Sharing Love: Loving Myself And Herself

Season 2: chapter 16

Azriel was already in his residence, they had just arrived home after the prayer of Isaiah.

"Is there any need for Lucia to come home so suddenly? He didn't even say goodbye to us" Abidzar said in surprise when Farah said Lucia had come home this afternoon. Not only was Abidzar surprised, Azriel was also surprised by this, whether because of his words Lucia went straight to his home and went straight home.

"He said he forgot his college assignments and had to be done immediately, so he went straight home," explained Farah made Abidzar just nod in confidence, considering that when Lucia came, he was in a hurry, too, maybe he had no thought about his college when he got word of Azriel who had an accident.

"Yes already, I think it must be important to him" said Abidzar looking at Azriel, his mind the same as Azriel if Lucia left because of his rejection of love.

"Yes, we should have dinner, the food is ready" Khanza said, ending the conversation about Lucia, thinking the same thing with her son and husband. They head to the dining table, and Farah reveals that she also has to go home the next day.

"Yes, Mom. Thank you for worrying about me, sorry for interrupting my routine. Mother must be very busy there," said Azriel made Farah just give a smile and rub the back of her hand, where Azriel eat sitting nearby.

After dinner, Azriel rests in her room and Khanza accompanies her son.

Meanwhile, Abidzar who was working in his study focused on his laptop. His focus was distracted by the arrival of Farah.

"Mas, I want to talk" said Farah turning her work and looking at Abidzar.

"What's wrong?" ask Abidzar.

"Tomorrow I'll go home. I want to hear your decision! Decide tonight you want to match our son or not, match Azriel with Lucia or not?" farah said, asking that directly.

"I'm sorry, I spoke to Azriel and it seems that Azriel still wants to be in a relationship with Mentari, she already loves him and wants to get serious with Mentari. So, sorry maybe they're better off just being brothers."

"You don't want to give my daughter a chance to win your son's heart? Why?"

"Farah, we are selfish if we impose our will on Azriel, she is not a child anymore, she already knows which is best for her and according to Azriel. The mentari is the best for him. We can't force her to give Lucia a chance if she has her heart set on Mentari."

"But, Mas!"

"Farah, all of that will hurt Lucia later."

"Don't you look back on the past, you didn't love Khanza, did you? You only married her because you wanted a child from her, but what in fact, Mas? It's not all according to our plan. You just left me and chose to marry her?"

"Farah, enough!" abidzar snapped, he did not suspect that his ex-wife was re-bringing their past.

"Why, Mas? I'm just giving you an example if you can love Khanza so deeply and forget about me. Same with the kids. I'm sure Azriel will do the same, she can love Lucia over time and forget her love for Mentari, we just have to support her. They've been together since childhood, it won't be hard to put them together." Farah continued to try to convince Abidzar of his opinion.

Abidzar clenched his hands tightly, he was very dislikeful of the discussion about their former life, where he did bring Khanza to their family just for the purpose of wanting to have children.

"But Azriel already likes someone, it's different if she doesn't like anyone, Farah."

"Mas. I can't find a wife who's not good for her, we don't know what her true nature is. Maybe she was just a matre girl who approached Azriel just because of the material that our son had," Farah said, making Abidzar immediately raise his hand, asking Farah to stop his insulting remarks to Mentari. If Azriel had heard that, she would have been angry.

"Farah, I'm also a man and I know how Azriel feels about Mentari and my decision is unanimous. I will support whatever he chooses, he loves Mentari and wants to be with her, that's my decision as well. So, I'm sorry to you and your daughter. Farah please understand. It's not that I don't love Lucia, I apologize once again" Abidzar said.

Farah fell silent. There was a sense of annoyance in his heart. However, he realized he could do nothing, even though he loved Azriel as much as he loved his son Lucia. However, Azriel was not his son, he was the son of Abidzar and Khanza.

Khanza who heard their discussion in the study came to Farah in her room.

"Sir, can I come in?" khanza said in the doorway, making Farah just nod slowly. Khanza went in and approached the woman who had been his honey, he sat by the bed where Farah was arranging his clothes, put in a suitcase. Tomorrow morning he will go abroad.

"Mr, I'm sorry. Maybe this guy is selfish. However, believe me we have no other choice, we also want Lucia to be the daughter-in-law of our family, the wife of Azriel, but the fact that Azriel loves other women we cannot ignore, Maud. I hope all this does not make our relationship so tenuous," said Khanza carefully so as not to trigger problems between the two of them that have begun to improve.

"Khanza, even though my heart was broken. I keep giving up Mlmas Abidzar to live with you, I leave your lives because I know Abidzar loves you more than he loves me. I know that she would be happy to be with you even though my heart is very sick and now because of my sacrifice you have a happy family, you have Aisha, and Azriel. You live happily together. You don't know what it's like for me to part with Azriel? The son I have considered to be my own son."

Khanza just nodded slowly in response.

"You don't know what it's like, trying to bury the love that's in our hearts because we feel unloved by the man we love, you don't know what it's like, do you? But I know what it feels like! It hurts so much and I don't want my daughter to feel the same way I've ever felt."

Khanza doesn't know what to say, maybe he'll just say it might even be a little forceful for Azriel to open her heart to Lucia, but the fact of love in his son's heart just for Mentari he can not ignore.

"Khanza, Abidzar loves you very much. I'm sure if you persuade him to agree with my proposal he would agree. We will not force, at least give Lucia time to win her heart even if only one year, if in one year Lucia can not erase the love of Azriel for Mentari I will ask her to stay away. Don't let him give up on his love without trying."

"Alright, Ma'am. I'll try to persuade Abidzar and Azriel, but I don't promise that everything will go as we please."

Hearing that Farah held Khanza's hand.

"Of course, if Azriel does not accept and does not want to be in a relationship with Lucia after trying to open her heart. I don't mind her marrying anyone she thinks is good for her."

"Yes, Mother. I'll talk to Azriel to ask her to give Lucia time" Khanza replied. Perhaps it would not hurt to allow Lucia to open her son's heart, true what Farah said when in Abidzar's office earlier, Khanza also did not love Abidzar, Khanza was not, she used to hate her husband who lied to her. However, because of their time and togetherness the love in their hearts grew greater.

"Thank you, I'm glad to hear that. Lucia would also be glad you agreed. I'll let Lucia know if it's all the way we want it. I don't want to let her down after giving her hope."

"Yes, Mother. That's better, I'll talk to both of them first. If the two of them agree, I'll call Mommy."

"Yes, the class is also a few months away. Lucia has decided to continue her studies in this country, if Azriel really wants to give her a chance," Farah said, making Khanza only nod.