Secret of the Heart

That hatred is gone

Luthfi drove me to the car, he promised to meet me with Bimo. We headed straight out of town along the way Luthfi looked at me anxiously and once held my shoulder trying to calm me who was crying not stopping.

I couldn't stop the tears because the reality was shocking me. After knowing everything I wanted to ask Luthfi why Bimo didn't want to tell me the real problem of just saving himself without sharing the story with me.

Once again that's the person of a Bimo, he won't say anything that will hurt me and make me feel burdened. Wanted to keep the wound to myself so I wouldn't get hurt again.

We arrived at the cemetery where Bimo was buried and rested forever. My tears were getting louder as I got out of the car, luthfi still had me she was afraid I would faint from being so sad.

We walk through the road that has been provided, the cemetery is very beautiful surrounded by shady trees look green. There is a park in front of the entrance to the tomb near the car park in front of the burial site.

We arrived at a tomb the ground was still wet. I could no longer stand sitting straight beside the headstone and crying out loud, what it felt like was why something was missing half of my heart. It seems like Bimo has brought a part of my heart into his realm I can even feel a great pain when I say his name.

I stared at the mound of land that had not dried up with nanar. And Bimo's name was inscribed on a tombstone complete with his date of birth and date of death. I sat there holding his headstone and could not say anything I did but weep lamenting our story which was like the tragedy of the way of life.

Being able to crush all the hate that was in my heart that is now the reality. All the stories I just heard were able to erase my 10-year hatred for Bimo who is now changing with great regret.

"Why don't you want to tell me anything first, why let me hate you Bim, why keep it to yourself, why not let me know?"

I wailed as I cried hitting Bimo's headstone with half a scream.

"The wicked men dare to leave me alone with this reality, come back...A bimo..."

I could no longer continue the words just crying and hugging the already cold gravestone while squeezing the ground that was on top of Bimo's tomb. Luthfi let me cry out loud she knew I must be like this knowing the truth.

"Bimo doesn't want to tell you Kia but because he doesn't want to hurt you and your family Kia, he wants you to be happy actually he doesn't want you to get hurt a second time because of him," obviously Luthfi quietly while looking at me.

"If he had told you in the past there would have been a lot of people who were hurt because he knew you would definitely come back with him so that's why he kept quiet and kept it to himself" Luthfi continued.

"It should be able to forgive him, let him go and let him go because that's what Bimo wants for everyone he loves" Luthfi said in a slightly hoarse voice as if holding something still tight on his chest.

I couldn't say anything but stare at the mound of earth in front of me with tears that wouldn't stop.

"When Bim has come, he can forgive you.I have brought him my promise, but now I have paid off" said Luthfi, staring at Bimo's headstone.

I cried even more loudly at Luthfii's words and then hugged me who was still putting my head on Bimo's grave. Luthfi was next to me holding and hugging my shoulder as if strengthening me.

"You must be strong Kia, I will try to help you whatever I can do now," he said softly while persuading me.

I could only look at Bimo's tombstone in regret while caressing her. The person I once loved so much and so much I hated lying here alone in the cold.

Bimo carries the secret of truth that happens until he closes his eyes. He didn't want to hurt me and have my relationship with my parents destroyed a second time because of him. He chose me to hate and blame him so that I could stay with my parents.

I was in Bimo's grave for an hour and my tears couldn't stop dripping. I deeply regret why knowing this was not from Bimo himself but from someone else. What I have to do now is really eager to go back to the last time I met Bimo at the reunion and heard him tell me himself everything wasn't like this.

I cried again remembering the incident when I yelled angry at him and I even pushed him to the ground. Now that I know the reality of the hate in my heart so long gone changed with regret.

"I'm sorry Bim.forgive me," I said, hugging his headstone.

"Let's go home now it's late afternoon I will deliver if it hurts later," said Luthfi persuaded me.

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Luthfi stopped the car in front of her house and she told me to get down and get into her house.

"There's something I want to give you" he said, opening the door.

We went inside Luthfi and then into her room seemed to want to pick something up and then not long before she came out carrying something. Luthfi handed me an account book and an ATM card and I was shocked to receive it.

"What's this?" my question is still sobbing.

"Before Bimo died, he had everything ready, the money was his savings to marry you first and Bimo wanted me to give it to you" Luthfi said.

"Hold it, I don't want to" I said, rejecting the Bimo savings Luthfi gave me.

"That's your money Kia... Bimo doesn't dare to wear it, he would rather sell cars and motorcycles than use the money" Luthfi explained, handing me a book and a card.

I was so moved and cried again to hear it. This card I gave Bimo the last time I met him in Sangata and that was the last night I was with him. Luthfi looked at me with a smile she now knew I never stopped loving Bimo even though there was hatred in my heart.

"Open the box later all your memory items and there is something Bimo wants to tell you there, prepare yourself Kia," Luthfi said as she patted my shoulder slowly.

"Is there anything else I don't know? Why is there so much that I don't know, why is this Bimo to me, why are there so many things that you keep me secret?"

Luthfi smiled at me and she then held my hand while sighing.

"Bimo is my best friend and my family, he until the last moment of his life keeps thinking about you Kia, I'm so proud of him he never turns his heart away from you" she said, looking at me who was still crying.

"I'm sorry Bimo sincerely threw out all the hate in your heart, he's the one who sacrificed the most for you" Luthfi continued.

"But I can't see it anymore" I sobbed and wiped my tears with both palms.

"If you open the box that Bimo gave you you will know the sacrifice he made for you" Luthfi said looking at me.

"You can still be with him, he'll see you every day Kia, so later if you look at him try smiling so he's happy to see you."

I just looked at Luthfi with a confused look. But she smiled as she took me home because it was already night. And I'm gonna open the box Bimo gave me tonight because I want to know what's inside.

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**What is the contents of the box given by Bimo which according to Luthfi is Bimo's sacrifice to Kia.

**How many times did Bimo fall in love with Kia during her lifetime? Why would he be able to do anything to still be able to see Kia?

**"Hey Brown, I want to seduce you right now, things I've never done in my entire life."

** Be looking forward to the next episode and thanks for all the support, don't forget the rate, like, comment and vote yes.....😊😊.