Secret of the Heart

Goodbye, Ma

The happy atmosphere was still felt and carried away when the Miko family returned home. Dance was still busy fixing everything that was messy when they left this morning. Mas Tito was seen relaxing in front of the terrace with Luthfi without changing clothes. Mama went straight into the room with a reason to want to rest.

Aunt Hera went home with her family. Dio who was invited by Luthfi to come home together refused, he wanted to go home with Mother and Riza. My family is still at the hotel, only Papa and Mama are coming home. Tanteku wants to accompany Ary's brother who is staying at our event hotel.

Aunty looks happy when she hears Miko taking me on a honeymoon.

"You must be happy, you must be happy."

The words that came out of my Tantu mouth when we let go, were able to make me feel happy. However, the best prayer will be more powerful and fulfilled when uttered by your own family sincerely.

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Around eleven o'clock at night dance in Mama's room. Intend to give routine medicine that Mama drank. How shocked he was to see Mama's pale face.

"What's sick Ma?" Dance approached Mama who was still lying down.

"No... Mama's just tired" replied Mama slowly.

"Drink medicine first, do you want Tari to go to bed?"

"No, no" refused Mama.

After taking the medicine, my mother lay down.

"Mama rest, try to sleep yes Ma. Later Mama's blood pressure is high again," suggested Dance a little worried .

Mama just nodded while closing her eyes. Slowly Dance out of your room.

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Outside Mama's room, Tari approached Luthfi and Mas Tito who were still chatting in the living room.

"So come home tomorrow?"

"Yes. I've had a long work permit. Pity Fira kangen with her father anyway."

"Why can't they come here either" Tari's murmur was a little disappointed that her brother-in-law didn't come during our marriage.

Mas Tito just kept silent, he understood that Tari was upset and he could not force his wife and child for work and school reasons.

"Dance to worry about Mama, look pale. Last time Tari asked Mama said it was just tired."

"Mama had too many thoughts for Miko's marriage. A few days ago he must have been sleep-deprived, the real danger" Luthfi said, giving her a seat.

"But not to say, Mama the guy is so hard," complained Tari.

"Yes already. Tonight Mas will take care of Mama. I sleep here so you don't worry anymore" said Mas Tito.

"Well Mas, if something happens call Tari," Tari then went to the room with Luthfi to rest.

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At around 00:00 pm, Tito was shocked by the sound of objects falling from his room. He rushed in, seeing Mama trying to pick up a drinking glass on a small table. But maybe because of weakness Mama dropped the glass to the floor.

"Ma, what.who's sick?" 

In haste, Tito held Mama's limp hands sitting on the edge of the bed.

"Mom's gonna take some medicine, Mama's head is dizzy."

Mas Tito picked up the dropped glass and laid Mama back.

"Tito get me some new water, Mama wait a minute."

After a few minutes, Tito returned with a glass of water. She slowly woke up and helped take the medicine.

With a sad look, Tito noticed Mama's pale face. Just this time he felt that the condition of Mama was really something to worry about. Mama's health is now very down to make mas Tito undo the intention to go home tomorrow.

"How about we go to the hospital now, Ma?"

Mama just shook her head and then lay back down. Mas Tito still looked at Mama anxiously. He could only sigh relieving the worry in the chest.

"Tito.. let's sleep with Mama," mama's pinta shriveled while holding Tito's hand.

Slowly, Tito lay down next to Mama. He looked at the face of Mama who had been less noticed.  Soft hand Mama stroked the face of mas Tito while crying.

"Mah........'

"See Mama Tito... My mom loves all of my mom's kids.  If Mama is gone, you should look at Mama often. Pay attention to your brother and sister often. Mom, I don't think Mama's time is long."

"Don't say that, Ma."

"When Bimo left, I wanted to change positions for Mama to leave. But it turns out that God wants Mama to fix Mama's mistakes on Kia. After seeing Kia marry Miko and Miko promise to keep Kia, Mama calms down. Now if God wants to take Mama's life, Mama's sincere."

Still crying Mama wiped away the tears that were breaking.

"Mama is tired of being sick Tito, Mama wants to meet Papa with Bimo. Mama Rimdu with Papa although often hurt Mama. Mama misses the same joke Bimo, if you meet Mama want to say Kia is happy with Miko. Let him not worry anymore," said Mama blushed while closing her eyes.

"Mama.. must be healthy, Ma promises Tito."

Finally mas Tito joined in crying, without a second thought he hugged Mama who looked very weak. A heart-piercing pain heard Mama talking about wanting to leave. While stroking Mama's head, Tito tried to hold the sobs so as not to sound loud.

"Mommy sleeps first, Tito's going to the hospital tomorrow."

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Early in the morning when it rains, a small speck soaks the leaves. The sound of falling rain water in front of the window kama Mama woke up mas Tito. He only slept for a few hours because he was worried. Mas Tito's heart was relieved to see Mama who was still breathing even though she was still sleeping.

Lama mas Tito looked at the face of Mama who was sleeping soundly. The sadness returned in the heart to see the woman who gave birth to him now who had too long to feel pain due to hypertension and other complications.

I don't know how much medicine you're taking and therapy for your paralyzed leg. Diet a variety of foods so that Mama's disease does not recur. Makes mas Tito feel he is a less devoted child, even though he is the most beloved child by Papa and Mama more than others.

"I'm sorry Tito Ma........"

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"Your mother............."

The loud cry of Dance succeeded.make everyone at the dinner table stop breakfast activities. Quickly mas Tito ran towards Mama's room followed by the others.

Lina's sister who had prepared herself to go home immediately threw the bag to the sofa and followed Tito mas to the room. Actually, he was asked by Tito not to go home first, but the plane ticket has been booked so it can not be canceled.

Lina's sister screamed when she saw Mama lying with blood dripping in her ears. Dance crying while hugging the unconscious Mama. Mas Tito was silent to see the state of Mama who when left out earlier was fine. Not expecting events like this makes mas Tito limp beside the bed.

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ICU that's the room where Mama was treated for a stroke with bleeding. All is at the alarming stage, Mama is unconscious and the blood coming out in the ear does not want to stop.

They could only look at Mom with a sad heart. Brother Lina did not let go of the grip on Mama's hand. Dance sat down and did not stop crying even though it was embraced Luthfi. Raffa and Putri just keep quiet get carried away in a sad atmosphere. Only Mas Tito remained steadfast, he repeatedly stroked Mama's head lovingly.

"I'm going to call Miko" he said, taking the phone in his pocket.

"Don't! He's on his honeymoon. Let's see how Mama is doing. Love Miko the opportunity to enjoy the wedding," said Lina.

"What if something unwanted happens. I'm afraid he'll be disappointed in us" Tito insisted.

"Let it first, tomorrow it's on the phone" said Lina, standing up and fixing the blanket.

"Call me, sister, Miko's sister will be sadder." Dance gives advice.

"Last night Mama said she was tired, wanted to see Papa with Bimo. Mama's fault with Kia has been corrected so Mama is willing to go," said Mas Tito as he bowed.

Tangis Tari getting louder hearing Tito's words.mas. Kak Lina tried hard even though she had to wipe her tears repeatedly.

"We wait for the results of the doctor after that we call Miko," said Mas Tito.

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It turns out that a stroke accompanied by bleeding suffered by Mama made him not helped. The doctor had already explained the worst possible thing that Mama would have left. The powerless dance held back the cries as the doctor finished speaking.

"Call Miko now" he asked Luthfi who was standing behind him.

"Yes. I'll call. You must be patient and strong." Luthfi tried to persuade Tari not to be too sad.

At exactly three in the middle of the night, Mama finally left after one more day struggling in the ICU room. Finally Mama really caught up with her husband and Bimo. Brother Lina from the hospital to the house did not release the hand of Mama even though it was cold.

Mas Tito called Miko and told her everything. Besides Mama who was already stiff, she was still downcast and crying softly. Only Dance was a little hysterical like Mama had not been willing to leave suddenly.

"Ma. Wake up Ma, Tari hasn't thanked Mama. Ma... open your eyes, Dance please Ma............."

"Mas why don't you wake up last night when Mama's sick. Mas evil.

"Mas doesn't know either."

Luthfi quickly held back the hand of Dance who still wanted to hit and hugged her. It is understandable because all this time the closest dance and live with Mama. Of course he is the most sad.

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"We have to go home!"

Miko quickly picked up the suitcase we were carrying and loaded all the items with just about any location.

"Why? Who's sick?"

"Mama" he answered without looking.

 

Hearing Miko's reply, I immediately jumped up and cleaned up all the items and put them all into my bag and suitcase. Panic was felt when Miko called travel to book a ticket home. Only the morning flight remains. The disappointed and desperate look on Miko's face could not be covered.

I went awry, just being able to shut up and follow everything Miko wanted to do. While looking at Miko's worried face. Slowly I held her hand trying to give Miko a little strength to remain steadfast, despite the guilt.

"I'm sorry... Baby,"

"Why apologize?"

"Because of our honeymoon, you can't be around Mama when you're sick" I said.

"It's not your fault, I beg you not to."

Slowly Miko hugged me who was feeling sad. Finally I was relieved Miko again looked strong, she was able to master the situation.

"Let's get ready, we're going to the airport. Who knows if there is an empty flight tonight so you can go home quickly" he asked.

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It turned out that after waiting two hours we still had to go home with a flight tomorrow morning.

We finally left because we couldn't go home quickly. There were still eight hours to wait for the flight and Miko refused as I took a break at the guest house near the airport. He chose to stay at the airport and took me to the cafe to eat while waiting.

All night while waiting I never let go of Miko's hand. There is no other way to strengthen, that is all I can do. There was a feeling of fear that I was talking made Miko even more uncomfortable, so we kept quiet with each other's thoughts just a few times Miko turned to me. I tried to smile even though my heart was sad.

"My feeling is very bad. Like something's going to happen to Mama" she muttered, looking down.

We were sitting in a waiting room with some people and airport officials still picketed. I still hold Miko's hand, fortunately the ticket has been obtained so we just have to wait for the time to go home.

Drrrr.

The vibration of the mobile phone surprised Miko who from earlier still looks anxious.

"From Mas Tito" he said, looking at me.

Miko's face was pale after receiving a call from Tito's mas. She looked at me with teary eyes.

"Mama's gone."

Instantly my cries exploded, ignoring the people around me who were confused looking at us. With sobbing I called Mama as if I could not believe this was happening.

"Your mother..........."

Miko hugged me tightly, we felt immeasurably sad.

"Good way, Ma," said Miko.

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Titip longed and prayed for my two distant parents. Every breath I take right now has love for you.

Dad, the man I love at first sight when it comes to the world. I can't repay all your sacrifices for the rest of my life.

Mama, for whatever sake there is no greater love than your love for me. Every touch of your hand makes me see the beauty of affection. You are one of my paths to heaven.

Thanks to all the readers who are still waiting for this novel. All your support keeps me writing amidst all the busyness. Don't get me wrong if I'm more concerned with the real because I have to think according to the facts, because you live in reality not virtual world.

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