Secret of the Heart

Longing On

I stared at a man in white clothes. He stood behind me in a vast savannah.

"Where is this?" my question is in my heart.

He slowly turned to look at me with a smile. It was beautiful, as I always remember. Now he was more handsome in all-white clothes and studded with a little light around where he stood.

"THE Bimo........"

My cry broke instantly, I could not hold it anymore. My chest is like being put on a rock because it's tight. I stammered his name while reaching my hand towards him. But Bimo still remained standing in his place still with a smile.

I tried to get close but I couldn't. Like there was a veil in front of us. I sat still sobbing looking at Bimo who was still standing smiling.

"Hey... Chocolate."

The voice calling from Bimo made me lower my head while holding my chest. For a long time I did not hear the call coming out of Bimo's mouth. I tried to stand up so that I could look at her more clearly while wiping away the tears that were still dripping.

"You... Bimo......."

"How are you doing Chocolate? Are you happy now?"

I nodded slowly and saw my reply Bimo smiled wider. But when I looked into his eyes, why did I see such a vast lake of sadness. As if not the same meaning of everything I see, between the light of the eyes and the lips that speak.

"If you're happy, I'm even happier. Congratulations.may my chocolate be really happy now. Please forgive my mistake but please don't forget me. Remember Bimo once, I beg you."

"THE Bimo........."

My tears grew louder and my cries grew louder to hear the words he said. Especially when he asks not to forget.

"How's this? Why every time we meet, I make you cry. So evil am I?"

I shook my head still crying. Finally Bimo approached me, he even held my cheek and wiped away my tears. All I could do was close my eyes, feel the caress of Bimo's hand.

"I miss you. Really.. really miss you," Bimo's soft voice was almost like a whisper that could make me.

I looked at his face and I looked into Bimo's eyes for a long time.

"You can still see me? Have you given Papa your vision? Can you still see me, Bim?"

"I can still see you, not with my eyes but with my heart. Obviously I can get to know you even by closing my eyes."

I tried to touch Bimo's eyes. Beyond a doubt, I can feel it. I slowly touched her eyebrows and then held her cheek. I think it's cold for a moment but I still feel it for longer. I smiled looking at her face, so did Bimo look happy when I touched her cheek gently.

"I miss you too Bim. Thank you for all your sacrifices to Papa. Thank you for loving me from start to finish."

Bimo still smiled and kept looking at me.

"You should be happy. Remember.don't ever forget me."

"How can I forget you Bim. I'll even marry your sister Miko."

Bimo laughed at my confession.

"I'll be happy with Miko. Don't worry Bim, I promise I won't leave him."

"I believe... The chocolate that I know, never dared to see anyone other than the person he loves. That's why I was so sorry I left you."

"You should be happy too Bim. Even though we are different in nature. Don't be jealous if I'm going to marry Miko."

"I'm jealous!"

Bimo laughed to see me startled by his words. But he quickly shook his head and let go of my hand. Slowly moving away from me. I was a little surprised to want to hold him back but Bimo raised his hand, as if telling me to keep quiet. He retreated further and further until his shadow faded.

"The bimo.... Bimo... Bimo......"

I called out to him and stepped forward. But my feet are stiff I can't move. I could only scream and cry sobbing at Bimo's shadow that was getting blurred out of my sight.

"Kija........"

I heard a voice calling my name. I saw Mama sitting on the side of the bed holding my shoulder. Mama was shocked to see me crying and the pillow I was wearing was wet with tears.

"Ma... Kia met Bimo," I sobbed as I hugged Mama.

"Jeez Kia, this is just a dream. Why was crying so loud that it sounded outside the room."

Mama hugged me for a long time, trying to calm me down.

"That means Kia has to look at Bimo. It's been a long time, hasn't it been to his tomb?"

"Yes Ma."

Right, last time I saw Bimo with Miko. When I let go of all my pain and let go of all Bimo's faults on me.

Though all I've given up, why he can still appear in my dreams. I was also surprised that I didn't think about him anymore. Now to me Bimo is a story of the past and the older brother of my future husband, it's nothing more. Now only Miko is in my heart.

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"really?"

A question from Miko when I told her the dream I had. I actually wanted to keep it to myself without telling him, but I would definitely feel guilty later.

But unexpectedly, Miko smiled and held my hand. He was not angry in the slightest and instead laughed happily when he saw my confused face.

"Not angry?"

"Why should I be angry at someone who is gone? It is natural that you can dream of meeting Bimo. He's the one who's been close to you, anyway."

"I'm scared."

"Listen to me, baby... Bimo is still my brother. He is unlikely to disturb and destroy his sister's relationship. Especially if we are getting married. After all, he has no power to separate us."

I looked at Miko who was sitting in front of me happily.

"Nobody can make me wobbly now. I love you Mik, that's for sure."

"I believe you... Baby." It's."

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We ended the conversation when the person from the makeup artist came.

"Let's go Kia. We'll try on her wedding dress" Lala asked.

"I love you" I whispered as I let go of Miko's hand.

"I am too." Miko stood up and followed a man to try the suit that was in the hands of the makeup artist.

"Hi.. I'm Meta."

"Kia," I replied to Lala's friend's greeting.

"My task is not as difficult as La," Meta said with a smile.

We spent almost 30 minutes in a dress I was going to wear on a happy day. I wonder why everything fits so well. My aunt prepared well.

"What hair are we gonna do like this?" ask Meta while showing the hairstyle for the bride.

"I love this," I pointed to the half up braid style because it felt like it was suitable for my hair.

"Yes.this is beautiful," nods Lala.

I looked back and it turned out to be very simple so I agreed because lazy also use a rather complicated model.

"Let's try."

Meta prepared all the makeup equipment and started styling my hair.

"Should be durable make up because this is an outdoor event. Just relax... Meta must have certain tricks to make you a queen for Miko,"

Lala then sat down beside me.

"Why be all like you want La. Don't you want revenge for being married like this but it can't happen?"

I looked at Lala sharply. Lala seemed to think for a moment and then laughed loudly.

"Kok can tell Kia. Well, let's just say this is my wish."

"Gee. once evil makes me a tool to fulfill your pending desires."

Not angry Lala even laughed at my annoyance.

"It's been.. It's like it's simple right? We will put a decoration on the head. What do you want Kia like, flowers or something."

"As far as Meta, what do you think is best. I'll just follow."

"Come ahead, Miko is waiting," Lala asked.

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When I got in front of Miko, I couldn't hide the shock. That's what I see different now. I've never seen a Miko this handsome with a bridal suit.

So did Miko, she immediately smiled widely when she saw me out of the room. Can't help his admiration and praise slowly.

"How's Mik?"

"Emmm......."

I just kept quiet when Lala asked Miko that.

"Not good Mik? Is there anything less?" Lala confirmed the location of my dress.

"How am I?" I asked while looking at Miko.

"I'll tell you clearly later when the event takes place, now I save the compliment first."

"Me too......."

When Miko won't say what she thinks of me today. I will also save until the event takes place my opinion about him. A little curious too but I will wait so will Miko.

**********

I drove Miko home to the front of the car.

"She's about to gulp Bimo?"

"I have so much to say. You don't have to come, you'll be sad."

Suspicion filled my mind. I looked at Miko curiously.

"I want to talk to him alone first" continued Miko.

"Jealous?"

"Little."

"What a mess this is, a time of anger with your own brother."

"He upsets you when we step into the undercover. I'm a man and you're my future wife, it's only natural that I feel a little upset."

"Don't be angry Mik, it's not just a sleeping flower. I promise I won't get carried away."

"I trust you, Beb. very."

"Tomorrow before going into town, I'd like to meet your family's mom. There's a phone dance there's something to talk about she said."

"okay."

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Miko put the bouquet of flowers in a slightly rough manner.

"I have fulfilled all my promises to you. So I'm asking you to keep your promise to me."

Miko stared intently, her eyes slightly irritated.

"Well, it's mine now. Never dare to come to him even in a dream."

Miko's eyes radiated a gleam of annoyance as she stared at Bimo's grave.

"Well, basic g*la..why am I jealous of the dead," Miko cursed herself while sitting and covered her face with two hands.

"But I miss you Bim. If you were in front of me we could talk about everything. You know I'm a hard person to talk about my own problems with other people. I want to look okay in front of everyone, even if I don't."

Miko was still staring at Bimo's grave wryly.

"Please don't confuse Kia's feelings anymore. I want to be happy with her."

Miko left and did not forget to touch Bimo's headstone. He actually missed Bimo's presence a lot. Only Bimo can talk and change his mind like before when Miko was in college and first worked. Separated distance does not hinder their interaction in the relationship because Bimo must have called Miko even if only asking for news.

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I looked down at the window of the room. Seen a quiet street, my room on the second floor of Papa's house is right in front of the road. So if you take a peek down to see the atmosphere of the road ahead.

My thoughts came back when I had a dream last night. I still have a small space in my heart for Bimo, I must admit. My mind was also fixed on the two fetuses I once had. I haven't seen them in a long time.

All the memories of them were kept by Wiwin when I was trapped in trauma. It was all done by my best friend on the advice of the doctor who handled me. He wouldn't let me see or touch anything that would cause me depression again.

And I smiled considering that Wiwin promised to come with Alan in a moment. He told me on the phone when Miko came home earlier.

"I miss you Love......"

That's what I screamed when he called that he had booked a plane ticket here to attend my happy day. He's coming with Alan and my other friends. They will stay at Miko's house during the party.

I took a breath and exhaled quickly as I closed my eyes trying to shake off Bimo's shadow. I deeply regret how I felt at that time, why I could still cry when I met him in a dream last night.

"Please Bim. You have to help me be happy."

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** Who always said kangen with Bimo, I present him in this chapter even if only in Kia's dream. Don't worry dear reader, Kia has moved on. Actually it will be easy to forget that Kia herself but with the presence of Miko must be difficult because it is always related and they are brothers.

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