Sharing Love: Loving Myself And Herself

Abizar Feelings.

The night Abizar could not sleep, the words of Khanza this afternoon continued to ring in his ears.

He really didn't expect Khanza to think that way.

Abizar couldn't sleep, he just kept looking at the ceiling of his room. Abizar got up and sat down on the bed, holding his chest the pain and pain he felt again. His heart really hurt to hear that sentence coming out of Khanza's mouth.

"What a bad thing I am in your eyes, never a little bit of a thinker. I just want us to be happier."

Abizar squeezed his chest as he recalled Khanza's falling tears while saying all that. Remains the hatred of Khanza so much that it breaks down.

He took a cell phone and tried to call Khanza's number.

Only the first ringing Khanza has turned it off, Abizar several times repeated it until the number Khanza is no longer active.

"What do I have to do so that you will forgive me" she pulled her hair.

Abizar took the keys to his car and got out, and,

"Where are you going?" ask Warda.

"I'm going out, Mah. Looking for some fresh air," he answered again walking out.

"Why is your household like this, son," said Warda who felt sorry for his son.

Abizar drove her car to Khanza's house, she called Khanza's number again when she got to the gate. The number is not active yet.

Abizar came down and found you security guard, he asked permission to see Khanza.

"Awhile, sir. I asked first. Mother forbade us to open the gates at night without permission."

"Yes, Sir. I am Abizar her husband."

"His husband? Khanza's mother's husband?" asked the security guard to frown, at will his employer did not have a husband.

"Yes, Sir. I am her husband, Papa of Aziel and Aisyah. Please tell him if I want to see him."

"Well, sir," said the security guard ran to meet Auntie and asked her to deliver a message to her employer.

Khanza and Aqila were in his study. They're getting busy. Khanza was greatly helped by Aqila who worked and lived with him.

While working they can chat and do other things while being saturated with their work.

Khanza workspace is also very different from the workspace in general. The workspace is more like a kosan and minimarket room.

In addition to the work desk in the room there is also a large bed. If they work overtime Aziel and Aisha will sleep there as well as the two of them. Snacks neatly arranged on his shelf.

"Excuse me, Mom."

"Come, Bi. What what?" ask Khazna as Aunt approaches.

"Sorry, Mom. Outside the gate was Mr. Abizar, he wanted to meet with Mom he said."

"Ha, Ziel's dad?" ask Khazna not to believe it.

"Yes, Mom. He's still outside the gate, what's he telling you to come in, ma'am?" ask Aunty.

Khanza and Aqila immediately ran to the window and looked out the gate, it was true, Abizar was in front of the gate sitting on the front hood of the car while constantly trying to contact someone on his phone.

"Surely she called your phone" Aqila guessed.

"Why the hell did he have to come again, did he not know that every time he had was just the pain he gave me" Khanza said, looking at Abizar. Instead of feeling relieved after removing his heart he again felt pain and as if the incident had just happened an old wound that had been in his grave deep as if back up to the surface.

"Bi, just tell me that Khanza and the children are asleep" said Aqila.

"Okay, ma'am," Auntie replied out of the room.

"Why did Abi not just leave my life? I'm tired of Qila. I've tried to forget it, why when everything is fine Abi's brother again messed up my heart?" he said back to sobbing.

"Here it is, everything will be fine, you can definitely go through this," said Aqila can only stroke the back of her Friend, she knows exactly how Khanza feels about Abizar. She witnessed how much the friend loved her husband, she could not imagine the pain her best friend felt today until the pain was able to defeat her love.

Aqila tightened her embrace as Khanza's body was further shaken by her cries.

"I hate Abi's sister, I hate her, I hate her so much" Khanza said.

Aqila looked out the window and saw Abizar still in his place even though Bibi was seen to have met him.

"Here you go, we'd better get some sleep, it's late at night. We're going to the office tomorrow." Aqila pulled Khanza to the bed, joined by Aziel and Aisyah who had fallen asleep there.

Abizar, who did not know what to do and where, chose to stay in his car and looked at Khanza's house. His heart felt calmer when he was near them.

Long Abizar was before the gate until he decided to go to Khanza's old house and sleep there.

In the morning Abizar left early, he did not go straight to his office, but he went to Khanza's house.

Once he got there he could see Daniel's car parked in front of the kanza house.

The gate was still open so he could get in and park his car.

The door of the house did not close and he immediately entered and saw Daniel was having breakfast with his son and wife and Aqila. They looked so happy, Khanza even added his food to Daniel's plate.

Abizar hardened his jaws at the sight of all. However, as much as possible he held back his anger, he did not want his relationship with Khanza to be increasingly murky.

He still hopes Khanza will forgive him.

"Papa," Aziel ran as she looked at her papa. "Papa kok just came again anyway, Aziel always waiting for Papa, Ade Aisyah also kangen Papa." Aziel put his hand to Papa's neck.

Aisyah was also very happy to see her Papa. He seemed to want to jump up to his Papa when he saw his papa coming, smiling widely to show his gums and spread his hands.

"The beautiful morning Papa," said Abizar approached his daughter and immediately carried her, showering her with his kiss made the beautiful baby laugh.

Khanza could not deny his heart warmed to see all that, a line of smiles rising on his lips.

Khanza flung, quickly dismissing that feeling.

"Bi, we go to the office first, take the children?," said Khanza moved from his seat and immediately took his briefcase, not caring about Abizar who was nearby.

"Feeling your wife turns out to be very good" said Daniel before coming out following Khanza and Aqila.

Abizar exhaled slowly trying to regulate the rhythm of his heart that was increasingly wanting to explode.

Abizar could see if Khanza and Aqila got into Daniel's car and Khanza was sitting in the front seat.

Abizar clenched his teeth holding back his already overflowing emotions and stifling his chest.

'Daniel you're really out of your way, ' only to see Daniel's car go with his wife.

"Why not go to the office?" aziel asked Abizar.

"No dear, today Papa will play with you," said Abizar made his son jump with joy.

The pain felt a little treated with the presence of his two children. Today Abizar spent time with the two until the afternoon.

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Greetings from me Author M Anha & M🤗

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