Sharing Love: Loving Myself And Herself

I am the Third

Devastated was the hope of Khanza having a happy family with a prospective child in his womb. Abizar's words were able to tear down the hopes that had been in his milk one after another.

Khanza heard the voice of Abizar who kept calling him, asking him to stop his steps. However, Khanza seemed to hear the call as a mockery for him.

Prejudice if all this time he had only been a laughingstock in the house, in the house he considered was his world paradise, it turned out to be the door to his suffering that he did not know, he stepped in happily.

A stopover where everyone keeps a secret if she is the second wife of her husband, she imagines if they work together to lie to her. It's so sickening. Thought Khanza kept running to stop a taxi.

As soon as Khanza got into the taxi and closed the door, he quickly asked the taxi driver to drive his car.

Not caring about Abizar who kept banging on the door of the taxi asked him to get out of the taxi.

"Father Why haven't you walked yet, let's go. Run the car, sir!" pinta Khanza on the taxi driver with tears falling on his cheeks. The taxi driver was jolted at Khanza's screams and his reflexes immediately hit the gas leaving Abizar who could only stare at the taxi away from him.

As soon as the taxi drove Khanza turned to look at Abizar, his heart ached to see the figure who had been an idol in his heart was now the person he hated so much. Khanza never thought that Abizar was so gentle and loving that he could lie to her a very heart-wrenching lie. Second wife, yes that's her nickname now. Can he also be called an actor? The words that Khanza hated so much and now those words stick to his name.

Isakan hardened out of Khanza's mouth, a sobbing he had been holding inside the restaurant for not wanting to add to his embarrassment was now issued already in the taxi.

The taxi driver who heard the roaring cries of Khanza could only be silent he also felt pain of hearing.

Without a word the taxi driver gave the tissue in front of him, immediately Khanza took it to throw his snot that had clogged his respiratory tract then threw it in all directions in the taxi so.

He did it over and over again, wiping away tears and throwing something from his nose. The taxi driver was between angry and sorry to see Khanza, how not, Khanza threw his former tissue, he vented his sadness by throwing in all directions, there was also a hover in the front seat next to the driver..

"Where are we going, ma'am?" ask the driver who has not received the destination address.

Khanza called his address on the sidelines of his cries.

"What was his girlfriend, Mom?" asked the taxi driver to ask what happened that made Khanza cry like that.

"No, Sir! He was my husband, but all this time he lied to me. It turned out that he was married and said that his first wife was his cousin's sister. We live in a house and I'm the only one who doesn't know all that. You can imagine, what they thought for 2 months I lived in that house, I thought everything was fine, but it was not. They all lied to me, "Khanza again threw away the liquid that clogged his breathing, the taxi driver just shuddered at his hearing. "Mother can feel the pain I feel? No. I definitely can't feel it," answered the question himself.

"Because the father of a man, men are the same they all just pretend to be good and all liars, all just attach importance to lust never think of women. He's a criminal, he doesn't deserve to live in this world. He deserved to die dumped into the sea eaten by sharks, there shouldn't be any men in the world" Khanza cried again.

Khanza continued to grumble and take his oath of absorption on a creature called a man, without him knowing if he was telling a man. Making the man who is driving can only swallow his own saliva, he wants to defend men. However, seeing Khanza's tears made him only able to stroke the chest.

"Originally you know, now that I'm pregnant with her child, I wanted to surprise you to say that I'm pregnant with the fruit of our love, but what I got, sir! betrayal, the truth of the lie" Khanza said, again throwing away something that filled the tissue and then casually giving it to the driver he was talking to.

Doubtfully mixed with disdain the driver picked up then threw it into the side seat where it was full of tissue.

"I'm an orphan, sir! not knowing where else to go, there is no way I will return tonight to the village. My grandmother's village is very far away also has no money," he said pausing his sentence to let his sobbing out so that the pain in his heart was slightly reduced. The driver gave Khanza water.

Khanza who already felt his throat was very dry with sprightly take the water and drink it to the toilet. Then he saw the bottle, "Sir, what gives you the rest of your drinking water."

"So, you only have that drink, nothing else."

"But. I have vaccinated, right? You don't have Corona Disease, do you? I'm pregnant, sir!" khanza asked with a serious face even though it still sounded sobbing there.

"No, you're safe, Mom!" 

"Don't call me Dong, sir! I am still young despite being a second wife," she mumbled softly. 

Saying the words of his second wife made him again feel more hurt, he again hardened his sobbing.

Khanza felt a little calmer when talking to the taxi driver. That's Khanza, he can't keep his own burden he tells his load to his friend. At this time the burden was already very tight chest only the driver can be invited to spill all his complaints.

The driver stopped his car when he reached Abizar's house.

Farah who happened to pass by heard the sound of a car, he also peeked out from behind the window. Farah frowned at the two eyebrows when she saw it was not Abizar's car, but a taxi and saw Khanza coming down with tears.

Farah opened the door and went to Khanza.

"What was the first wife of her husband" the driver saw a woman coming out to greet Khanza on the terrace.

"Khanza why are you?" tanya Farah was worried about seeing Khanza's appearance .

Khanza did not answer, his heart was getting sick when he saw the person he had always considered as his brother, where he told how the warmth of love obtained from an Abizar turned out to be his honey, abidzar's first wife wasn't that very embarrassing Khanza thought.

Khanza just stared intently at Farah then this wanted in.  

Khanza Why did you come home without Mas Abizar? Where's Abizar? What the hell is going on?"  asked Farah who saw the melt of her Mad tears..

"Sister, I want to go in" Khanza said, shaking Farah's hand with a trembling voice and a slow sobbing escaped her lips, her heart really hurt when she saw the pretenses Farah had shown her.

Seeing that it made Farah even more worried, he held back Khanza's arm that was about to enter, Khanza was already unable to control his emotions and immediately slapped his slap into Farah's face with a fiery look.

"You and Abizar are the same, you are both liars, lying to me. Don't you have the feeling of lying to me in a very sacred bond like this. You're also a woman if you can't understand how I feel, the pain I'm getting because of your lies," I want Khanza to say all that to Farah. However, his mouth was moaning, shouting without a sound and could only utter in his heart, it all further added to his pain.

Khanza stared intently at Farah and let her tears continue to drip down her cheeks, trying to hold back the tightness in her chest.

"Khanza," Abizar's cry boomed, he had just arrived and saw Khanza put his hand on Farah's cheek.

Khanza who had only heard the soft words of Abizar immediately gasped in shock at the screams of Abizar. It was like an arrow piercing through his heart causing a pain that was so stifling to the chest.

Khanza turned to stare at Abizar with breath that had gone up and down trying to neutralize the anger that made him suffer.

Khanza could see flashes of anger from Abizar's eyes 

"What are you doing, how dare you slap Farah." Abizar snapped at Khanza as he approached them.

"You're so angry I slapped Farah, didn't you feel the slightest bit guilty after lying to me? When people smile to lie to me, is there not the slightest bit of affection for me? Letting me get into this lie, a lie that can kill me" Khanza said. Right now he can only vent all his emotions in the heart. Swallow yourself what you want to say.

Khansa stood looking at Abizar, only tears could describe how much he was in pain.

Khanza could not stand it anymore, he did not pay attention to Abizar whose cheers chose to go to his room..

He ran up the stairs, up the steps one by one which felt so heavy for him tonight, where he climbed the stairs with a cry of Abizar who continued to blame him and asked him to apologize to Farah, for slapping him.

Khanza closed the door very hard, venting all his emotions."It should be a happy night for us tonight" he said, taking the box in his bag, rubbing the flat object and wiping his stomach.

"Mama's not gonna let you live this lie, but I'm gonna take you where." Back sobbing. "I have no one, I can't burden my grandparents . God, what am I supposed to do, it's really sick." Khanza continued to cry while continuing to smother the results of his testpack, patting his chest slowly trying to ward off the tightness that increasingly attacked him.

"Khanza open the door!" Shouted Abizar from behind the door. Abizar yelled calling Khanza's name from behind the door not to apologize to her after making a mistake lying to her, but it was a cry asking her to apologize to Farah.

"Khanza closed her ears loudly even though Abizar's voice could still be heard.

Khanza could only moan inside the room which he believed was once Farah's.

After long knocking and shouting Khansa's name behind the door, Abizar's voice is now inaudible.

Khanza tried to strengthen himself he walked slowly towards the bathroom, washing his face with water trying to feel the cold of the water. I wish I could cool his heart. Khanza looked at his face in the mirror "Can't I be happy, what hope I have for the family is too much" asked himself.

"Khanza you're a strong woman, you're not a spoiled woman. It can't shake you, it's just a lie, yes a lie. Well, if you lie to me, I can also lie to you, "he thought as he looked at the cheek in his hand.

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