Secret of the Heart

I Like You First

Flashback on*

Papa stopped the car in front of my school quickly I got out after kissing Papa's hand. I ran inside the schoolyard because seeing no one outside, I must be late.

"Don't run down, '" cried Papa scolding me.

I waved my hand and walked hurriedly while opening the bag until I could not see anyone walking in front of me with books piled up.

Bruyne.

My body hit the book I was carrying as a result of it all falling to the floor.

"I'm sorry, I was in a hurry, I was in a hurry" I explained as I picked out the scattered books.

"That's okay, quickly enter nant you in the law," he said with a smile.

"Thank you ee-eem ....Miko."

I looked at the name on his student ID card and smiled as he rushed to run towards the classroom.

"Basan is careless," Miko said as she shook her head and looked at the missing me at the end of the classroom hallway.

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I grimaced with the pain of wanting to urinate but the class was not over. I had to stand up and rush for permission to run straight to the toilet at the end near the parking lot. I ran into a man who was carrying a mop to mop the floor.

I immediately entered the toilet to pee how shocked it was because the toilet tissue ran out. I didn't get a chance to look back on it when I entered so now I'm confused myself.

"Hello... Is there anyone outside?"

"Can I have a tissue in front?"

There was no answer because no one was there. I screamed loudly while banging on the toilet wall a little worried.

"There's someone outside, ask me to get you a toilet tissue in front?"

I almost cried there's no way I'd come out with this kind of situation. Suddenly a hand was seen above the toilet door with a roll of tissue that wanted to be given to me and I was immediately pleased and picked it up.

Outside the toilet turns out that the mop carrying cloth was Miko, she was in charge of the picket cleaning the laboratory room in front of the toilet.

"It's ridiculous" Miko said with a laugh and walked away.

I came out of the toilet and looked for the guy who had given me the toilet tissue to say thank you but no one was in sight.

"Why don't you let me say thank you" I murmured as I returned to class.

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Mom was busy preparing the lunchbox when I came from school. That's a lot and I know it's for my 16th birthday.

"Why should I be at Ma's orphanage?"

I threw the school bag while laying my body on the sofa. I'm a little disappointed to want to celebrate with my friend but Mama still forced to be at the orphanage.

"Where does it need more entertainment, your friend what child has lost his parents?"

Mama immediately approached and patted me on the back and told me to change clothes because I was going to the orphanage.

When we arrived there were many children gathered and the event began with a prayer led by the mother of the orphanage.

"Always like an SD kid" I complained as I looked at the floor I was on.

I went out for a meal and sat in the chair of a garden looking at the blooming roses smelling so sweet it made me calm.

Someone watched from afar while smiling to see me sitting alone in the garden that closed my eyes inhaling the scent of roses blooming at that moment.

"Why always be alone, spoiled girl, why can't I ever get close to you?"

Miko said slowly while taking a deep breath and returned with her activities when she cleaned the office of the Mother Home.

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Rima handed a can to me while smiling widely from being elated.

"There's something laying in your desk drawer, a secret fan like her," led Rima.

I picked up the can containing my favorite chocolate and opened it with a smile looking at the brown balls of various colors and flavors. A card that says you are my valentine to day.

"Who is it?"

"It doesn't matter who is giving, let's just eat I want the white one to be delicious" Rima replied as she picked up the white brown ball.

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Bimo then let go of my hand as we reached the cafeteria. There are some people who are literate including Heri who says we are like lovers who are fighting again.

A pair of eyes stared intently at us. Miko she was eating and sitting at the end of the window watching me talking to Bimo.

"Are they really dating?"

Riza's friend Miko comes and sits next to Miko. Miko looked at Riza and shrugged her shoulders still looking at us who were sitting not far away without saying anything.

"Haa.ah, why are you always late from your brother in every way, sad," said Riza who then stood up and left Miko who was still sitting.

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Lite.aang.

The cup I was holding fell to the floor as I poured hot water to make coffee at the office while on duty at Balikpapan headquarters. Just two months in living Bimo married my mind still can not be concerned with anything at that time.

"Why so sloppy, that's hot water," Miko shouted as she pulled my hand into the pantry sink then turned on the water and drained it into my hand.

"Don't pick up I'll take the medicine box, stay there," he told me, who was still silent but complied.

Miko looked at me while applying the ointment to my hand and I just lowered my head silently not speaking a word like a confused person.

"Thank you," I said as I stood up and left Miko who was still sitting there without seeing her face.

"When you turned Kia. Unlike before, it was cold."

Flashback off*

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I opened my eyes slowly and felt my hands in someone's hands. Miko apparently fell asleep with a sitting position and the head in the bed looks very slumbering maybe tired because it keeps me all night.

I pulled my hand slowly so as not to wake her up and went down slowly as I wanted to go to the bathroom, walking slowly while holding the infusion pole. When I came out I saw Miko still asleep, I took an orange drink in the fridge.

I stood in front of the window looking out. Heavy rain flushed the earth as if to remove the heat that was yesterday. The wind blew the rain point towards the glass to cause dew that enveloped the glass in front of me.

I approached him and wrote the word hope on the dewy glass while closing my eyes praying that all would be better and then blowing it away. I then removed some of the glass because I wanted to see rain.

"I miss someone when it rains."

I was still staring at the window and looking back at the sound of the chair squeaking because Miko woke up. He looked for me because he was not in bed and smiled when he saw me standing in front of the window.

"A long time awake?"

"Is it better?"

Miko asked as she got out of the chair and washed her face and then picked up a drink in the refrigerator. Miko walked up to me who was still standing looking at the rain outside and stood beside me while drinking coffee in a bottle of drink.

"Do you know that rain has hypnotic abilities, it can resonate with past memories and it can only be felt by people who are longing."

I said quietly and Miko looked at me who was still looking at the raindrops falling from the tree branch in front of the window we were looking at right now.

"Every time I see the rain I always miss the people who leave me alone" I said softly as I looked at Miko with teary eyes.

I don't feel like crying while looking down and sobbing. Right now I miss the person who can hold me while crying because of all the past events.

"How can I erase a past so painful, sad and traumatizing."

Miko then took both of my hands and grasped tightly while smiling at me.

"Let's heal this wound together, me and you hold on like this, Kia you also deserve to be happy" Miko said as she hugged me from behind.

"Is it possible, is it possible?"

"How about we try together?"

I turned to look Miko in the eyes, Miko just nodded while smiling at me.

"I will agree to Bimo's proposal now so you must be ready and you must know that I am the first one to love you before Bimo" Miko said, turning her body towards the window and hugging me.

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**It doesn't matter who loves, likes and appreciates more but who accompanies you when you're hurt and alone.

**When it rains there is a rhythm created and can only be heard that he is missing someone.

**happiness cannot be measured by the pleasure that comes but at the point where we are already happy enough, because being happy too much will not be good either.

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