scared, Nda ... I'm afraid, when I've entrusted my heart to him, the same thing happens again."
"Not all men are assholes like Pandu, Lam. Do not close the chance of others, just because of your excessive fear. You are too focused on the wounds of your past, so your heart seems to fight when there is happiness that tries to approach. Remember, when one door of happiness closes, the other opens. But often we look too long at closed doors, so we forget there are still other doors, which God opens for us." Amanda.
Nilam's eyebrows are shrinking. Trying to digest every sentence that comes out of his best friend's lips.
"Your last sentence, I think I've heard." Said Nilam, ruining his best friend's serious fashion.
"Ck, I copas in FB those words ... You see, I learned wise too." Ketus Amanda, make Nilam chuckle.
"Anyways, if you don't want to regret it, call Baskara now. Learn to show your feelings for her, before she gets tired of waiting and really gets out of your life,"
"Eeh don't donk ...." Nilam answered Amanda's words spontaneously, making her tomboyfriend laugh.
"So she said she wasn't in love" Amanda murmured.
***
Although hesitant, Nilam finally obeyed the advice of Amanda.
Before leaving for work, Nilam took the time to contact Bas, who had not heard from him since yesterday.
"Hello, Nilam. What's up?" The bus answered the phone from the girl, on the second ring.
"Mas, where else? Mmm kee, haven't you heard from me since yesterday?" Ask Nilam to doubt.
Bas smiled, hearing complaints from his girlfriend.
"Ah, yes. Mmm sorry Lam, two days ago mas suddenly returned home. Utari's son suddenly had a seizure and was rushed to the hospital. I'm calling to have the staff take care of his administration." Pass the bus in a soft voice.
There was an unusual tone that Nilam caught from Bas's voice back then.
"Then how is it?" Ask Nilam.
"It's improved, but it's still in the NICU."
"Oh my goodness ... Sorry, I haven't been able to go there. Do not know if there is a gini disaster," regretted Nilam.
"Yes, it's okay. I can't get a lot of people for now either." Sahut Bas's.
"Mmm means you're still a long time at home?" Ask Nilam again.
Feeling sad, having to wait again to be able to meet the man.
"Later in the afternoon the plan was back, why? Same kangea as me?" Baskara Goda.
Without the man knowing, Nilam's reddened face held in shame.
The girl did not answer Baskara's temptation.
"Mmm so you want to go out of town?" Ask to divert the subject.
Baskara took a breath,
"So, Lam. But maybe a few days back. You have to finish the job here first." Sahut Baskara honest.
"Oohh ...." Nilam, feel a little more relieved. At least there's still an extra few days left, before he'll actually part ways with Baskara.
"Mas, I'm leaving first yeah ... Greetings to Utari same mother, sorry has not had time to nengokin dedek baby." Nilam ended the conversation, as he felt he was running out of topics. And again, when it was noon, he had to leave for his workplace immediately.
***
The sad face that Nilam displayed while at the boarding house, slowly disappeared to change the girl's cheerful smile.
True what Amanda said, prestige does not bring happiness. At least that applies to him at the moment.
If Nilam did not hear the suggestion of his best friend, maybe until now Nilam did not know what happened to Bas, so the man disappeared all day yesterday. And certainly in still remain with an unreasonable mood at this time.
"Deehhhh like this if people are kasmaran again, the behavior is like ogeb." Syndicate Amanda.
"What the hell? Envied? Say boosss ...!" Sahut Nilam.
Nilam and Amanda spent eight hours of their time, in a boutique that today is quite crowded with shoppers.
Nilam can't wait for the afternoon to come. He was very eager to meet with the bus. For some reason, after hearing the lightning lecture from Manda this morning, the girl felt a longing many times aimed at Baskara.
Has her heart now confessed that she has fallen in love with the man?
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