The Marriage Order

S2 Love?

It was late at night when I was sitting in the ICU waiting room. Playing the phone in your hand. Look at the messages I've been ignoring since yesterday. Many messages from Kak Baruna further plunged me into the abyss of guilt and regret.

The excellent man, whether to be in a quiet cold room with patients who are equally unconscious.

Call from Mr. Reynand several times I ignored. I don't want to hear his voice. He is a man who will always advance if I continue to challenge his will. This time I'd better avoid him.

I saw Aunt Meri exhausted. From the morning he also went home. We are still here looking forward anxiously waiting for the conscious Kak Baruna.

Every time the nurse calls the patient's family, and then seeing with my own head and eyes, the patient's family will cry hysterically. One of their families, a fellow ICU patient, died. I got carried away with deep sorrow and shed tears. Same with Aunt Meri. We are very afraid, if suddenly Aunt Meri was called and something bad happened to Kak Baruna. However, he tried to look stronger than me. Constantly rubbing my back tried to calm down as I suddenly shed tears back.

"Sher, you better go home. It's seven o'clock now" he told me.

"Yes, Aunt. Brother Reza is arriving soon. He also wants to see his best friend. I'll go home with him. Aunt take care of health, yes. Look, Auntie's eye bags are swollen from crying a lot" I said.

"You are too. Your eyes are getting narrower invisible. So swollen. Baruna is so lucky to have a fiance who loves her so much." Aunt Meri looked at me with a smile.

Auntie, don't keep saying that. I'm not who Auntie thinks I am.

I just gulped not answering. I don't think I have any face to face with Aunt Meri.

Not long, the figure of Kak Reza who came in haste. He just got back from K. He immediately turned his head towards us when he saw me and Aunt Meri sitting side by side.

"Tante, I want to see Baruna."

Aunt Meri nodded, then got up from her seat, ushering Kak Reza into the room. I saw them go inside, while I was still sitting pensively imagining that Kak Baruna would wake up and look for me. What should I say then?

It feels regret is useless if it is like this. To be honest, I love Baruna very much, but I don't know why I'm lulled by other feelings. Another love offered by Mr. Reynand until I handed my honor to him while drunk last night.

Now I'm starting to think, is it true that what I feel for Mr. Reynand is also the same love I feel for Mr. Baruna? Can you love two people at the same time? Or just a momentary interest? I don't know, until when I ask, there's no definite answer at all. Surely, I've been very guilty of playing with their feelings.

I shook my head trying to break my heart which kept wondering about the uncertain. In situations like this, I can think about my love. As a woman, I find myself disgusting. There is no principle of one heart being whole to a person.

Not long after, Aunt Meri and Brother Reza left the room. They walked up to me. Brother Reza's eyes are reddened. It seemed that she had not had time to rest and had finished crying inside.

"Let's go home!" bring him.

I got up from my seat. Immediately say goodbye to Aunt Meri.

"Tante, I'm home." I hugged his body.

"Yes, be careful on the road. Soon Baruna's father will also come to replace Auntie. You have to rest a lot. Enough Baruna is sick," he said and took off my arms. Both of my cheeks were kissed by him. It feels so good if he loves me.

"Tante is also taking care of his health" I said.

Aunt Meri nodded.

"Tomorrow I'll come here again, Auntie," added Reza.

"Yes, but don't let Baruna trouble your activities."

"Not at all" replied Brother Reza with a smile.

Aunt Meri smiled back. The two of us then turned our backs to walk towards the elevator and the parking area.

Ten minutes later, Reza and I were in the car on our way home. The dark night streets decorated with various colorful street lights add to the vibrant night view seen along the way. However, I am not tempted by the beauty of the lights. My eyes kept looking straight ahead of the road.

Reza didn't talk much along the way. Seen from the look of his face so sad and shocked after seeing Kak Baruna who was lying weakly helpless. Suddenly he looked at me.

"Sir, are you still mad at Baruna?"

I'm shaking.

I was silent not answering.

"You're starting out now, aren't you?" sindir Reza's.

"What else? Blame me for everything that happened! I am a hypocritical and selfish man. I don't even deserve to be with him at the bidding!" I screamed in annoyance.

Reza's sister who heard my response fell silent and did not comment. I took my breath deep. Regulates irregular outflow of air.

"You know, Big Brother just wants the best for you. If there is a problem, everything can be discussed. Baruna is old enough to understand you. Beside that MO agreement, Big Brother knows he's really sincere with you."

"Enough, Brother! Brother makes me even more claustrophobic!" I began to shed tears again.

Reza was seen taking a deep breath from his nose. His chest looks up and down pulling and exhaling free air. There were various feelings emanating on his face.

I know that you are upset and disappointed in me. Brother is also sad about the state of your friend. Sorry, I let everything down.

Half an hour later, we arrived home. Reza's sister parked her car in the garage. I rushed out and stepped inside the house, then into my room. The room I missed after last night didn't stop by to sleep in that place.

I lay myself on the bed. Take the phone out of the bag. There is a notification of an incoming application message. Message from Mr. Reynand.

"I want to talk to you, Sher."

The message was just read and ignored. I had no interest in meeting him or even talking to him. Hate has entered my heart. No matter how much I feel about him, I have no interest in being with that man.

Suddenly my phone rang, a call from her came in. Mr. Reynand called me again. I didn't lift it. The phone rang for a long time until it finally died. Not long after the incoming message notification came.

"I want to talk to you. Please answer my phone, or I'll come to your house."

It's really annoying to talk to him. The second message is a threat. Of course I don't want him coming to my house. The matter would be even more complicated if he came to visit.

The phone rings back. Mr. Reynand called again. I took a breath before answering his call.

"What's wrong? Is there anything to talk about back?"

"Sheryl, I want to talk about our relationship."

The deg!

He really has no feelings! Very selfish! Just thinking about his own feelings. How could he want to talk about our relationship, after something like this happened? Wasn't she crying too?

"What kind of relationship do you expect? I'm still and remain Baruna's fiancee."

"Baruna comas."

"Yes, and he'll be up in a minute."

"I doubt he's that strong. I see him so helpless."

"You're so mean, sir!"

"I'm just talking about reality."

"Father is not God!" I turned off my phone upset.

That man, why over time so annoying. I never thought I would ever say love and sleep with her.

"Aarrgghh!" I yelled annoyedly rising from my bed immediately into the bathroom.