Mr. Hephephobias

CHAPTER 143 - You Don't Love Him

That same night, Rayn suddenly asks Kelvin to meet her and they meet again. "Has Lucia started to feel good?" kelvin asked Rayn.

"Today has been a very long day for him, but he's going through it with a breed, you don't have to worry" Rayn replied.

Although this is not the right moment, Kelvin took the time to congratulate Rayn on her marriage to Lucia. If not now, Kelvin isn't sure if he will still have a chance to say that to Rayn directly.

Kelvin seemed to be very serious about saying it. "In addition, I will withdraw my words saying if you are unable to protect her. And I say it sincerely" continued Kelvin.

Rayn asks why Kelvin withdrew his words when Rayn himself admitted that with his current condition, he would still be a person who could not keep or would never even be able to protect Lucy. Maybe for others who see Rayn and Lusia's relationship will also think the same as Rayn. Rayn's hapephobia is a barrier.

However, this time Kelvin began to realize that protecting someone is not just keeping him from being physically injured, but protecting the heart and also maintaining the trust given is the most important thing in maintaining a relationship.

And unfortunately, that's what Kelvin never had for Lucia. Kelvin realized, if everything about him will only always end with a wound that he could never bear to account for.

"Then why do you want to see me?" ask Kelvin.

Rayn turned her body to look at the sky, she was silent for a moment and turned back to look at Kelvin who was still waiting for his answer. "Do you love her so much?" suddenly asked Rayn.

The question was so gray and surprised Kelvin. Kelvin doesn't understand why Rayn is questioning that in the current situation. Is he going to give up again? or else he would ask me for that? Questions Kelvin can think of now.

Kelvin did not answer the question, instead he turned to ask Rayn about the reason why he asked him that.

"If you want me to give up, I've done it. If you want me to forget how I feel, though it's hard to know if I should. But.." said Kelvin loudly and then restrained. "But I really don't understand why you're questioning me now" Kelvin said.

"You never loved him!" sahut Rayn with a serious look.

"What do you mean?" ask Kelvin.

Rayn POV

All about how you feel, you never said it this whole time on the grounds that it was to protect her. Then are you sure you've protected her? You always know that in the end you will only bring a sneak because that's why you choose not to step the foot you think if it will cross the line.

You decided to wait but you didn't observe it at all. Seeing him present in front of you with a smile is enough to relieve you because for you it means he is fine. You never try to figure out what's the meaning behind the smile she's describing whether there's a happy heart or a wound she's trying to cover.

You always think that everything you do is enough and you don't have to expect anything more. Just enough could be by his side and was enough to make sure he was smiling happily. That's the feeling you believe is the way to protect her. Then, do you ever think that what you've been doing all this time isn't protecting her, but protecting your own feelings.

The passion you have, it all starts with guilt that keeps pushing you to the feeling of wanting to take care of it, you don't get hurt or suffer. But isn't it slowly that feeling gets more confusing to you? You're with him, but all you do is stand in place. That's because you never find the answer to your own feelings.

When we truly love someone, no matter what happens, do we have to take one more step ahead?

If what I do will hurt him then I will also treat him. If I was the one who made her cry then I was the one who would embrace her. If the decision I choose is misleading then I will also open a new path for him. And if I have to push him down, then I will take his place.

Isn't that what we should be fighting for if we love someone? Make yourself the only person for her. So that he will only cry in front of you, he will lean on your shoulder, he will rest in your arms, he will hold your hand and make you his only goal to return. Isn't that what you should do if you really love her?

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In silence Kelvin heard everything and began to feel very anxious to get angry. "Are you judging me right now?" ask him to Rayn.

"When you start to feel the feeling that you think if you like it, but you're the one who keeps ignoring your feelings. And it was a mistake that made you never touch his heart" Rayn said.

Kelvin became very angry, he clenched his hand tightly. The anger was not for Rayn who had dared to judge her as well as the feelings she had for Lucia. But he was very angry at himself for not being able to understand all that.

"That word of love, you shouldn't have said it" Rayn told Kelvin. He discusses the expression of Kelvin's love for Lucia that Kelvin expresses along with the farewell at the end.

"Why are you saying a word you can't account for. Do you really want to let go of that burden of your feelings? Do you think that means it's all over? You should have kept it if you really wanted to take it off in the end. Even though it would torture your heart even like squeezing and tearing your heart apart, you should still hold it back. It is not necessary to say a word of love that will only burden him." said Rayn with eyes so firm, he also tried to hold back his anger.

"I came to you to warn you not just as her husband. Don't tie him back to what happened to his father. Never bring your feelings into this matter. Stop burdening him and confusing him. If you understand what I'm saying, you shouldn't have any doubts or consider anything. Just do what you have to and should do." Rayn told Kelvin.

Rayn left Kelvin there alone. Kelvin just stared at the steps and Rayn's back left him. "I finally understand why Lucia chose you" Kelvin said.

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Rayn returned to the Villa, he saw the lights of the Villa lit up, unlike when he left Villa. Without hesitation, Rayn pressed the password and went straight in. Inside the Villa, Lucia stood staring at his arrival, in her mobile phone with a look of uneasiness waiting for her.

Lucia immediately approached Rayn and asked where Rayn was late at night like this. Rayn looked at the clothes that Lucia was wearing dirty. "Did you go to Dervilia to find me?" asked Rayn who was expecting it.

Lucia nodded, she indeed went to Dervilia midnight by herself but did not find Rayn there. Lucia returns after being picked up by Arka. Arka gets a report from the cctv surveillance team if Lucia goes there alone when Rayn does not go there. They saw Rayn's vehicle not going to Dervilia but leaving the Villa area, which is why the cctv surveillance team immediately reported it to Arka.

Lucia was very worried when she did not find Rayn by her side when she woke up. Lucia can't contact Rayn because her phone is dead. Without a word Rayn immediately hugged Lucia's body. Hugging her tightly and tight, Lucia asked if something had happened that made Rayn leave at midnight and return with a strange attitude.

"Lussia, you know that if I love you so much, love you so much" Rayn said, still hugging Lucia. "Whatever happens, tell me you'll never doubt my feelings. Even if it happens, I will continue to convince you and will continue to convince you if I truly love you" he continued.

Lucia took off Rayn's embrace, then looked at Rayn with a sad look. Lucia nodded with a smile so warm. "The same thing I would do for you, because I love you so much Rayn" he said.

Rayn grabs and grabs both of Lucia's cheeks. Rayn was silent, and she looked at Lucia's face. Without a word Rayn brought her face closer and then briefly kissed Lucia's lips. Lucia broke down a smile after Rayn let go of her kiss. Lucia clasped Rayn's jaw and neck and returned the kiss with a soft kiss that washed away her husband.

Rayn again clenched Lucia's lips deeper, grabbed her hip to get closer and continued to sweep her sweet lips until they penetrated her mouth. The two exchanged kisses and occasionally took them off to throw a smile. Rayn returned and continued to snatch at Lucia's heart-stirring smile with her wild kiss.

Without removing the link, Rayn carried his wife's body and carried her into the room. He slowly dropped Lucia's body on the bed. Rayn's hand begins to remove any strands that are attached along with the link she doesn't want to let go of. Rayn got rid of everything that prevented her from leaving a trace of her possession.

Rayn again crawled up to land a rain of kisses.Rayn's hands began to move and continue to move to give a sense of pleasure in every curve of beauty that belongs to Lucia through a warm touch of her fingers.

With breath hunting Rayn back staring at the beautiful face of Lucia dazzling, her face looked up with her chin up to kiss her deeper tonight.

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*** to Be Continued ***