Sharing Love: Loving Myself And Herself

The Hearts that Hurt.

Everyone is playing with Khanza's newborn baby. Aziel was very happy to be with his sister, he told his grandmother a lot of what he did before they came.

Aziel also protested to her Grandma, why not buy her sister a toy like hers.

"Yes, Grandma forgot, later we buy both yes, we bring Ade also choose toys," said Warda.

"Yes, Nek. we buy a lot of toys for Adek Ziel," said Ziel who had been talking while occasionally kissing his sister's cheek on the lap of Warda.

Khanza only saw how his son was chattering funny.

aziel's cuteness was able to make his heart always about.

Grateful, that's what Khanza did to calm his heart.

Farah felt something was strange, why Abizar did not come in and see the baby, they had been there for almost half a day. However, Abizar remained seated outside.

Farah approached Abizar who was talking to Damar and his grandfather.

Seeing Farah come out grandfather and also want to see his great-granddaughter.

Damar also asked permission he would go home and clean his body, since yesterday he had never returned home.

"What's wrong? why don't you go see Khanza and your baby?" ask Farah.

holding her husband's hand, Farah could see the sadness in Abizar's eyes.

Khanza doesn't want to see me. I can't force him" Abizar said.

"What do you mean Mas, all this time you've been looking for him, now that Khanza is here, Mas can explain the problem, I'm sure Khanza must understand."

"I feel guilty and ashamed of him, let alone asking him to stay with us, apologizing I've been so ashamed of him."

"Mas don't tell me Mas will agree to Daniel's divorce, Mas wants to split Khanza with Khanza?"

"Of course I won't approve of the divorce, I'll never let go of khanza, but if he doesn't want to see me, I'll respect his decision" he said.

"What do you mean? Now what would Mas do, would Mas let the situation be like this!"

"What am I supposed to do, Khanza just won't see me.

I made a promise to Grandpa, if I hurt Khanza's feelings I wouldn't mind if Grandpa brought her. Maybe this is the best way, I've talked to grandfather, and grandfather wants to bring Khanza home,"

"That means Mas will part with Aziel and his sister? The baby I just saw, is it up to you?"

"You know how crazy I want to go looking for them, when I part from them. You must know how I feel right now for them, but I can't do anything I can't possibly refuse grandfather's request to increase the distance between our families, Grandpa is Khanza's parents and grandfather also has rights over Khanza. Especially in this situation. I can't do anything!"

"Is there no other way Mas, we can talk carefully with the khanza. He can still stay at his house."

Farah said nothing more, she immediately got up from her seat and went back into Khanza's room.

Abizar saw only the back of his first wife who walked into Khanza's treatment room.

Farah approached the khanza who was still lying weak, the scar still felt sore, he still did not dare to move too much.

Farah sat beside Khanza holding his honeyed hand.

"Khanza Mbak please forgive me because Abi really did not mean to hurt you, you are very valuable to him. Please stay by his side" Farah said.

"Sir, my decision is unanimous. I'm going back to the village with my children, I really can't live with you. I just want to live a quiet life with my kids, Mom, I beg you to have enough, everything I've been through is very painful, you can still visit them anytime, I won't forbid it, but not to take her."

"Khanza Mbak begs you to be a source of exhaustion for Mas Abi, if you leave him Mbak sure he will be completely destroyed" said Fatah.

"I'm sure Ma'am, Abi's brother will be fine, even without us. Then there will be Mbak who will take care of Abi's brother as he has been doing, he's the husband of Mbak too 'kan," said.

"Khanza Mbak please, if necessary Mbak will leave you, stay beside Mas Abi, let Mbak go if indeed you do not want to be with Mas Abi because of the presence of Mbak among you."

Khanza took off Farah's hand.

"Everything is not that easy, Ma'am, I know Mas Abi also loves Mbak. It's not a matter of us being part of Abi, I just feel tired of all this I want to end all this. I'm sure without me Abi can be happy together with Mbak the same before I am present among you. It is not Mbah that is between us, but I am the one among you and I am the one who must go. Let's just say I'm the one who just stopped by, and now I have to go, sorry if my presence messes with your happiness. I chose to divorce Abi's brother, let Abi be Mbak's only husband there will no longer be me who interferes with your happiness" Khanza said, a drop of tears dripping as he said all that.

"Khanza don't be like this, we can still fix this from the beginning. Don't you feel sorry for your children as well as Aziel and your baby they must really need their papa."

"Over this time we can be happy without the presence of Abi Mbak, brother, as time went on I was sure we would be able to fit in and understand if his mom and dad couldn't be together and my baby he was too small to know his dad."

"Whether your verdict is truly unanimous, think once again to speak to mas Abi" Farah pleaded. "Find him, let Mas Abi explain everything."

"I don't want to see Abi's sister, I'm afraid my heart won't melt, I still love Abi's sister very much I really want us to be together but it's enough I'm really tired," the inner khanza chose to be silent.

They just kept quiet Farah had run out of words to persuade the khanza.

Abizar leaned against the wall of the hospital banging, his head when he heard Khanza's words, Farah accidentally connected his phone to Abizar in order to listen to khanza's answer. However, it seems that his decision was wrong, instead of improving the circumstances of his actions, it made Abizar feel guilty for what he had been doing.

"Well, if you want to part with me" murmured Abizar to get out of his seat and leave.

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