Secret of the Heart

You and Memories

The wedding dance takes place very simply. The wishes of both sides, the Luthfi and Tari families had already agreed. Only family and friends came. It was also seen that Raffa's father was present with his wife and child. They blend into one like a big family.

Simple but very touching. Especially when Luthfi gave a statement that he would replace the duty of the deceased Bimo to guard Mama Tari. Understandably Luthfi has no parents anymore. She was accompanied by sister Melda, her only sister and husband.

Melda is very happy to see me. We spoke very long after Luthfi had read aloud. We became nostalgic for the story when Melda helped me make schoolwork first. Melda's sister also told me that Yaya's sister died giving birth to twins three years ago.

I became a bit sad to remember about Brother Yaya, because he was the one who helped when I had trouble in the lesson. After Papa retired we were separated and only I heard that Yaya's sister was with her husband who was a police officer and served outside the province.

Miko from the beginning until now always has a happy smile. She is very happy Luthfi and Tari is legally the husband of Wife, because Miko believes Luthfi will take care of Tari properly.

"I'm waiting for you with Kia to get married, that's what everyone expects" Luthfi said as Miko greeted her congratulations.

"Surely," said Miko.

"Bimo must be happy, our sister fell on the right person who is the most trusted friend."

"You know, when I said my contract like I felt Bimo existed, it was as if I had witnessed my promise to Dance. It feels like that, he was among you and smiled at me" said Luthfi, holding her head down. Heri who was there also patted Luthfi's shoulder. He is also Bimo's best friend who gets to the end on Bimo's side.

Luthfi is Bimo's true friend who was desperately told Bimo to get married but did not want to. Because he wanted to accompany Bimo when he was sick. But who would have thought that he would marry Bimo's sister and Miko herself. It is a happiness for the Bimo family to make Lutfhi a member of the family. Luthfi, however, they have always considered family. When he married Tari, Luthfi officially entered the family of Bimo and Miko.

Miko held my hand as Mama approached us.

"After this you will get married, Mama has no other wishes than that" said Mama.

"Definitely in the prayer by God all the wishes of Mama. Miko trusts Ma."

"He should be happy, that's what Mama wants. It's sad enough for all of us" Mama held my other hand.

That day happiness emanated clearly on all the faces of the people who came. Dance did not even stop smiling while holding Luthfi's hand. So was Raffa who had been sitting next to Dari, a smile could not be separated from his face. He looked at Luthfi who was talking to Melda's husband.

"Let's toast to the happiness of Dance" cried mas Tito.

We all raised the champagne glass that was opened by Miko when all the wedding procession was completed.

"For all the prayers for us, thank you," continued Luthfi.

"For Bimo," Miko said loudly while looking at me.

I fell silent when Miko mentioned Bimo's name. There was still a sense of surprise but no more pain because Miko quickly kissed my cheek. They were greeted with applause from all the guests.

"Miko could have," Aunt Hera laughed at my face that met red with embarrassment.

"We must remember Bimo with all his kindness, throw away the bad and the sad. She is still a sister to me" whispered Miko in my ear.

I nodded, Miko is right it is better to remember that someone who is gone is about her kindness. Because in addition to throwing away the pain will also be relieved to step forward.

"It will not be at peace for someone who is overcome with a speck of vengeance."

I smiled, all Miko's words were true. Bimo with all his goodness will be embedded in my heart. He is for me now the one who is able to sacrifice all for my sake out of guilt.

Our love will be a memory that I always remember and make a valuable lesson. One day it will be a wise story for me that love does not have to be united. To go through happiness is not easy there are always obstacles that come up. Without us realizing it all turned to ourselves addressing all.

Some say that life is full of surprises, we will find it every day. Good and bad surprises must happen so use reason correctly so that all can be overcome. Like my love with Bimo there was always a surprise even though it hurt and we ended up giving up too.

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Brother Lina pulled my hand and Miko to a quiet place away from the crowd of guests. He gave me a box.

"This is a wedding couple's ring Bimo, when it was bought to marry you Kia. Brother save it because you broke up, now you want to wear this for the wedding ring. Brother please do it for Bimo's sake" said Lina expectantly looking at me and Miko.

I looked at Miko, not daring to agree with Lina's wishes without Miko's permission. Without hesitation Miko took the box and looked at Lina's sister.

"Miko will meet Kak, Kia too. There's no harm, right? Besides, Bimo is my brother so he requests that I be sincere."

Lina's sister smiled happily at Miko's reaction.

"Make Bimo a wonderful memory for all of us Kia," please, sister Lina, please.

"Okay, Kia will."

"Bimo must be smiling now seeing this, Kia who used to be in pain because she now wants to make all the memories beautiful" Miko said as she hugged me.

I looked at Miko as if I understood what she wanted all along. In Miko's eyes I found certainty and I prayed that the eyes would remain that way until at any time.

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"So you're home tomorrow?" Miko asked as I called in the evening after all the dance shows were over.

""Yes."

"I'll drop off tomorrow after the meeting's about 1pm" he promised because he must be worried that I'm alone. Alan and Wiwin came home after our engagement ended. Only I stayed because I had to attend the Dance wedding accompanying Miko.

"So we're using my car."

"Later home I'm in the company car that's coming here."

"Wait a minute, I'll pick you up tomorrow when it's all over."

Okay. My Man."

"What are you doing Mama Kia?"

The loud, silent voice was shocking. I immediately smiled and ended the conversation with Miko. This little girl would want something to see me.

"Hey... Bena Mama Kia's favorite."

He sat next to me looking forward to the answer.

"For Miko's phone."

"What's wrong? What's Bena want?"

Bena is very fluent in English because he is a school that requires everyone to speak an international language. So he always uses every talk to me even though it is often mixed with Indonesian as well.

"Okey... fine, Mama Kia has also not slept with Bena for a long time. Ihh... why so jubilant," I said while pinching dear Bena's plump cheeks.

"Makanya hastened your wedding with Miko," Andi said in front of my room door.

"Aaahh."

Bena laughed at my surprised expression. He then hugged me and I kissed the cheek that was making me anxious.

"I hope this time it all goes well. There are no more obstacles and obstacles to your relationship with Miko."

Andi looked at me really. He wants me to be happy with Miko.

"Hopefully, we humans only plan and try but God also determines," I answered Andi's prayer with a smile.

That night I slept with Bena, when I saw Bena's sleeping face again remembered with my two baby candidates. If they lived, they might be bigger now than Bena.

How could I erase the memories of them. The first one was very scared when I was pregnant, but the second one I was very happy. But fate is not mine until I can't reach them in my arms.

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I got in front of Miko's office. With two boxes of food, I plan to eat first and then we leave for the city. I knew Miko was in a meeting so I headed straight to her room.

Miko promised to pick me up. But I wanted to surprise her. Once pleasing Miko. Often Miko who does anything so that my heart is happy, now I will do a surprise for her.

I entered after talking to the clerk in front of Miko's room.

"Maybe in an hour's time to finish the meeting, ma'am."

"Then I wait in the room."

I sat in Miko's office. Unconsciously my eyes were fixed on a bookcase that was displayed in the corner of the room.

"It looks interesting" I murmured as I headed towards the bookshelf.

A book with a red cover is very tempting. I slowly took it and brought it to Miko's desk with the intention of reading it. I saw the book called the climber. I smile for sure this is a book about mountain climbers. It is in stark contrast to Miko who enjoys extreme sports such as rock climbing and rafting.

I slowly opened it but suddenly a piece of paper fell right on my feet. I picked it up and wanted to put it back into the fold of the book. But there's Bimo's name there so inevitably I'm curious to see it. I opened without suspicion in my heart I said maybe this is a note about Bimo's health first.

But after reading half of the contents of the paper, my eyes were wide in disbelief as it turned out to be the contents of the agreement between Miko and Bimo. That Miko would be willing to marry me in place of Bimo. I couldn't believe it and read it one more time until the end.

My body is limp, my heart hurts like it's sliced. I still do not believe it and I read it once again, it turns out that Miko promised Bimo will marry me for Bimo.

"So all this time he just pity me because I've been hurt by Bimo? Is that what it really is? Has he really been insincere with me all this time?"

There were a lot of questions in my brain at the time. I limped down and tried to hold back my tears from dripping. But what is the power I am just a woman who will definitely be hurt if a feeling that I think is sincere turns out to be only the result of an agreement.

It felt like the world was dropping me back into the deepest place. Miko who I thought sincerely wanted to treat my wounds turned out the truth only wanted to do as Bimo wanted. The letter was irrefutable because it was all written clearly that Miko was willing to marry because Bimo was not out of love for me. That's what I was thinking at the time.

"I'll just go home by myself."

Crying, I left Miko's office. I wish it was all a daytime dream but it can't be all real. I drive the car fast, I'll just go home. I can't face Miko now, later when my mind is calm.

Right now, if we were to face everything, it would make me angry. Most likely I can decide everything that has been intertwined. This is no longer an ordinary love affair but it is a serious stage. So I better think later so as not to make a decision unhurriedly.

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"Where's my fiance?"

Miko asked confusedly at the clerk in the front office, for not finding me in her study room while the lunchbox was left on the table.

"It's gone, sir, hurry as it seems."

Still confused Miko tried to call me. But his eyes were fixed on a piece of paper and a red book on the table.

"Belgium .... Shit!"

Miko tore the paper into small pieces and threw it in the trash. Then try to call me back.

"Please lift. please Kia," please Miko.

His face looked very worried. He didn't expect me to find the letter of agreement he had made with Bimo. He had no intention of getting married and taking Bimo's rights. At that time with half forced to write the original word only.

"I'm Miko, I'm going to marry Kia on Bimo's advice my brother would all do for Bimo"

He did not expect that it would make a misunderstanding with me at this moment. Miko kept trying to contact me with a bad feeling.

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I've been driving for half an hour feeling angry. My phone rang many times but I ignored it because I knew it was from Miko. But the thing kept ringing did not stop lazily and angrily I received the phone.

"You're evil!"

With a cry I shouted at Miko, but suddenly I was startled by the sound of a car horn in front .

"Aaaaaaaahhhhh."

Miko panicked instantly when she heard me yell and the phone call was cut off.

"Kia.... Kia, I can't hear your voice. Kiaa........."

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** If you have to, you don't have to force it. Sharing my seconds and yours, I just want unconditional love.

** What happened to Kia? Why is there always a trial at every step? Can their misunderstanding be resolved? Wait for the next chapter.

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