Secret of the Heart

New Vision

I woke up when the alarm on Bimo's phone sounded really loud. I looked on the phone screen at five o'clock in the morning and wrote because it was time for Bimo to go to work.

My head was still heavy and my eyes were still swollen from crying almost the entire night. Mama opened the door to my room and was suddenly very surprised to see me like I was not excited and lots of stuff was strewn over my bed.

Mama approached me who was still lying limp and sat on my bed. How surprised Mama was to see Bimo's stuff. I handed Bimo a notebook while crying. My mother read and cried and hugged me.

"Bimo is a good boy" Mama said slowly.

"Kia even beat him up all this time Ma," I said as I sobbed.

"The doctor said he would send a statement and the donor's name in three years" said Mama, caressing my head.

I told Mama everything about what Papa did to Bimo and Mama just cried hugging me.

"Your father is being punished now" whispered Mama still as she stroked my head.

"You have to help Bimo's mother they're down now that they're left behind by Bimo, they're your family too let alone Bimo has given his vision to Papa, now instead of giving your love to them," mama said while holding my face.

"Mama believes Kia is a good boy" Mama continued while hugging me.

"Let's have breakfast, Papa's waiting" asked Mama.

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I got out of bed and washed my face and brushed my teeth. I went straight to the dinner table to Papa and Papa smiled to see me coming.

Papa now rarely speaks maybe because of decreased memory. Papa is sometimes confused and forgets to mention what he wants.

I looked into Papa's eyes while holding my Papa's face and looked at those eyes with a friendly look.

"Kia dear Papa," I said, kissing Papa's cheeks.

I looked into Papa's old eyes "Hi.. Bim, how are you? I miss you" I said in my heart.

The eyes of the person I miss so much are now in front of me and I can stare as much as I can that is what makes me so happy.

"He wants to move here Ma, there is an empty position in the branch office that is suitable for Kia," I said as I sat in front of Papa.

I took an omelet and gave it to Papa with a smile. I will always smile at Papa now so that Bimo can always see my smile.

"Good, Mama agrees," said Mama while giving me warm tea.

Mama and I won't tell you anything about the corneal donor Bimo gave Papa. Both the Bimo family and Papa himself and even others.

Because Bimo has already asked for all of that in his records. That only certain people knew then and I would know when I opened his notebook because he wanted me to forgive all the mistakes he'd done to me.

Bimo wanted me to know that he was willing to sacrifice for me too. After what he did to me and he was so sorry for everything that ever happened because it left a deep trauma in my heart.

Bimo regrets everything that happened to us. She wanted to come back to me but her mistake in me made her abandon her intentions.

Especially after she found out that we had two children I had born even though they were all gone.

Bimo thought he was barren to feel inferior to his ex-wife. And he never loved his ex-wife either because I was the only one in her heart.

He really wanted to come back when we were at the airport in Balikpapan. As soon as the time can be turned back he will take me far away where no one knows us even if they have to leave everything.

Bimo lived with guilt for nine years for leaving me married. And her regret deepened when she found out about my pregnancy and coupled with the pain she suffered to close her eyes.

So when he heard Papaku had glaucoma he immediately agreed to become a corneal donor for Papa. He still wants to look at me. Mother of her two children. He still wants to see my smile. He still wants to see me looking at him with affection.

He told Luthfi and someone to be his walk-in to sign a statement willing to become a corneal donor. Bimo didn't even tell anyone of his family.

Bimo also told Luthfi not to tell his family when he died because he did not want anyone to know except after doctors had surgery to remove his cornea.

All funerals are also held in the hospital. So when everyone's home is done just bury them. Before he died he had advised his mother like that reason so as not to bother people in the arena house Mama stoke and dance do not understand anything while others are far outside the city.

The hatred and anger that I felt for a long time disappeared now changed very deep regret for not listening to Bimo's explanation when he last met me.

And I also regret leaving her the last time I miscarried. Had I told you of course Bimo would have canceled his wedding in plain sight. He will definitely come back beside me no matter what. I'm so sad why this is our story.

We hold all our secrets in order not to hurt others. In the end, we were also very hurt. Bimo lives in guilt while I live with a heart full of hatred.

We were both so hurt that Bimo closed his eyes. I also felt guilty for hating her for so long and I also regretted having prejudiced her.

My Bimo, he is the father of my children. He's a man I love so much and he was my life's goal. He was also the one who introduced me to the sweetness and bitterness of love.

Goodbye Bimo, you still remain in my heart. My tears flowed as I remembered all the things he left behind for me and my Father that were worth more than anything.

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I smiled at Papa who was sitting in the living room and approached Papa

"Why can you see the television clearly?" ask me Papa.

While with Papa sitting in front of the television and Papa turned his head while smiling at me.

"Yes" Papa said briefly with a smile.

I approached and sat down next to Papa, hugged Papa and looked at Papa's face.

"Mau Kia bought skincare so that Papa's face was clean and smooth" I said while holding Papa's face.

"Is there anything like that?" ask Papa.

"Yes.later Kia bought it, every day it was used yes, Pa..," I replied as I kissed Papa's cheek.

Papa hugged me with a smile and a small laugh. I now spoke to Papa very gently as if I felt Bimo was watching.

Sometimes I also hold Papa's hand and even we have slept three with Mama in front of the television, I now always want to be close to Mama and Papa.

I used to love Bimo's eyes because they sparkled beautifully when he kissed me on the cheek all of a sudden especially when Bino managed to tease me and make me angry he would laugh out loud while persuading me.

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Papa can now move as usual again. This morning I saw Papa walking in the front yard of the house. Even Papa now often sits casually in front of the car salon.

"Hendra...are you healed now?"

Papa's friend when he was working first greeted Papa and looked happy to see Papa was healed when he was carrying his car to wash in Papa's car salon.

Papa just smiled and nodded. Then Mama told all of Papa's friends that Papa was affected by memory decline due to complications of the disease suffered but Papa's eyes could already see clearly. Papa is seen talking to his friend and Mama is accompanying him next to Papa.

"It's important now that you're healthy and can see clearly again" he said.

"Sight is expensive, can not be redeemed with money, lucky you Hen," continued Mr. Edy friend Papa.

I smiled to hear it was true if Bimo did not give his cornea to Papa maybe Papa is currently getting worse because he can not see clearly so it is more comfortable if Papa can see again as before.

"When Pa comes home, Kia will come here again, Kia will take care of moving work first," I said to Papa with a smile.

"What about Bimo yesterday he said he wanted to propose to you, why not come here too?" ask Papa while looking at me.

"Later Kia will be angry with him, Kia will bring it here let us be angry with you both... Pa," I said, joking.

Papa laughed while looking at me with a loving look and I looked back at Papa's eyes that sparkled with pleasure.

"Thank you, Bim, you gave a new vision to my Papa," I thought.

"I'll always smile for you now let's make peace wait for me there, I'll see you later you have to apologize directly to me."

**Bimo leave a guard for Kia, not just one but more.... who is it?... thanks reader for all the support do not forget the rate, vote, like and comment and happy reading😊