Secret of the Heart

It's Over

My heart was worried when I saw Miko hanging almost 20 meters high on the rig. Maybe something needs to be fixed and Miko is the one who can't believe that the team's work is right before checking things out.

It feels very scared if something happens to Miko let alone see her on the swinging even though safety is enough still it makes me have to pat my chest because of tightness. I even waved my hand telling her to come down when she saw me because her friend told her in a shouting manner.

"Ihhhh, I love to worry about me" I complained.

After all the checking was done Miko immediately went down to help some people and immediately approached me who had been standing with a worried face, she walked while smiling to see me worried.

"Do you have to go upstairs? A lot of others, just know me that now asset managers and technology also."

I was so upset by the scene earlier, that panic filled my brain that I felt a bit angry at Miko but Miko instead smiled happily not the least bit scared.

"Fear, if I fall? I love it when your worry means you love."

I hit her behind him hard. Upset also because I am still stubborn but he is even ordinary as if nothing will happen, I imagine it is not brave.

"I think I should go back to rock climbing, kind of forget the correct riding tricks" he said with a sweet smile.

"Don't do extreme sports, my heart can be dislodged if you do that, easy exercise that is not a big risk," I beg you.

"Run? A bicycle? Tennis? Golf?"

"Anything, the important risk level is small" I replied.

"I don't like sports that are not challenging, after all this is in accordance with my work world, if you find it safe just play the game."

"It's not a sport" I protested and Miko laughed at my face that was upset with her answer.

Miko took off the ropes that were wrapped around her body in aid with some of her friends. When he finished he took me away from the location. After saying goodbye to some of the people who were there we left them.

In the car I was still pouting looking at Miko who from earlier smiled mockingly.

"Sorry....."

"I'm sorry."

Miko held my hand while putting on a hardened face. I, of course, burst out with that apology and immediately smiled at him.

"You're different" I said slowly, still looking at Miko.

True, this is the difference between Miko and Bimo is an attitude that is willing to give up and not selfish. I don't know if there is anything to do with their childhood because Miko still feels the affection of a Father and Bimo doesn't to the point of making her very stubborn and selfish.

"Do you know why I hate Bimo so much, other than all his faults?"

"What?"

"Because he never apologized for all the pain he ever gave me."

"really? Is that how bad he is?"

Miko looked at me in disbelief and I just nodded weakly. I then explained everything to Miko if there used to be an apology said from Bimo's mouth maybe we could make up even if we were just friends. Because I'm the one who can't go back with Bimo in a love affair after everything that happened to us.

"If he's sorry then, will he make up and get back together?" ask Miko.

I shook my head and smiled, for me to be with Bimo when it was no longer possible.

"Something if I've held it I won't let go but if it's gone, I won't pursue it" I replied.

Miko laughed at my reply while nodding as if agreeing with my words.

"Funny yes, I just pursued an apology from him for that long and after he died I just received it through a note, too, as hard as it turned out to be for him to say sorry while I always apologized for wronging him."

Miko fell silent and looked towards the road ahead. Right then, time with Bimo all I saw was Bimo. I never even dared to look at another man besides him. I looked at Miko anxiously but she then smiled at me.

Miko suddenly stopped the car right by the roadside under a tree and looked at me attentively. Trying to listen to what I'm going to say next.

"I'm sorry, saying Bimo's name in front of you" I said with great regret because just realizing this conversation could make Miko misunderstand.

"It's okay, I'm not telling you to forget Bimo just reminding you that I'm right next to you now, more real not a mere hallucination."

I smiled stroking Miko's cheek gently as she said." You're more everything than him."

"Oh yeah."

"Warmer, caring, understanding and more important all."

"Sure?"

"Heem," I replied while nodding convincingly to Miko.

"Well, I'm so happy, baby."

True, the new reality I realized after seeing Miko hanging earlier, how not, anxiety like dropping my heart almost panicked because of fear. It means that Miko right now has the right to hold her hand to go further ahead.

"As I go to Bimo now, I have to get everything done" I asked and Miko agreed.

"My woman is healed now, my Kia is back, wellcome to my real heart Beb," Miko said as she kissed my hand.

*************

I looked at Bimo's grave and then looked at Miko who was standing next to me. Walk slowly over and put the flowers I had bought in the Rose Florist right above the tomb.

I sat right next to the tomb while looking towards the tombstone.

"Hi Bim. I came today with Miko, I want to tell you something, sorry if it's too late," I said with my head down.

"Well, now that I have forgiven everything, I will release you in my heart, let you go, forget the pain but you must remember to keep our children there, I leave them to you, I leave them to you, I'm trying to make peace with the situation, you have to be happy there too lest you suffer like before."

"I'm sorry I can't see you often because I'm getting married, I'm trying to get up again and start a new page with Miko, your beloved sister so promise me to be happy too, now that we make peace, I'm really letting you go now."

"You remain in my heart as a good Bimo now believe everything is done in my heart nothing is left, its over. good bye Bim," I said.

I don't feel my tears falling, it's not a cry of pain anymore but it's the last cry to let Bimo go and I promise in the future my tears will be no more for him.

I stood up while sobbing looking at Miko who was smiling at me. He hugged me very tightly, stroking my head as he said.

"Good, its good thinking and I like it, always with you and love you Beb."

"I'm weak, right? Still crying because of Bimo?"

Miko held my face while looking at me and erased my tears.

"How about I kiss you in front of Bimo?" tanyakanya.

"It's a burial place, don't be weird" I said with annoyance while hitting him.

"Oh yeah, I forgot."

"Let's go home, it's dusk, '" I said as I pulled Miko's hand.

"Bye Bim. pray we're happy."

Miko immediately followed me who had walked out of the cemetery.

**********

"The ticket is ready, the accommodation has been booked for 2 days, the day after we leave."

Wiwin explained our service activities on the phone, the service activities that coincided with the activities of Miko turned out to be Alan also participated to introduce Wiwin with his family who were still around the area where we served.

"Waahh, meet Camer dong, how does it feel?"

"A little anxious, too, afraid I'm not up to their expectations."

"Don't be pessimistic yet, not necessarily the situation as you imagine," I said to calm Wiwin down.

"It's wet, well just go with it if it's not according to plan it's business later."

"there must be a planing B if A can't."

"That's it, Alan's gonna set it up."

"May all goes well, I wish you all the best Love."

"thank you friend....."

"Don't worry, if the initial intention is good it will eventually be good too" I said encouraging Wiwin.

"So envious of you who have camer has fixed the same relationship with you."

I laughed at Wiwin's words.

"Enak just said.. I was also not in the same blessing Bimo, not only one side only both even and you know for yourself how I went through it."

"Geez I'm sorry Kia, I reopened an old wound."

"It's okay, I've made peace with Bimo this afternoon I've all ended, I don't want the two of us to hurt each other again."

"Good, it should have been so long ago so that all can return to normal, especially you will be serious with Miko."

"You too if you have a problem should tell me the same story, do not keep it yourself yes.remember there are no secrets between us."

I laughed as I walked out of the room because Mama's voice was calling for dinner.

"Okey... I'll be ready tomorrow, means we're on a plane with Miko, right?"

"I'll bring you Lisa's report and you'll check it all."

Bye Win's... I miss u so much My love."

I immediately disconnected the phone and headed to the dining table because Mama shouted impatiently.

************

Miko came to pick me up while I was preparing to get the suitcase out of the room. He immediately spoke seriously to Mama who was sitting in front with Papa.

"Miko will speak officially with Aunt and Om after finishing service."

"Tante believes," said Mama with a smile.

Miko lifted my things to the car and we said goodbye to my parents.

"I have something for you" he said as he opened the dashboard and picked up an envelope and handed it to me.

I opened and shouted with pleasure.

"Ticket concert of overseas artists."

I shut my mouth so as not to shout loudly because I felt surprise.

"In the love of my friend from Balikpapan, yesterday during regional meeting V, he could not come because the work piled up, he said, rather than charred he gave me when he knew we were going to be in service and coincided with the date of his concert " explained Miko.

"Cause we were just kids when we fell in love

Not knowing what it was

I will not give you up this time

Just kiss me slow, your heart is all I own

And in your eyes, you're holding mine."

I sang a piece of the song while looking at the two VIP class tickets with pleasure and looked at Miko with a smile.

"Gift," said Miko quietly as she held my hand.

"Thank you Beb, you are the best."

**************

**Do not try to forget the past because the more you want to be forgotten the stronger you remember it just make it all to remember, try to be let go and learn to accept and make peace with it. Because life is essentially living what is outlined, receiving is a way of being grateful and trying as hard as possible to be the best for yourself.

**Friends of writers that I appreciate, from now on if I want feedback please comment on my work, please, not that I do not want to come to another work but rather to me who is afraid that my arrival in another work makes the author burdened, forgive the amount because of my statement, because of my statement, please understand and once again forgive me.

** welcome to read to readers thank you very much for your support, let's keep our health all in compliance with standard protocols, may we all avoid the virus outbreak, thank you.