Sharing Love: Loving Myself And Herself

Season 2: Chapter 33

"Sorry, Brother. I don't choose anyone, either Brother or Sister Mentari, I choose whoever is chosen by Brother Azriel and I don't want to interfere, this is my brother's future," aisyah's words made Lucia just stare resentfully at Aisyah and then she returned to the room she had prepared for her. Not forgetting he asked his aunt to bring his belongings to the room, he refused to continue their engagement, he would stay and study at the same campus, he said, even though Azriel and Mentari have been made, it does not mean that he will succumb. For him Azriel is his and will only be with him.

Whatever Lucia would do for Azriel to be hers, she would not lose much less to Mentari who she thought was no match for her, not her level.

At midnight Azriel stands on the balcony of the room in the living room on the 2nd floor, Dev who happens to see her approaching Azriel.

Looking straight at the garden in front of them, Azriel realizes the existence of Lucia's father. However, he continued to look straight ahead, whatever Dev would say to him later, he would stick to his decision. He will fight for his love for Mentari.

"I know if you don't want your match with Lucia, I won't force it like your mother. I just want to say, if you don't have any feelings for Lucia, you can't force her to be with him, despite the insistence of anyone, either Lucia or her mother," said Dev still staring forward, making Azriel directly look at the father of Lucia, she thought that Dev would act like Lucia and her mother, forcing her to accept and give Lucia a chance.

"Om not forcing me like everyone else?" ask Azriel.

"I love my daughter so much and force you to hurt her, I know Farah's good intentions. He forces you to keep giving Lucia a chance because she loves him, because Farah knows Lucia loves you very much, but without her knowing it will only hurt Lucia more deeply later. But I'm in a position that also can't rebuke him. So, I'm begging you. If indeed you do not want and there is no desire to be with Lucia in the front, talk to her and do not give her hope," said Dev made Azriel also nagged.

Dev left Azriel and returned to his room, looking straight ahead, he breathed a sigh of relief from the father of Lucia. He just wanted to keep Lucia's father's feelings very good to him. However, it seemed that he did not have to worry about it anymore.

Azriel sent a message to Mentari, asking for news and other unimportant things, just to communicate.

The mentor who was making a cake together with his mother and two other servants continued to reply to the message with a smile on his face, he felt relieved, it turned out to be true what was said by the God, following your heart is fun, no matter what happens. He had already said what was in his heart, he would not regret anything in the future.

"Azriel, can I talk?" farah asked, Azriel turned her head straight away, and she just nodded.

Farah stood beside Azriel, breathing the night air and exhaling it slowly and then looking at Azriel with a smile on her face.

"Azriel, you still think of me as your mother, don't you?" farah asked Azriel again just nodded, she was afraid to say something that could hurt the woman who was considered as her mother.

"Mom didn't ask you much, son. I just ask you to give Lucia a chance, that love can come at any time if you give your heart a chance to love someone. Azriel, trust me Lucia is the right person for you."

"Mom, why did Mom say Lucia was the right person for me and assume Mentari wasn't the right person? Is it just because of our very different social statuses?"

"Lucia's love for me doesn't guarantee a better future, Mom. I can't love her if I love another woman."

"Are you sure Mentari loves you too? What if Lucia's love for you is bigger than Mentari loves you."

"I don't care about that, Mom. All I know is that my heart loves Mentari and I will fight for my love, I will be happy if I live with the people I love."

"Aren't you really able to give Lucia a chance even if it's just a little? Don't you appreciate your mother and also appreciate your togetherness since childhood?"

"I appreciate Mom and love Lucia, I don't want her to be hurt any more. Try to imagine what if in a year we tried together. However, the next year I ended our relationship, do you think Lucia would be able to accept it? No, Madam. He'll love me more and more and he'll get hurt during our breakup. So, it's better that we prevent the wounds that he will have in the future because of all this and not just Lucia alone will be hurt if I accept Mother's offer, she said, but Mentari will also be hurt as well as me, ma'am."

"Azriel's. I don't want to hurt anyone."

"Mom, there will be three hearts that will be hurt, ma'am."

Farah was silent, she could see from her son's eyes if he was really serious about what he said.

"But what about Lucia? He's already decided to go to college here and to be able to take your attention and love."

"Mother, I will try to advise Lucia, I will always love her as much as I love Aisha. So, please don't give us any hope about our matchmaking."

"Well, if that's your decision. I'm putting Lucia on you. If you can't love her like a woman, love her like a sister. Tomorrow I have to go home and Lucia will stay here and start continuing her studies with you" said Farah holding Azriel's hand.

Azriel refuses and asks her mother to take Lucia home. However, he realized that he should not have done so, just as he drove Lucia out of his residence, making Azriel just nod.

"Sorry Mom, I can't fulfill Mom's wish and thank you for understanding, Mom. I promise I will love Lucia like my own sister, I will try not to hurt her as long as she stays in this country. I beg you to give her understanding, not support her, too" Azriel looked at Farah pleading.

"Hmm, of course," said Farah, patting Azriel on the shoulder, and she left her son and headed to her room. Lucia who had heard the conversation her mother and father had with Azriel could only clench her hands, she was upset that her father and mother had nothing to support her wishes. However, all of this makes her even more excited to prove to them that she can get Azriel and make Azriel hers, making the man she loves her husband.