Secret of the Heart

Should be Me

Time passed without feeling a year we were together. The days we lived were beautiful all the problems we could solve together well. Miko's affection for me is beyond doubt. As I guess right now that all the love that Miko has given me is like water that is really washed away.

Several times we went home to see my family and Miko's family. Dance is even pregnant and will soon give birth.

"Congratulations Dari. Raffa will finally have a sister, '" I said as I stroked the stomach of Tari which was already quite large because of her gestational age had run seven months.

"This is not sick, sister, different from Raffa first. Dancing can't even eat for the first two months. Good thing there's pregnant milk so it's kind of helped."

"It's important you're a healthy baby" I prayed, feeling a little embarrassed because I couldn't be like him.

"Amin. I hope Brother catches up."

Dance stroked my shoulder like she understood how I felt. I told him about my condition about the doctor's verdict, but again he encouraged me not to despair.

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The spirit was also given by my best friend Wiwin, he even searched the internet for the best obstetrician for me. Five days I was with him and Miko was in Singapore to check the health of our reproductive organs. The result was that we were both healthy, and even the doctors there didn't say I was having a hard time getting pregnant.

The doctor said Miko and I are very healthy to have a child but may not have been given the same. The doctor suggested we are always happy not to be stressed in order to facilitate the plan to have children.

From the beginning to the end Miko always reminded and strengthened me that she would accept me as I am. Because everything Miko said sounded so sincere I cried hugging her. To me Miko's affection was the best medicine of all worry all along.

"If you can't get pregnant later, if you can't give me a child. It's okay, Beb, as long as you stay by my side until the end of my life."

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Finally I can return to the calm support and spirit given Miko and family and friends as if to make me back able to stand staring at the future again. The love and love they give more than anything else. I am so happy that all the hands that hold my worry are the hands of the closest people.

Several times I visited Miko and Mama's mother's meal, I always begged them to forgive my mistakes. Is not one of the obstacles to the desire to be granted is an unforgivable mistake. Likewise, when I met Bimo's tomb, I even said to ask God to give me one more child through Miko.

Funny, but that's what I do. Miko even laughs amusedly seeing me talk like that but what is the power I just try. When visiting the orphanage, Mother even hugged while strengthening me. Don't forget to stroke my stomach and say.

"May God grant your request. Mother also begs, so do not be afraid that the time will surely come."

Those are the words that make me feel calm again.

Dio who was just silent spoke as well.

"If Dio had a brother, Dio would have stayed with Mama. Dio would pray every night to be given fast."

"Good boy" said Miko, hugging Dio.

We did once a month look at Dio and bring whatever needs to him. So that even though we were far away he still felt noticed.

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The words came from Mama who tried to call from me to the house. The phone is not taken because it is taking a shower. I quickly called back.

"When are you home?"

"Why Ma? Is Papa sick? Mama what?"

The worry I felt was reasonable because Mama would call only when it mattered.

"All healthy... Papa routinely chek up so everything can be controlled."

I was so glad to hear Mom's explanation.

"Happy birthday my son. Sorry Mama hasn't been able to give her best all this time. But you're always the best for Mama........."

A little sobbing Mama stopped the sentence for a moment, rushing my tears flowing to hear Mama's words.

"Kija... Mama wants you to never be burdened in anything. The problem of the child or other yabg can be solved with a cold head. Never bear anything yourself when you are sad. Mama will be there when you want to always be by your side, so never keep your own problems should be shared with Mama."

"Yes Ma... Miko's a good husband for Kia so Mama don't worry. Maybe we'll be home by the end of the month, Ma. Mama is also the best for Kia, thanks for all Ma... Kia dear Mama,"

Mom hangs up when Papa calls, I can hear you talking to Papa just before the phone closes.

"From Kia Pa's... Kia said Papa's kangen."

The clock is 10pm but Miko is not home yet. Last afternoon at the office he called would be late because there were a few problems in the field. I always understood because of the risk of having a husband like Miko who likes to work outside rather than sitting sweet in the office.

"While tonight was special, did he forget?" I was a little upset.

I try to sleep even though it is difficult, because all this time every want to sleep I always hold Miko's hand. Without realizing this habit as if attached to my brain if I do not hold Miko's hand I can not sleep. As strong as I can close my eyes because coupled with drowsiness and tired body finally I can fall asleep still accompanied by soft music.

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Something cold touched my cheek, I was shocked to jump a little.

"Anawuuwww."

The hand that touched my cheek immediately I kept it away. Just then the lights went out in front of me there was a candlelight visible flashing in the dark. The face of someone I knew was finally visible when the lights were turned on.

"Happy birthday to you.. happy birthday to you... happy birthday to you."

A heart-shaped cake decorated with pink flowers and lighted candles was brought forward by Miko towards me.

"Make a wish."

I closed my eyes praying that we would always be together in any case.

"I guess you forgot," while hugging Miko I tried to hold back from crying, but still couldn't . I hugged her smell of soap apparently before meeting me Miko took a shower first. He put the cake on the small table still with my arms around me. With a friendly look she carried me back to bed.

"Tonight I have you, Beb," he whispered right in my ear while kissing affectionately.

"But I'm hungry" my whine tried to get away.

"Couldn't you? Hasn't dinner?"

I shook my head quickly while holding my stomach.

"Long wait for you, I ate my first cookie" I quickly got out of bed and picked up the cake on the table and ate it.

"Hey!"

Miko looked helpless, she just looked down lethargic and laughed to see me eat. Miko approached and cleaned the remaining butter around my lips.

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It's a tradition in the office that anyone's birthday will be surprised, including me. That morning Santi and the others were ready with cake and a variety of food. Not to forget Arya, she was even ready with a gift box in hand while smiling at me. There are no words I can say to see them pray for me to be happy.

As a result of my tears flowing because of haru, Lisa brought her own homemade pudding to make me happier. He even thanked me for all this time I considered him a family not a subordinate in the office.

After the make a wish and cake eating event ended, sister Santi told me to enter her room for a while like someone would show.

"Another surprise for you" he whispered.

I almost cried out in shock to see someone standing right in front of me stretching out their arms.

"Sister lily."

I kept my mouth shut so as not to scream and immediately burst into his arms. Tightly I hugged to take off the kangen, long ago we did not meet.

"Happy birthday...happy wedding ....."

The soft words spoken from the lips of my brother who came from far away made me even more unable to stem the tears.

"He wants to spend his time here before retiring" Santi explained with a laugh.

"Aren't you the same as me, brother?"

"Kangenin.... The spoiled kia. By the way where's Miko?"

"The front office. So now the same other beloved people." I'm a little embarrassed to explain to Lily's sister.

"I want to give you the gift of time dicuekin..Baklat Brown," Arya sighed while putting the box on the table.

"Special embellishment?" Santi's sister was curious while shaking the box.

"I'm sorry, thank you brother, healthy is always for you."

I smiled looking at Arya's sister who looked a bit annoyed. I slowly opened a new camera. I happily hugged Arya's sister and her pity seemed lost. I tried to use the camera to record our togetherness in Santi's room with the help of Arya.

"Camera gun? What's that supposed?" Sister Lily looked at Arya's sister.

"Let's record the best moment, brother. The spirit of Kia, living only once so create beautiful moments and capture, so that it can be seen again anytime and by anyone."

"Thank you so much, brother."

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When Miko called me to tell me about Arya's gift, she was a little surprised.

"Tumben he's kind to you, Beb. when if my birthday he's just a meal treat never love a gift."

"Well, where expensive again. You're not the one who bought it?"

"Not."

"Did he have the same fault as me huh? So his attitude is like that?"

"Heeey. Remember tomorrow our quality time at once someone wants me to love."

"really? So, wait for me."

"Okey just wait..well until later in the afternoon, bye Beb."

"Bye... I love you."

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Mall on Sunday is always full, we even have half an hour in the parking lot can be relieved when there is empty parking. Walking hand in hand, Miko and I did not care if some people saw us with a smile. Because it was a bit crowded Miko even hugged my waist so as not to be exposed to others. He was trying to protect me from the collision of several people who passed by.

"Shame Beb," I said softly as I looked at Miko.

"What's worse, than you being nudged by another man" he said firmly.

"Oh my goodness. The more protective you are."

I think many people look at us with all kinds of gazes. There was a look of admiration, understandably even envy. But Miko was so cute she even hugged me tighter regardless of them.

Our steps stopped in front of a western restaurant. I took Miko to eat before going around the shopping center. It's lunchtime already. We really enjoyed our time together and celebrated my birthday. Not waiting for long for our order to come, we enjoy eating there accompanied by a live band.

"Eat the right Beb," Miko said as she wiped the rest of the steak sauce on my chin.

"I'm sorry... In front of the husband there's no need to be ashamed, right?"

"Truly too."

"But lying.wanted to see my husband is sensitive if his wife is spruce," my little laugh made Miko join amused.

"Well... mode, but remember the mode is just the same I can't be any other."

"Surely.thank you Beb."

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But a pair of shocked eyes when he saw us in the parking lot, he even followed to the front of the restaurant. He walked 2 meters behind us and followed silently. It seems like he wanted to make sure of something because the bead never escaped the movements of me and Miko. He also sat at a table not far from where we ate.

From the look of the eye implies a taste that cannot be explained yet. Shocked, angry and a little envious but there was obviously some kind of unwillingness.

"I should be the one next to you, not him. We should be happy together, I should be holding your hand instead of her."

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**I believe that gravity is not only in the physical sciences but also in our lives. He doesn't even have a cycle so happy you are not necessarily going to feel three hours later or tomorrow.

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