Sharing Love: Loving Myself And Herself

Trying to Accept Reality.

Today Farah went abroad, Abizar drove her to the airport.

"Mas, once in a while if you want to see me bring Aziel!" pinta Farah because she believes that maybe she would never have met Aziel if it wasn't Aziel who came to see her.

Of course I'll take Aziel to see you he'll miss the Bubunya. Maybe in the near future I can't see you more often, you know my company is developing I'm really very busy, if there's free time I'll be there, you know, if it's you who has free time as usual that should come see me."

"Agreed."

It was just like that they were before Khanza was present among them or those who presented them into their households. Long distance relationships are no longer a big deal for both. However, it was different for this time that Farah really intended to punish herself by no longer seeing Abizar. They will meet when Abizar comes to see him.

Abizar saw Farah get on the plane. When Farah left, Abizar went home.

Along the way he kept thinking about whether he was ready for Khanza and the answer was no. He kept cursing at her heart why she couldn't forget Khanza, why she loved him even more after they separated. Whether this is a punishment for him for hurting and not taking good care of him while at his side, his mind continues to feel frustrated with his circumstances.

Abizar tried to get rid of all his feelings that continued to stifle his chest by returning to the office busying himself with his work.

He really spent time for his company to make his company grow rapidly.

At night when he returned home he really felt the meaning of silence, no more Khanza and no Farah, either, there was only guilt and his longing for Khanza the deeper he made him even more unable to sleep despite being in a comfortable room.

Abizar took back his laptop and played his son's videos, that's just one way to comfort his heart.

Days kept changing the day Abizar kept doing the same, working, working, and returning home and watching videos of his son. When there is free time, Abizar will bring Aziel to stay at his house. Occasionally bring his son to play on the playground.

Khanza is getting busy with his work, the more difficult he finds it. Aisyah no longer wants to live with her grandmother, she always wants to come to the office. Making Abizar also Difficulty meeting his children.

Sometimes he goes abroad to take care of how much his work that Aqila cannot represent makes him take all his children with him.

Sometimes they had to leave for two weeks, during which time he could not meet them.

The density of her work also greatly disrupted her meetings with her children, at a time when Khanza and her children were at home sometimes she was the one who had to work out of town or abroad.

Aziel who has begun to adjust and no longer complains if he does not meet his father. Video calls are enough for them. He knew his father was working.

"Mama and Papa are still busy?" asked Aziel approaching her mother who was playing with her sister.

Hearing the word Papa called Aisyah immediately responded and also looked at her mother as if waiting for an answer from her brother's question.

"Dear, Dad, you're busy Aziel wants to call you?" tanya Khanza pulled Aziel into his lap.

"Papa," cried Aisyah who was so enthusiastic to understand if her mother wanted to call her Papa.

"Yes, Mah. Ziel kangen Papa, wanted to talk to Papa," he leaned his head against his mother's chest.

"Mama send a message first, who knows if Papa is busy again," said Khanza sent a message to Abizar and asked to contact him if he had read the message. Said Aziel missed him.

They waited for Abizar's call. Khanza's phone didn't ring.

"Papa didn't call, Mah?"

"Maybe papa's close, son. Let's wait a minute."

Aziel just nodded and continued to hold his mother's phone, and sure enough After waiting 30 minutes Abizar finally called. He just finished a meeting.

As usual Khazan would let his two children talk to his father. If they talk, they forget time. Sometimes Abizar would turn off his calls when they were already asleep.

Khanza could see their excitement together, even though they met through a video call.

Samar Abizar heard the voices of adult men around them.

"What is Daniel?" abizar's mind sharpened his hearing.

"Where else is Aziel?" asked Abizar who also saw around Aziel not like in his house.

"Ziel is again at the Oma Doctor's house," Aziel replied.

"Oma Doctor?" asked Abizar not understanding.

"Yes, at Oma Doctor's house."

Abizar thought for a moment, "What the Doctor oma means Doctor Dewi who once helped the delivery of Ayesha."

"Whose other name?" tanya who could not help her curiosity heard Khanza talking to a man.

"With o'm Damar" Aziel answered, pointing his camera at his mother.

Abizar could see that Khanza looked so happy laughing along with Damar.

Abizar and his children continued to talk while Khanza continued to talk with Damar, Abizar could both hear their voices and the laughter of Khanza and Damar. But he did not understand what they were talking about.

Since the divorce besides Aqila Khanza also often told Damar about his complaints, all the tightness in his heart was all the advice of Doctor Nita, a psychiatrist who once helped out of his trauma.

Damar was Khanza's best friend since he was a child before meeting Aqila Damar where he always poured out his heart and he returned to do it and felt more comfortable.

They kept laughing as they discussed Daniel and Aqila who had started to get close without them noticing.

Khanza always agreed when Daniel took him to the road and Khanza always invited Aqila along with them, and while in the place where Daniel meant Khanza would pretend to be busy or say if Aisyah was crying and looking for him. He will leave them both.

Sometimes he also invited Daniel to go together and return to invite Aqila and her children.

Khanza again left them together with Aisyah, so that they could together take care of Aisyah who was super active and he himself took a walk to another place along with Aziel.

Aqila has sacrificed a lot for him, done a lot with him, Khanza just wants to help Aqila get love, and he believes Daniel is a good man for her.

Khanza continues to laugh when telling funny things about his best friend that makes people who hear can also laugh, including Abizar who realized earlier smiling to hear the laughter of his ex-wife.

He's nobody else for Khanza and Khanza is free to be close to anyone.

'The room of a good man, he can certainly make Khanza and my children happy.' Abizar's inner self.

Sunday morning Abizar picked up his two children.

He wants to spend his free time with them.

"Aren't you sure you want to bring Ayesha?" ask Khanza. This was the first time Abizar had brought Aisha with him.

"Yes, we play it at home, so you calm down. Do you want to come with you?"

"I have an appointment with Damar, next time, sister."

"Oh, ok," she replied smiling awkwardly.

"Ziel take care of Ade!"

"Yes, Mah. We're gonna be good kids, aren't we, Adek?" aziel asked his sister who only answered Aisha's smile.

They went to his father's house, both very happy. It has been 2 weeks that Abizar did not meet them making both of them miss his father so much.

Today he really became a ready Papa, Abizar took care of his son alone. Warda was going abroad with his social friends.

"Why don't Papa stay home with Mama? Can we go on together?" ask Aziel. This question was often questioned by his mother. However, Khanza only said that he would know when he grew up.

Aziel's age does not yet understand what divorce is, all he knows is that his mother and father do not live in the house and he thinks if it is because of their busyness, which he does, he could see his mother was so busy at work that he came to the conclusion that his father was so busy that he rarely met them and played with them.

"The same mom can't stay at home anymore dear," Abizar said trying to explain.

"Why can't Papa stay with my mom?"

"Aziel will know someday, now the important thing is Aziel to be a good child first and obedient to mother.

Papa will always be there for you" said Abizar ruffling his son's hair.

It's free to explain that Aziel won't understand.

Aziel again got the same answer if he would know when he grew up.

Aziel flicked his shoulders then returned to playing with Aisyah.

Abizar let them play. They play whatever they want.

Aziel's toys are still a lot in the house, and now can be played by Aisyah, there are also some toys that Aziel can still play by himself.

Abizar even gave Aisha everything she appointed including items she could not play.

Abizar took them from morning till evening. They are really happy to play together.

Khanza himself this whole day chose to spend time with Damar.

In the afternoon, Khanza asked Damar to take him to pick up his children.

Khanza pressed the bell many times. But no one opened the door for them. He opened his own door, Khanza looked at a house that was very messy and he was sure it was the work of his children

"It's home why is it like this?" khanza said walking slowly into the house, Khanza was more surprised when he saw some jars broken and he knew it was the urn of his former father-in-law.

"Waaaah your children are really disfiguring his Papa's house." Damar walked behind Khanza. They can see children's toys scattered, children's toys are everywhere.

"Sister, Abi's brother?" khanza calls who don't see them.

"Ziel, Aisha?" call him again when there's no answer.

"Are they out?" ask Damar.

"It looks like they're out" Khanza said.

"Bi, where are the kids?" khanza asked to see Bibi who had just arrived, Bibi was no less surprised by what she saw.

"Auntie doesn't know, Mom. Aunty also just came," said Bibi showed the bag of groceries she brought, Bibi just came home from buying groceries for the purposes of her kitchen.

As he was leaving, Khanza heard Abizar's laughter coming from the 2nd floor and Khanza was sure it was coming from the main room.

"It looks like they're in the upper room, ma'am" said the baby, who also heard Abizar's laughter.

"I went upstairs first, right? Calling the kids, it's late in the afternoon" Khanza told Damar and then he climbed upstairs.

Khanza realized that if you were not his room anymore, he knocked on the door and called out to Abizar.

"Sister Abi" said Khanza smothered his mouth when he saw Aisyah in Abizan's arms.

Abizar returns the chocolate cake for them, Abizar engrosses in playing with Aziel and gives the cake to Aisyah.

Abizar who often saw Khanza giving Aisyah a spoon to eat by herself also did the same.

Let Aisha eat by herself

Make the child a chocolate doll.

Abizar could only laugh at his daughter and did not know where to start cleaning her.

Khanza just sighed to see what happened to his daughter, He cleaned it first while Abizar and Aziel went down to meet Damar.

They kept talking while waiting for Khanza.

"Do you like Khanza?" ask Abizar.

Damar who was playing with Aziel immediately looked towards Abizar hearing the question.

"I'm so happy that if you're with Khanza, I'm sure you can make her happy."

"Khanza is a beautiful woman and also good I'm sure anyone who knows her would love it" he said seeing Khanza coming down the stairs while holding Aisyah who was clean.

"Sister, we go first, okay?" said it. Abizar just nodded in response to Khanza.

Abizar could only see Damar carrying Aziel walking hand in hand with Khanza holding Aisyah.

He could only wave his hand as his two children waved at him.

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