Sharing Love: Loving Myself And Herself
Love in Silence
The highest peak of love is,
🌹Always love even though unloved.
🌹 Always want to be together even if always left out.
🌹 Always loving despite being humiliated often.
🌹 Always miss though not missed.
🌹 Always together despite being hurt often.
(Ustadz Handi Bonny)
Every life has its own trials, there are people tested with husbands, wives, in-laws, daughters-in-law, children, or grandchildren.
However, all can be passed with sincerity and gratitude.
Abizar understood that if Khanza did not want to establish their domestic relationship, he did not want to be selfish by continuing to force his will. He understood Khanza's feelings after speaking together.
Abizar also saw that his wife was sure she wanted to part with him. Even though it hurts and disappointed. However, he tried to understand what his second wife wanted.
"If you part with me you'll feel happier, I can't hold you back. Well if that's what you want, let me take you, to your family, I ask you to them well I'll do the same when we part and return you well. I'm sorry I couldn't keep my promise to make you happy" Abizar said, trying to keep the rhythm of his voice choking.
Khanza just nodded and continued to bow. She did not dare look her husband in the eyes. His heart ached hearing all that, but he remained firm on his stance.
Although his heart ached, Khanza still wanted to continue his divorce plan. Such great love really hurt him.
Khanza realized, if he separated the children would have such a big impact, but for what reason he lived the household life if he himself would feel tormented. Not because she shared her husband's love, but because she felt very disappointed with him, feeling unappreciated, feeling isolated, feeling unworthy in their midst, differences in social status that make him feel more sick and feel neglected.
"Children are still children Brother, Brother can visit him at any time," Khanza said without seeing Abizar. Khanza did not want to see her husband's face, she was afraid that if her heart betrayed her, again hurt and felt pain because of her love that was too deep.
Abizar reached out his hand holding the hand of his little daughter, gently rubbing her little girl's reddened cheeks.
There was no talk between them The little princess seemed to be a painkiller between the two, their eyes fixed on the small movements of the baby, both hiding their respective pains.
After a long time Damar knocked on the door and entered while holding Aziel who was fussy because she was sleepy.
"What's Papa's son?" tanya Abizar took Aziel from Damar's sling.
"Ziel wants to bobo with Mama and Papa" said Aziel and began to close his eyes. Abizar put Aziel to bed next to Khanza.
Aziel immediately fell asleep while continuing to hold his Papa's hand, Abizar could only sit down and continue wiping his son's hair until Ziel fell asleep.
His little baby was also asleep, Khanza put it next to Aziel who was also sleeping soundly, Khanza went to sleep and turned his back on the three of them.
"Sorry, Brother. I love you so much, I really want us to live together. But I don't think our marriage can continue. I don't want to feel pain and disappointment for the umpteenth time everything is enough" Inner Khanza tried to close his eyes. Though a stream of tears kept dripping down his pillow.
Khanza can already be friendly with the meaning of the word share. Sharing with her husband's first wife, Khanza is thrilled as she achieves her sincerity of sharing her husband's love. However, Khanza's disappointment with Abizar again attacked his feelings. Khanza felt he was not considered, not appreciated and that it hurt him a lot.
Khanza kept remembering as they laughed at her fear and her husband was there and joined them, the memory continued to be reflected in Khanza's mind and every time he remembered the times his pain attacked again. The Khazars were confident he could re-knit his feelings and try to start over without Abizar being with them. Khanza chose to part ways that gave up all his life and his children to fate, where their destiny took him, he would just follow. He just wants to get out of the shackles of love that hurt him.
The atmosphere of the room became quiet again, all night Abizar continued to sit while looking at his children, he did not want to miss the opportunity, he said, the opportunity to look at the faces of his children is not necessarily to be seen after Khanza returned to his village or even after they separated.
In the morning when Khanza woke up he found Abizar still stroking his little Princess cheek.
"Where are you going?" abizar asked when he saw Khanza wanted to get out of bed.
Without a word Abizar immediately approached Khanza and raised him, Khanza wanted to refuse. However, Abizar had already picked him up.
"Call me if you're done" he said after taking down Khanza. Months of no meeting brought awkwardness between them.
"Yes Kak" replied Khanza began his ritual in the bathroom, not forgetting he closed the door.
Abizar leaned against the bathroom door, while continuing to look at her two children who occasionally move, Azial had even made her sister as her bolster.
The revolving door handle indicates that Khanza has opened…
"No need, brother. I can walk alone" Khanza refused before Abizar picked him up.
"Let me do my duty as a husband before we part. I just want to be by your side through your recovery after you gave birth to my son" Abizar said with a pleading gaze.
Khanza fell silent and let her husband take care of their needs.
That day Abizar really took care of the three of them, ranging from giving breakfast, bathing Aziel, helping the sisters clean their little baby, feeding Khanza and taking care of the drugs that Khanza had to consume that day.
Grandfather and grandmother as well as Aqila chose to go home and let this day Abizar take care of them.
During the day Farah and Warda came back.
Farah was delighted when she saw that the khanza were willing to allow Abizar to enter the room, clearly if Abizar took care of them.
Farah thought everything was okay, and so was Warda. He thought that Abizar had restored their relationship.
"We go back, take care of your children and your wife" said Warda, who wants to give time to them, as well as Farah, who understands that they need time to be together.
"Mbak go home first yes, don't think it can affect your ASI production. Rest, yes," said Farah hugging Khanza.
Until the night Abizar felt very satisfied, he had taken care of the three of them, invited Aziel to play and also always looked after his two children while Khanza was sleeping, Abizar really feels like a husband who accompanies his wife during childbirth.
"Night, Abizar returned to sleep and looked only at the three people who were sleeping, looking at the beautiful face of Khanza, the adorable face of Aziel and the cute face of his little baby.
Abizar calls Farah to prepare some of her belongings and says that she will drive Khanza tomorrow to the village.
"Is Khanza going to stay home, Mas? I think Mas has managed to explain the problem and he will stay with us.
"No, Khanza stays on his feet, we'll split up. I'll take her home."
Farah just kept silent not knowing what to do, but if it was Khanza's decision, Farah has absolutely no right to force, no right to force, Farah has already made the mistake of forcing Khanza indirectly into her home life and she does not want to make the same mistake of letting what you want .
If at first Warda did not agree to Khanza's decision. However, after explaining very carefully, Warda finally relented and let Khazna return to his hometown to bring his two grandchildren.
In the morning they all came, today Khanza will be out of the hospital and will go directly to the village using a private jet that Abizar has rented to take them.
As he was about to leave, suddenly Mr.'s entourage. Alvin Alfaro comes and wants to meet the Khanza family, including his grandfather, grandmother and Khanza himself.
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