Sharing Love: Loving Myself And Herself

Loving myself and himself.

Khanza's days are very happy, the age of the womb has entered the 6th month, the baby has felt moving.Sometimes Khanza can feel the baby kicking. 

Abizar further indulged him, showering him with Love, as well as his mother-in-law who was now beginning to support him. He even asked Santi to do whatever Khanza wanted.

Khansa takes advantage of that, he asks Santi to do this and that for him. Although angry Santi still did it, he could not argue the speech of Warda. Considering he was just hitching a ride in their house. He must also continue to be kind to Warda in order to keep his trust.

Khanza really avenged his heartache on the mother from her honey.

Farah also gradually began to draw closer to Khanza, he took advantage of his expertise in cooking to take the heart of Khanza who lately always wanted to eat this and that. 

Luckily Khanza really likes his cooking.

Farah often cooks dishes for Khanza in the middle of the night, when Khanza asks him to make the food he suddenly wants.

Farah did everything sincerely, so that the baby in the womb of Khanza grew into a healthy baby.

"Khanza's! Are you still mad at me?" farah asked Khanza who was eating.

Khanza stopped eating, he said,

"Why did Mommy actually do all that to me? I have loved Mbak like my own brother." Khanza looked into Fatah's eyes.

"Mbak also loves you very much, never thought of you as honey, but I already consider you as my own sister. All this time Ma'am helped and accompanied you no intention whatsoever. Mbak did it sincerely because he loves you" Farah said trying to convince Khanza.

"Then why are you all keeping the marriage of Ma'am and Abi's sister a secret to me?"

"Khanza, in recent years Mbak continues to look for the right woman for Mas Abi, to be the mother of his child, you can certainly understand the feelings of Mbak, Mbak can not give him a child for mas Abi, Mbak can not give him a child for mas Abi,  I don't think she's a good wife to him. When Mbak finds out that he likes you, he doesn't waste the opportunity and asks her to marry you. At first we wanted to be honest with you, but on one occasion you said you didn't want to be the second wife of a man. We also decided to keep it a secret and will say after you get married to Mas Abi," Farah explained carefully.

"But, it all hurts me.You already know that I don't accept being mixed up, but why do you guys like trying to trap me into this marriage, I'm hanging up a lot of expectations from this marriage. All I got was traitors and lies."

"I understand how you feel, but believe me Mas Abi loves you so much, even now I feel that I love you more than I do.

"True, Abi's sister loved me so much because there was a fetus in my womb. Maybe after I give birth to this baby, he'll take it from me and he'll go back to Ma'am. I can see from Abi's eyes. If he loves you more than me, I have no meaning in Abi's eyes."

"I've been with Mas Abi since we were in high school. I didn't know her long before I married her, I didn't know how we felt in love or just friendship, but I'm sure she can convince you that Abi loves you so much and trusts her love."

"If Mas Abi loves me, I still can't share Ma'am, I want to have my husband completely, I can't share. Even if I say yes, but my heart still does not accept."

"Bak can feel what you feel, we love the same man, we become his wife. You understand what you've been feeling all this time because you've also experienced it."

"Nobody understands my feelings, but me. No Ma'am, no mas Abi no one, you are all evil as me," Khanza said standing up from his seat leaving Farah who could only look on with guilt.

Abizar rested his body on the kitchen wall, he had wanted to drink water and he accidentally heard the talk of his two wives.

 Abizar heard all their conversations, he did not expect that behind the smiles of his two wives, they all felt the same way. They feel the pain that his name is being given, sharing that love that is what they are doing right now in his household, Abizar must share his love fairly for both of them. He had been trying to do it all this time, but it turned out he failed and actually hurt both of them.

This morning Khanza enjoys the morning air on the balcony of his room, breathing fresh air that is very cool and refreshing.

Abizar smiled happily as she felt a kick from her baby.

Khanza tried to remove Abizar's embrace and distanced his body, but Abizar further tightened and kissed around his neck.

"Sister, enough. Stop it" said Khanza who was amused by what Abizar was doing.

"Can you stop being mad at me" said Abizar stroking his stomach without changing his position.

"Sister, I'm healthy and so is my baby, I want to collect your promise" Khanza said.

"Promise? What promise? Is there anything I've bought for you?" tanya Abizar who has always spoiled Khanza with branded goods bags, shoes, everything she likes to buy just to please Khanza. But it doesn't seem to work. Khanza hasn't been so jutek to him. When several times Abizar asked for his right Khanza still rejected him.

"Promise to take me to the village. I miss my grandparents so much" Khanza said.

"Yes, I promise I'll take you, but wait until our baby is born, I'm afraid anything happens on the way. Now your content is getting bigger," said Abizar.

"Sister has promised, why Brother continues to renege on Sister's promise," he said full of emphasis.

"Ok, okay. I'll drive you to the village to meet your grandparents, but we'll have to check in first and ask your obstetrician for an opinion."

"It's up to my brother" said Khanza again wanted to take off his embrace.

"Let it be like this for a while, I beg you. I miss you so much" said Abizar again tightened his embrace, inhaling the scent of the body Khanza so missed.

Khanza could feel Abizar's love from his attention and touch. But his heart still hurt because of the lies he had done.

Khanza has forgiven them all.

he had already tried to accept if he had to share his love with Farah. However, his heart still felt pain when he saw the two of them. 

Khanza realized the marriage was not just for a day or two, but for good.  Khanza can't afford to live like this forever, one of them has to give up.

"If Sister Farah does not want to let Abi go, let me release her. I can't live with this kind of pain forever. I realized Abi's brother loved me and Farah's mother. He will not be able to choose between the two of us" Batin Khanza looked far ahead.

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