Secret of the Heart

Anti Mainstream

I closed my eyes feeling the warmth of Miko's embrace, looking for if there was sincerity and honesty in it. But why do I even feel so much fear because of the past.

I let go slowly and turned to face Miko with a smile.

"I'll think about everything after clearing up the problem" I said slowly.

"I'll wait, but I also have a limit of patience" Miko replied, holding my cheek.

"How long?"

"One week is enough I'll wait and answer all or I'll leave you forever."

"Am I being threatened?"

"It seems so," Miko replied with a laugh and held my hand.

"You should also take care of the woman who played g*la yesterday with you in front of me, hmm..make the one who sees his own shame."

Miko laughed and held my hand and tried to persuade me.

"I'm sorry, promise won't happen again, hmm....."

"If I hadn't come, maybe everyone had gotten away with it, was it often like that?"

"I'm a grown man if anyone offers what to refuse, it's redundant" Miko replied with a small laugh teasing me.

"Speak carefully, don't get close to me!" sniped me with annoyance.

"Have not been discussed again, change the topic, I will not be like that again, but do I have to swear like a new employee?"

I became amused to see Miko who tried to persuade me with her jokes and babbles.

"I won't leave you, so trust me unless everything is against me."

"If you want to leave me please but leave it well and say the reason, let me thank you, do not just play like Bimo," I said while staring at Miko.

"One more time don't make up stories that aren't true, I do like you but I haven't accepted you completely in my heart."

"What if it happens?"

"I'm going to remove you from my brain" I replied with a frown.

"I'm in your brain?" miko asked like my teasing.

"Of course my mind is in a hunch" I replied as I smacked his shoulder in annoyance.

We both laughed together

and we turned to the door because someone opened it turned out Wiwin who came. He immediately raised the dining place he was carrying while walking towards us.

"I brought your favorite Mother's chicken porridge," he said immediately put it on the table.

"Not in the office?"

"I've been absent and permission to come directly here, later Santi will be here also after finishing the meeting with the HRD team."

"Then I go straight home to the branch office yes.There is a Tray Fire Alarm and CCTV installation for the mining office must be completed within two days, the, the weekend I came here not to get sick again and you have to answer everything."

Miko immediately hugged me and smiled looking at my face while blinking one eye.

"You have a special relationship?" asked Wiwin who brought the bowl of porridge towards me.

"No."

"Yes." Yeah."

Me and Miko answered Wiwin's question simultaneously then we laughed because we felt funny by our own behavior.

"As if something was hidden, I smelled something wrong" Wiwin's murmur pulled me over to eat.

"Everything's right with Alan, I'll call if I want to get married say yes, so we can both party, later my honeymoon trip is responsible," miko said to Wiwin who immediately made Wiwin face red because of embarrassment.

"Basically you two are equally strange," Wiwin annoyed when he saw us laughing together.

"spirit... I love you," whispered Miko in my ear.

Miko came home after calling her driver to prepare the car below. I looked at her with a smile when Miko came home. I asked my own heart if I could hold back Miko's hand while the painful past still lingered in my heart.

I ate the chicken porridge that Wiwin brought while telling him everything that happened when I was with Miko. Wiwin looked at me while stroking my shoulder he apologized for rarely being with me this month.

"Hmm. You don't love me anymore because you have Alan, '" I picked up and handed him the spoon I held.

"It turns out like it's your nature if you already have a partner forgetting the old partner?"

"Iisshhh... Are you my girlfriend? Speak carelessly if people hear later we are considered abnormal," replied Wiwin while putting a place to eat in his bag.

He then sat in front of me while looking me in the eye.

"What about Miko? What else to think? Clearly he was expecting a definite reply?"

"Kia..I beg you not to try to reject it, just try to walk let it run by itself."

Wiwin tried to persuade but I still felt the doubt in my heart was too great to look ahead.

"Don't hurt yourself with hesitation, try to live with Miko, I promise to help."

I smiled at Wiwin sitting next to him while resting my head on his thigh and he chuckled.

"Friday has done it" he said, stroking my head.

"I'm still afraid of the old problems, especially after knowing the truth, I even assume Papa is the one who caused the Bimo family to feel pain" I said while hugging Wiwin's hand.

"Kia.. stop hurting yourself with thoughts that are not-not everyone thinks as you imagine, self-harm also has its limits."

"Every time I see Miko's face, I come back to the picture of all those events how can I survive beside her?"

"Always overthinking anything, try to relax it all there must be a way out, Miko is the right person for you."

"Hmm.like a fortune teller," I said, tickling Wiwin's stomach, he immediately woke me up because there was a food deliveryman coming. Wiwin then went to the door and received the food and medicine I had to drink.

"What if I try to date someone who's on a different track?"

Wiwin looked at me in surprise while giving me medicine and water and then sat down next to me.

"Yes.ahh, dating anti-mainstream is like, ordinary employees, odd jobs, e-m street vendors or unemployed all together," I said with a smile teasing Wiwin.

"I have to see a doctor to do a scan of your head, it seems that it is disturbed not your heart but your brain."

He was so upset with my thoughts that he half yelled. I just laughed at the look on Wiwin's face that was still bent in anger.

"Well, different paths might make my life more colorful" I said, holding my stomach because I was amused.

"You can blow up the office if it's done, how can a manager date people who cross each other and not one list with your profession, how can you, there will be a collision of various commitments do not try to stand on something irrelevant."

"So who knows" I said, standing up to the bed.

"Don't do something crazy like that Kia, I'm the first person who will oppose it, besides if you do that you can make Kak Santi faint on the spot," said Wiwin with a threatening tone.

"Why did I pass out?"

Sister Santi came who went straight into the room and put on a pizza box. I immediately got off the bed wanting to approach but prevented Wiwin.

"Be careful of infusion hoses, ihh always careless."

"He wants to have a girlfriend who is different from Kak's path and the difference is 180 degrees, need to question his brain" said Wiwin while taking the box and put it on the table.

"meaning?"

"Ask yourself, Brother, speak so," said Wiwin as he led me to a chair.

"If I don't think I need a rich man, I already have a job, a house, a car don't need to be handsome, more importantly can accompany me and accept me as I am," I said while staring at Wiwin.

"I'm not all arrogant according to reality right, my life is more than enough, work has been ditikan safe, face is not embarrassing, Miko offers her heart even though I have not answered, what is less try?"

"Less grateful."

I immediately laughed loudly at Kak Santi's reply and also saw Kak Santi's expression with Wiwin who was confused. Funny I thought because I knew they couldn't possibly agree with me.

"What crazy idea are you going to realize?"

"If you do, I'll cut off our friendship."

Wiwin glared at me followed by Kak Santi who was also a bit annoyed with the idea of behavior.

"Jeez Kia, enough Dony who used to shake the office often and make the security guard spend extra energy to drive it away," complained Wiwin while.

"don't try to do anything that doesn't-no, I can kick you out of the region" threatened Kak Santi who was greeted with a happy laugh Wiwin.

"Who do you think I'm that close, no. I'm Kia even though I've been traumatized by love but I can still think of who has the most right next to me."

"Sama Miko just don't try to protest again just live it first, make peace with the state of Kia, there is no one who accepts you more than Miko."

I hugged Sister Santi whom I considered my own sister.

"Miko move here first, sister, I don't want to date long distance" I asked Santi.

"Can't be as fast as it has to go through the headquarters procedure, Miko is now the head of the branch as well as regional asset management manager IV there is no position here other than to replace me, but we will try to do so later, a lot of her wants turned out to be you," grumbled Sister Santi as she picked up a slice of pizza.

"Clear, so don't have strange thoughts anymore because you can put a bomb in the office and make Kak Santi lost consciousness" said Wiwin with a laugh.

I looked at Sister Santi and took the slice of pizza she was going to eat and put it in my mouth.

"Not all anti-mainstreams are good, you spoiled bottom," Kak Santi picked up the rest of the pizza in my hand and ate it.

Someone appeared at the entrance turned out Arya sister he came carrying a cake box directly approached us who were sitting on the sofa.

"What's the office moving in here now? The office is empty three rooms only Riko's room is full."

"Chocolate, Miko call tell give it to you, if a lot of thoughts are good to eat sweet especially in the same sweet companion," said Arya Kak while giving a box of cookies to me.

"Huuuu...uh.... who is said to be a poet from the west, what has just come from the east to wander in search of a partner?"

Wiwin immediately laughed amusedly at Arya's shocked sister and confused looking for answers.

"Your nakal yes, it will be said to be the same Babang Alan," replied Arya while laughing.

"Oh. I'm cured, it's better than medicine, my stomach's waw."

I laughed holding my stomach which began to cramp holding amused because of Kak Arya's joke.

"Hey... Did you forget there was a boss here?"

"There is no look, oh Sorry Boss," replied Arya while rubbing her hands apologizing to Sister Santi and immediately hit by a former pizza box.

"Let's book a karaoke room, I want to sing as much as possible do not bring a girl gulai, I fire you later from my friend," asked Arya.

"Well.the menace."

"The three of you get married quickly, the longer it goes wrong" said Kak Santi laughing with us.

That day the four of us laughed loosely and joked, in the office we were superiors and subordinates but when chatting like this there was no limit between us all already like family. And they are a second family to me who always strengthen in times of illness and support good wishes.

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**Sekedar reminded each person is a unique person in their own way, do not let the opinions of others distort our reality, our value will not decrease based on the ability of someone to see it. Be true to yourself and love yourself. The more you love yourself the less bullshit you will tolerate. No one can hurt you if you don't allow it. Sometimes you have to go through the painful to get the best, just look and enjoy the moment patiently let the hand of God move over it all.

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