Secret of the Heart
In You My Heart Comes
Miko opened her eyes slowly while moving her body that felt sore because she had to sleep in a sitting position. He was shocked to see me not next to him and then went to the sink to wash his face and look for mineral water in the refrigerator.
Miko looked at the clean kitchen when I was there, but it was empty and then she walked back to the lounge to wake Wiwin and Alan up.
.pura..aaang.
The sound of broken objects sounded shocking as Miko who was still standing in front of the dining table. Miko immediately ran at the origin of the sound that turned out from the direction of my room.
"Wake up!"
Miko directly patted Alan on the shoulder and headed straight towards my room. Alan immediately woke up from sleep and shook Wiwin's shoulder trying to wake Wiwin up as well. Alan was very surprised to see Miko panicking running towards my room.
"A bottle of wine is empty, let's see Kia," asked Alan to Wiwin who was still rubbing his eyes and they rushed after Miko who had gone first.
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Miko came straight to me who was sitting at the end of the mattress with bloody hands clutching broken glass frames and photos of my two fetuses.
I just looked at Miko blankly. Miko quickly grabbed my hand while sitting next to me.
"Why? Angry at who?"
"As myself all my fault, the death of Bimo, the deeds of my Papa and the death of my two children, all my fault, you stay away from me don't come near me anymore" I cried.
"He finished half a bottle of wine" Alan told Miko.
Miko immediately closed her face with both hands with a feeling of regret why to forget to save and overslept too long and let me wake up first.
Miko then hugged me and tried to calm me down who wanted to stand towards the dresser taking the perfume bottle.
"Why are you here, Bim? Why..... why....?"
"Relax baby, this is Miko not Bimo, calm Kia," Miko said as she hugged me tightly.
I screamed hysterically and cried and Wiwin panicked to see that I didn't even recognize Miko as Bimo.
"I'll call the doctor at home, Miko calm Kia down first" Wiwin said straight out.
Miko still hugged me while stroking my head, spoke slowly and called my name gently trying to make me quiet. After feeling somewhat calm Miko let go of her embrace slowly and looked at the blood that was still dripping on my hand.
Miko quickly picked up the medicine box that was on the front wall of the bathroom. He then washed my hands with water so that they would be clean from the blood, applied the wound ointment and bandaged with a bandage.
Miko looked at me who was still silent with a smile.
"Stop hating and blaming yourself, there are still many who love you Kia."
I just looked at Miko crying because of the influence of wine until I thought Miko was Bimo. Physically they are no different but that's what I'm going through now.
"One more time, don't tell me to leave you, how can I stay away from you because my heart from before until now was all filled with a woman named Saskia."
Miko said everything quietly and sincerely while hugging me. My tears flowed how I could deal with all, Miko looks very sincere now while I still can not be fully confident.
Doctor Dian, my psychiatrist specialist came straight into my room, Miko immediately stepped aside and stood up to give a place for the Doctor close to me. The doctor sat down next to me holding my hand checking my pulse.
"Can't sleep anymore? In the infusion, yes, so that we can sleep to calm down and lower the level of alcohol later we just talk," he persuaded.
I'm telling you when the doctor started pairing the infusion and lay back trying to sleep. Wiwin sat beside me while stroking behind me, he spoke to Doctor Dian. Over time I began to get sleepy because the drugs injected into the infusion began to react.
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"It's good not to collapse, the danger is that anti-depressants in drinking with alcohol, fortunately only hallucinations try if you have a heart attack," said Dr. Dian while sitting on the sofa.
"I forgot, I was wrong" Miko said.
"I've added a dose of the drug maybe Kia will sleep a long time," explained Dr. Dian.
"While keep Kia away from wine first, if only one or two glasses are still good but if the excess is very dangerous."
"Schizophrenia?"
"Not so bad, Kia is only mildly PTSD, can be cured but the environment must support and get rid of all the triggers that lead to increased levels of anxiety and panic,"
Doctor Dian drank the tea Wiwin provided and prescribed the medicine I should take.
"What if the trigger for her anxiety is my desire to marry Kia, Doc?" ask Miko.
Miko then told me all the stories I had from the beginning but Doctor Dian interrupted me that I had told her everything. But when Miko says that in her sister Bimo, Doctor Dian is immediately shocked then looks at Miko in disbelief.
"You... So you're his sister and you're having a serious relationship and even want to get married?"
"Do you think it can't be done, do I have to cancel everything for the sake of Kia's mental health?"
Miko looked rather anxious waiting for Doctor Dian's answer.
"But isn't there someone beside Kia better?"
Wiwin chimed in on Miko's talk like wanting to strengthen Miko that her wishes were not wrong and they all strongly agreed as friends who supported Miko.
"It's actually good that there is someone beside Kia, but since you are someone who is in close contact with the person who gave Kia trauma, it is a bit difficult to be," explained Dr. Dian.
"I sincerely want to marry Doc" said Miko.
"Let's talk more, this is my business card later if Kia wakes up try not to talk about marriage used to be quite friendly and accompanied."
Dr. Dian pampered and Wiwin escorted to the front.
"What effect does it have like that Doc? How long is his recovery?" tanya Wiwin while opening the front gate.
"Depending on the situation, if Kia wakes up call me, explain the situation later," asked Dr. Dian while opening the car door.
"Okay Doc, I'll call the doctor later."
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Miko looked at Doctor Dian's departure in front of the windshield and Alan stood beside her.
"How's Miko? What's your next plan?"
"I'm also confused, heh. I didn't think it was this complicated" Miko replied.
"Take a leave of absence this week, accompany Kia I'm going to the branch office replacing you temporarily."
"No, Kia's the only one taking leave I'll take her home to her parents."
"I agree" said Wiwin.
"I'll take care of all the office problems, Kia recovered it's more important, Miko don't despair I beg you," said Wiwin staring at Miko.
Miko nodded affirming to Wiwin that he would not back down and move away from me just because of this matter. He promised Bimo, my family, and even himself, to be with me and that he can't be denied anymore. He would not face Andi if he backed away from all the promises he made to my father.
The most important thing for Miko will still be to hold her first love which is now in her hands with as much as she can, never let go of it again like when Bimo seized it because he was so sorry to miss all the flavors just like that without fighting a single bit.
"If you want to go home please, I'll keep Kia here" Miko told Alan and Wiwin.
"Later after Kia wakes up I go home, you'll be here later I'll get your needs at home phone people home to prepare everything," Alan told Wiwin.
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"Let's eat first" Wiwin took when Miko finished her bath and there was Alan who was ready at the dinner table.
"I cook in the refrigerator, it looks like Kia has not been shopping so I use the ingredients, hopefully good."
"Well, Lan's ideal she's good at cooking," Miko teased Alan while punching her in the shoulder slowly.
"If Kia can't cook, what about you?"
"Hey. I want to find a wife not a maid, it doesn't matter can't cook that important love me."
"But Kia is good at finding money, balanced is not able to cook can find money," said Wiwin.
"If you can do both, the complete package will be," Alan said with a laugh.
"Huh.. greedy, where there are perfect humans all have advantages and disadvantages of each depending on us to react to it."
Miko then ate breakfast made by Wiwin Demgan voraciously was already hungry as he was. Wiwin handed Miko a glass of water and sitting next to Alan, he also started eating his breakfast.
"When are you inaugurated?" ask Miko to Alan.
Wiwin immediately blushed while looking at Alan sharply.
"Yes, when?"
"Hmmm... not very sensitive as a man," said Miko with a small laugh.
"It's not that, it's a serious matter and I don't want to rush it" Alan replied.
"The reason alone is love Win time if off target just leave it, wait until when again."
"Don't listen to the provocateur, yes, will be patient soon dear," persuaded Alan with a sense of misbehavior that made Miko laugh out loud.
Wiwin glanced at Alan and continued to eat breakfast as well as the others.
"What are you going to do after this about Kia?" ask Alan to Miko.
"Make Kia calm first, I'll take her to the source of this matter later which is Bimo and her Papa, I want to see Kia's reaction when I tell Bimo that I will marry her later."
"What if it gets worse? Miko don't be too pushy can all be one-on-one solved."
Wiwin looked at Miko with anxious feelings, he seemed to want to block Miko's intentions.
"Sooner or later this must happen, Kia must dare to face it and I will be by her side never to stay away so that she still feels accompanied."
"Everything must be resolved from the beginning of the root of the problem, Kia need not be afraid there are still many who support it, me and you for example not to mention family, not to mention family, he must know that to move to the next level there are things that must be passed even though it is not easy."
Miko seemed to affirm that she wanted me to be able to throw away the trauma of the past and just make it a lesson because not only did she want to marry me as soon as possible but also wanted to make things better.
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Miko stood at the door of my room, staring at me who was still asleep. Walk slowly closer to me and sit at the end of the bed while fixing my blanket.
He held my hand in the bandage because of the broken glass while exhaling a long breath of mineral water in his hand on the nightstand still looking at me.
It was very desirable that Miko made me forget and remove Bimo from my heart but it was something impossible but at least she was already happy that I opened my heart to her now.
I slowly opened my eyes and looked at Miko who was sitting smiling in front of me.
"Hi.. honey."
Miko said hello while giving me a bottle of mineral water which slowly moved and sat down even though my head was still dizzy. I drank it and went back to lying down while holding her hand, covering my face with a blanket in embarrassment.
"What is scarle face?"
"No. you look so sweet, very sweet," Miko replied as she brushed away the blanket that covered my face.
"Ah, lie," I murmured while closing back.
Miko laughed when she saw me closing my face with a pillow but she grabbed Miko quickly.
"It seems like it's good, if you're embarrassed by your waking face."
I immediately pouted and got off the bed slowly then headed to the bathroom with Miko's help because I felt still dizzy.
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Wiwin went straight into my room when he heard me wake up and he was waiting for me to come out of the bathroom.
"Who am I?" ask her when I just came out and I immediately hugged her happily.
"Love me" I replied slowly.
"Well, who am I then?"
Miko didn't take it with my answer and Wiwin laughed at hearing it.
"I got you some porridge, I made it for you."
Wiwin went right out to get me some porridge. Miko was still sitting on the bed smiling at me. I also sat beside him, before long Wiwin came to bring me food.
I started to eat it until it ran out and took the medicine Wiwin gave me. Wiwin finally went home with Alan after calling Dr. Dian and saying I was going to the clinic next week.
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Miko looked at me who was lying in front of her and then lying down facing me.
"Tomorrow we go home, yes, meet with Papa and Mama," he asked.
"Already leave permit later Wiwin who take care of, work in Lisa's handle just check all through online later I help," he continued.
"Thank you. Make it all."
"I am your man, don't forget it," Miko said as she touched my forehead slowly and I just nodded.
"Why do you want to be like this and be so good to me?"
"For me it is not only someone I love but also someone who makes me feel like a protector, and from the beginning and end of the place where my heart empties."
"It's confusing."
"I'll answer everything clearly later when we get home, I promise I'll tell you everything."
I looked at Miko with complete trust because I was the one who never wanted to force anyone to tell her what she wanted to keep. For me the more important thing is that Miko wants to be together and accompany me like now, that is more than enough. I felt so happy with her treatment that it made me feel like a special person in her eyes.
Miko picked up the phone and played a very touching song. I smiled when I saw Miko singing slowly while holding my hand.
You are a heart poem
In the longed for the unbrimmed
I want you to exist
When I opened my eyes
Until I close it back
You cleared the gray fog
The savannah of my search
Like the morning dew
You release the thirst of the drought of the heart
You're the morning painting
Which I drew for my gun
You're a flower coaxe
Which colors my spring
In this heart of hearts
You made it bright
You are my eyes
And you are the ocean
Where my heart empties
You are the answer to my prayer
That ended my wait
Like a shooting star
You bring hope in the heart
You're the pounding of the waves
Who broke my rock
You're the star cluster
The one that decorated my dark night
In this heart of hearts
You made it bright
You are my eyes
And you are the ocean
Where my heart empties
Song tittle Muara by Adera.
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**When hurt ask yourself, "may my heart be filled with hatred and place it for so long in the heart, would it not be better to just remove it with one word of apology and regrow a sense of love as well as spirit?"
**Welcome to read may all be useful, thank you deeply for the reader and apologize if there is an error in this novel, I'm just an ordinary human who is still lacking. Always healthy and warmest greetings from Kia.
