Sharing Love: Loving Myself And Herself

Trying From the Beginning

Along the way to the old house, Khanza kept trying to look fine, he could not leave a trace of tears on his face, he could not make anyone suspicious of him.

"All will be well ... all will be well .. all will be well," the mantra that Khanza always uttered until he reached the gate of the old house.

Khanza deliberately called Abizar for permission, so that he had more time to find a new place to live without Abizar suspicious, because tonight he was still staying at Farah's house.

The taxi entered the gate, Khanza had previously called Farah if he wanted to pick Aziel up and asked her to prepare her Son.

From a distance Khanza could see Aziel and Farah on the terrace playing and it was seen if Aziel was ready to come with him.

"Mama ..," Aziel ran to greet Khanza, stretching out her hands to be held by her mother.

"Mama miss Ziel, bobo same mom again yes, baby," said Khanza took her son to his carrier and walked over to Farah.

"Why did you take a taxi?" ask Farah.

"Yes Mbak, Pak Tarno again there is work," Khanza replied lying.

Farah wants to get Aziel's bag into the cab. However, Khanza quickly took it.

Khanza didn't want Farah to see the suitcase and bag in the back seat of the taxi.

"Let me bring it," said Khanza took Aziel's bag, there are daily necessities such as powder, telon oil and so on. The bag was always taken when he went to Khanza's house or to Farah's house, as for other equipment in each house.

"Oh yes, Ma'am. We go first yes, I want to take a walk Aziel first before going home" said Khanza.

"Yes, Ma'am, Ma'am also no work at home," said Farah.

"No, I want to spend time with Aziel" Khanza said. Reason sought. "It's okay, isn't it."

"Yes, have fun" said Farah, understanding that Khanza wants to spend time with her son.

Khanza just breathed a sigh of relief when the taxi he was riding had started to move away from the old house, Khanza saw Farah from the rearview mirror that kept waving hands at them, Aziel also waved at her Bubunya.

Khanza dyed his son's hair,

"I'm sorry, Mom! Mama's been selfish separating you, separating from your father and your mother."

"May you understand one day why Mama separated you from them" said Khanza, her tears dripping, the tears she had been holding back from now on, hoping that the pain and tightness in his heart could be slightly lessened.

"Mama cry?" asked Aziel wiping the tears of his mother, for some reason instead of feeling calmer as his son's hand rubbed his tears, Khanza's heart grew sicker, and he felt more and more, his heart was hurting and he felt guilty about what he had done.

"Aziel loves Mama, right?" tanya Khanza held her two cheeks in both palms.

"Yes, Ziel loves mama."

"Sorry mama yes, when Ziel grows up, mama must clear everything" said Khanza again kissed his son's entire face.

Aziel nodded even though he did not understand what his mother said.

Khanza took his son into his arms, continuing to kiss the tip of his head.

"Ziel, sorry mama yes, Mama promises to always be there for you, will always make Ziel happy" said Khanza.

"Mama don't cry" said Aziel looking up at his mother who continued to tear.

Ziel who felt sorry for his mother also joined in tears

Almost crying.

"Your mother doesn't cry!" khanza tried to wipe away her tears and smiled at her son.

"Mama's not crying, right," said Khanza peeked long at Aziel's cheeks.

"Ziel loves mama" said Aziel hugging her mother.

"Pak please go to X Street" Khanza said, giving the taxi driver an address.

Aziel did not ask anymore, he just saw where the taxi took him, he felt happy when he found out they went to the house of Aqila, his mother's friend, he was also very close to Aqila.

Khanza came down when they reached the boarding house Aqila, assisted by the driver carrying a large suitcase and 1 large bag went into the boarding houses of Aqila.

Despite being married to Abizar, Khanza still kept the keys to their boarding houses.

"Where's Auntie's mom?" asked Aziel who did not see Aqila, she searched all the rooms, but Aqila never met.

A little while later Aqila came, he saw Khanza and Aziel had already slept in his room, he chose to make food for them.

As soon as Khanza woke up he immediately approached Aqila who was busy in the kitchen, while Aziel was still asleep.

Khanza sat up while propping up his chin with both hands.

"You're awake, what exactly is going on?" aqila asked who saw the belongings of her best friend..

Khanza did not answer, he just massaged his head that felt dizzy. Too much crying made his head throb a little.

"Are you sure you're leaving Abizar? have you established your heart?" tanya Aqila put the food in front of Khanza.

"I'm sure I don't want to see Abi's face anymore, I want to go as far as possible, I don't want to live in a family like this, a family that never values me, never thought I existed" Khanza said, crying again.

"Why should I cry for them, they never feel sad when they do this to me" Khanza said, wiping her tears violently.

Aqila clasped her best friend's hand to strengthen her. He could see that his best friend was depressed.

"I didn't think Mr. Abizar could do all that to you, I thought everything was fine" Aqila said.

"I've been thinking I've been through a difficult time, I've been trying to accept my destiny, it turns out it's not over I have to pass some more tests, but I can't afford it's too much for me, hikz .. hikz." No matter how hard he held back he couldn't, his heart hurt too much.

Aqila carried the friend into her arms, rubbing her back.

"Now, what's your plan?"

"I want to find an apartment that is a little far from here, I do not want to currently meet with Abi Brother. I want to go as far as possible."

"Apartment?" tanya Aqila made sure. Looked Khanza in the eye.

"Yes, Apartment. I'm afraid that the cost of gini Zial will not be comfortable."

"Rarely Apartment?" ask Aqila again, he still wants when khanza wants to run away first, he does not bring any money and only carries his cards.

"Yes, I have money, really," replied Khanza who just understood Aqila's intentions.

"But if you use your card, Mr. Abizar can definitely track your whereabouts." Jalas Aqila's.

"So I took a lot of money in Abi's safe, I stole it, didn't I?" tanya Khanza looked at Aqila questioningly.

"The husband's money will be the wife's money too, so I don't think so! How many did you take?" tanya Aqila changed seats.

Khanza immediately pulled Aqila and showed her the bag she was carrying instead of clothes, the bag was filled with money.

"You're crazy, you robbed your husband" said Aqila, who was shocked to see that the bag was all money.

"I was just upset, so I took a lot. I'm sure, Abi's brother would not be angry, husband's money, wife's money."

"Yes, we better hurry before they realize your departure" said Aqila.

They also went to go to find an apartment, they deliberately sought a place that was quite far and not too crowded and certainly not easily found by Abizar.

Incidentally they have a property agent friend, so it is not too difficult to find what they are looking for as they want.

"I think this is the most suitable" Khanza said when checking an apartment even though the size is not large. However, the apartment was quite comfortable for the two of them, the furniture was also complete.

"Are you sure you want to stay alone? are you okay?" ask Aqila worried.

"It's okay, I can definitely be comfortable here, we can definitely quickly blend in with the others." They hugged before they split up. "Oh yeah, you don't visit me often or call me, I'm afraid Abi's sister is tracking me down. For now I really don't want to see her."

"I understand, I'll go home first, you'll be fine here, if there's anything call me right away."

Not to forget Khanza also changed his mobile number, Aqila kept Khanza's mobile number with a man's name to be unknown.

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