Sharing Love: Loving Myself And Herself

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"Khanza open the door, I want to talk please don't be like this" Abizar said, continuing to try to knock on the door feeling guilty even though Khanza hid it, he could still see Khanza's tears falling before running away from the kitchen.

Farah stood beside Abizar, and he was no less worried about Abizar. Iya know what khanza feels at this time, he also often feels it. However, maybe their maturity level is much different, if Farah could take it with a free hand, but not with Khanza he would be very sad.

They persuaded Khanza. But still no answer. 

"We'd better talk tomorrow" Abizar said, giving up and then they returned to the room.

Throughout the night Khanza continued to cry, he could no longer ignore his feelings.

Khanza took his cell phone to see his grandmother's number there. It feels like he called and complained to her, but will his grandmother be able to accept the fate of her marriage.

"No, I can't burden my grandmother, I've had enough of her all this time" Khanza again dropped his intention to contact her.

While in the other room Abizar could not sleep, he continued to worry about Khanza, honestly he was very confused by his current feelings, Who he really loved.

In the morning Khanza has not opened the door and again missed his breakfast. Several times Abizar tried to persuade Khanza to come out, but there was no sahutan at all.

"I have an important meeting at the office, please persuade him, at least let him eat in the room" Abizar told Farah.

"I'll ask Auntie to persuade her, you know for yourself that if I gave her she wouldn't be able to open the door."

"I entrust all of Khanza's business to you, I really can't leave this meeting."

"Here you go to the office, Khanza's business leave it to me,"

Before leaving Abizar again knocked on the door and bid farewell to the office and asked for Khanza to eat.

After Abizar left, Farah asked Bibi to persuade Khanza to come out or give him food as usual.

But Khanza did not open the door.

In the room since last night either the influence of too much crying or indeed the effect of pregnancy his head feels very dizzy and he also feels very nauseous, he also feels very nauseous, already several times ya back and forth to the bathroom to vomit what is in his stomach he even just vomit the liquid because there is no more that he can vomit in his stomach. His stomach is completely empty.

Khanza could no longer walk back to his bed,

He sat on the bathroom floor.

"How about this, what should I do. I'm really dizzy" Khanza said, trying to stay awake while rubbing his stomach.

"Where is my medicine," Khanza crawled around looking for a cure, hoping that after taking his medicine his dizziness and nausea were slightly reduced.

Khanza quickly took the drug, waiting for a while, but the results remained the same. Nausea, dizziness, all that still felt.

Khanza again felt nauseous and walked towards the bathroom.

Breakfast was missed, lunch was missed. By nightfall, Farah began to panic, since earlier he had been persuading Khanza to eat, starting from Abizar who continued to call and send messages to Khanza, he said, Farah who occasionally banged on Khanza's door was also Bibi who had countless times she went back and forth to offer Khanza food.

It was past midnight and the situation remained the same. Worried Farah called Abizar.

"Hello, Mum. Your work cannot be abandoned. I'm worried about Khanza. He must have been very angry last night to see us. I was just afraid something happened to her inside. What if he acts stupid" said Farah.

"I'm going home now" said Abizar, thinking nothing of what could happen to Khanza.

Abizar drove his car very quickly, afraid that what Farah said had really happened.

"Mas, Khanza doesn't want to get out of the room" Farah said. "I was afraid that something might happen to him" he added, seeing Abizar enter and approach him hastily.

"Khanza open the door" said Abizar banging on Khanza's bedroom door. However, it was true that what Farah said had no response.

"Khanza quickly open the door otherwise I will break it," cried Abizar continued banging loudly.

"Come, just break it, Mas," Farah ordered.

Wanda and Santi only saw from a distance what the boy and his daughter-in-law were doing.

Brakkkk

The door broke. They looked around Khanza's room not there.

"Khanza where are you" Abizar called worried about not seeing Khanza.

Farah looks out onto the balcony of the room .But Khanza wasn't there either, he looked down to make sure Khanza didn't run away. But there was no sign of the khanza going over the balcony.

Abizar looked at the bathroom door and opened it, to his surprise he saw Khanza lying on the bathroom floor unconscious.

"Khanza," his scrooge quickly Abizar lifted him into the bed.

Farah rinsed Khanza's entire body with eucalyptus oil trying to get closer to his nose so that Khanza could inhale the scent.

A few minutes later Khanza realized his nausea and dizziness back on his attack..

"Khanza can you please obey me, I told you never to miss your meal, you promised me that if I let you move into this room you wouldn't act childishly like this. Take a hunger strike, see how you are right now. You must have fainted from not eating. Why are you hurting yourself," Abizar said with great emotion, instead of worrying about Khanza's condition, he scolded her, I don't know maybe it was his form of attention.

Khanza still felt nauseous and very dizzy, he could only listen to what Abizar said without any energy to answer.

"Seeks Auntie to prepare food."

Farah went to the kitchen and brought back food and milk for Khanza.

Khanza just leaned weakly on the back of the bed, he was really lazy to do anything for now let alone to answer what they were throwing, to open his eyes was already very exhausted.

"Khanza eat first so you have energy," said Farah thrusting a tray that he brought.

Khanza turned his face away and refused Farah's hand-drawn tray.

"You are this weak and you still refuse food, let's eat" Abizar said.

"I can't eat, sister please don't force me" said Khanza, who can't really eat. He really felt nauseous seeing food alone had made his stomach feel shaken and wanted to return to vomiting.

"Then drink milk, yes!" said Farah again giving milk to khanza.

Khanza refused. However, Farah kept forcing Khanza to drink it.

"Mbak Farah, I told you, I don't want to" Khanza pushed the glass down and broke.

"You don't want to eat, you don't want to drink milk then what do you want? We've served very well, feeding. Khanza what you're doing is torturing yourself, what if I find you too late." Abizar snapped.

"Indeed what will happen, isn't it better than me in this condition," Abizar snapped back with a sharp look. " I was lied to by my husband. Do you not understand the pain I feel, when I see Brother along with other women," said Khanza raised the tone of voice.

"Now you know that Farah is also my wife, you must accept our current situation. You, Farah, and me. We are one family.

"I know Mas, I'm just your second wife, you have a wife other than me, but do you know how much my heart hurts. Don't you ever think about me one bit."

"I know how you feel, but everything has happened, we can't do anything but accept.

"We can, brother. The end of one of your marriages, you chose Me or Farah.

"I love you both, I won't choose between you" said Abizar, who was already troubled by emotions, as if the flames of anger in his eyes were burning and ready to be grabbed.

"You are selfish" cried Farah.

"Yes I know I'm selfish."

"What is my sister's purpose in marrying me! Is it true that I said a few days ago that if my brother married me it only wanted a child from my womb, could Farah not give you a child," cried Khanza, he was out of his control, he said, he subconsciously took out the same words that he had just thrown out.

"Yes, I married you because Farah couldn't give me a child. Are you satisfied" said Abizar annoyed and he came out. Not just out of the room, Abizar went out of the house to calm himself. He was really frustrated. He had never been challenged like that before and this was the first time anyone had opposed him and yelling at him made Abizar out of control.

Farah just fell silent not knowing what to do, while Khanza after crying sobbing.

Not wanting to further make Khanza sad Farah decided to get out of that room.

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