The Marriage Order

S2 Feel Guilty

ICU Room

Same day, 10:30.

I still look at him a few times. Kak Baruna's shady face made me feel even more guilty. I glanced at Mr. Reynand who twisted his body stepping out of the room.

What's on his mind now? Does he also feel regret?

I turned towards Aunt Meri. He gently rubbed the cheeks of the boy with tears that were preparing to fall back.

"Dear, remember there are many people who love you here. So, please wake up!" slowly say.

I keep wiping my tears. My world collapsed instantly. When the hope of marrying him will likely also be lost due to the betrayal that has occurred.

Suddenly my head felt very dizzy. The feet are also very weak. Like there is no energy that can sustain this body.

"Sher, are you okay?" Aunt Meri caught me with her hand.

"Let's get out." He pulled me out of the ICU.

Papa, Mama, Om Anton, and Mr. Reynand were sitting in the waiting room. Aunt Meri sat my body in the chair right next to Mama.

Mama immediately took a bottle of mineral water from her bag and gave it to me.

"drink. You look very pale" he said.

I nodded, immediately sipping the mineral water. The two women beside me looked at me with their own eyes.

"Thank you, Ma" I said.

"Patience, dear," said Mama while embracing my shoulder.

I nodded, then looked down with deep regret.

"Don't keep your head down, son. Baruna won't like it either if you continue to grieve." Aunt Meri raised my chin, making me look at her.

Our eyes meet each other. Looking at each other inside. Her swollen eye bags showed how sad she was as much as me.

"Tante, I'm sorry."

"Why should you apologize?" Aunt Meri frowned in confusion.

"I've been ignoring Brother Baruna since yesterday."

"Every married couple has their own tests. You must not despair. Behind every action there must be a reason. However, you should know, all problems can be talked about" he said so wisely.

I was silent, unable to answer his words. Everything is my fault. I am not an adult in the face of problems. Can only get caught up in feelings of uncertain direction.

Papa suddenly approached me. He rubbed my hair softly.

"The stoic. He must have woken up for you" he said.

Papa, I'm sorry I haven't been a filial son to you.

I shed tears again, sobbing very sadly.

Honey, if you get up now, I'll kneel at your feet to get an apology for me.

Mama hugged me tight for a moment. I put my face on his shoulder. Always warm shoulders for a mother's love. He then looked at me, his black bead eyes so shady in sight.

"Sher, where did you sleep last night? Mama's looking. She called Baruna but was not picked up. He didn't have an accident."

Hearing her words, my finger trembled. How should I answer Mom's question?

I let out a long sigh, lying, "Remove from Kayla's party, I'm staying at her house."

"Yes .. If you can't go home, you better let your family know. We're so worried about you, honey."

"Sorry, Ma. I'm too drunk."

"Don't drink alcohol often. Your stomach is in trouble."

I won't blame the devil's drink. I know that I've been playing with fire. Mr. Reynand is not entirely guilty. Our relationship shouldn't have come to this.

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Reynand PoVs

I looked at my stepbrother's face in the small room with a curtained glass wall. His sleeping face made my heart even more chaotic. Especially when she sees Sheryl crying continuously. He looks very miserable.

Sheryl, my beautiful son. Don't show your sobs in front of me. I really can't see it.

Unconsciously, my tears are shed. Regret will be useless. I turned my body out of that place. Really, I can't afford it. Even I doubt that he will wake up and be as healthy as ever.

Five minutes later, Sheryl and Aunt Meri came out of the room. Aunt Meri took him and sat him between her and her mother. I saw his pale face and went back to sobbing. I want to wipe away the tears that keep falling. It looks so sad and suffering.

Not long after, I saw Aunt Rini hugging Sheryl. He also asked her to talk. I smiled thinly. Finally he could share a little, even though my heart felt anxious, afraid if he said the real thing that happened last night.

Not that I'm a coward, but in a situation like this, confession will make the atmosphere more complicated. If it's a matter of getting married, I honestly really want to have that woman.

But Rey, you'd be the meanest man if you did. Didn't you just regret taking away the lady's honor?

I took a deep breath, it seemed like my brain was starting to go wrong.

I immediately got up from my seat. Anton's father, who saw me, asked, "Where are you going, Rey?"

"Wind seek. I'm sleepy. Maybe a cup of coffee will make me fresher."

"Dad's coming." He got up from his seat.

We walked and went down to the lobby. Enter a small cafe in the hospital lobby. Sit on a bar table. Dad looked at me and then looked me in the eye.

"Why did you come to the hospital with Sheryl?"

The deg!

How should I answer the question? There's no way I'm saying we slept together last night.

I paused for a moment, thinking what answer I should say. Not long after, I replied, "We accidentally met in the lobby," I replied lying.

"You're not hiding anything, are you?" tanyanya seriously.

"No" I replied casually. Surely my lies will continue to cover up other lies.

Dad nodded his head understanding. However, this heartbeat was getting faster due to the two lies I had just thrown out.

"Don't try lying to Daddy. If you take Sheryl from Baruna, I'll teach you a lesson!"

I gulped at Dad's words. I am truly sorry, but on the other side of my deepest heart, rejecting all remorse. He and I love each other. There's nothing wrong with having a relationship like that. Even though he was drunk last night.

I know I was wrong. But I can't lie to my feelings. I really love her.

I lifted the black coffee cup I ordered and sipped it slowly. I kept seeing me asking back. But I pretended not to notice it.

"Rey, Baruna's wedding will definitely be postponed because of this. I hope you don't expect to be an heir as long as he hasn't healed and get married later. Now only a prayer of healing can we offer to Baruna."

"Maybe the mother will ask."

"Take your mama very big. I don't know how to deal with it. Looks like he hates Daddy's family. Especially after knowing the contents of the will does not mention you at all as an heir."

"I don't care about that will anymore. Daddy's family is ridiculous."

Dad took a long breath. He understands very well what I say. No comment came out of his mouth. He just kept silent while sipping the ordered coffee.

My mind keeps breaking. I kept thinking about Sheryl and Baruna. There was a long debate between my guilt and my turbulent love. I think I'll soon be labelled as an ungodly child. I am crazy about someone who is not mine.

"Rey, I'm going upstairs again. Do you still want to be here?" ask Dad.

"Yes, Dad. Leave me alone."

I stepped out of the cafe. I'm back pensive. Keep thinking about Sheryl. What will be her fate if Baruna wakes up from a coma? Will they still get married? What if she's pregnant? Questions just popped into my mind. I can't be quiet if he suffers.