Sharing Love: Loving Myself And Herself

Season 2: chapter 28

"What are you saying, it's night we should go home?" Mentari tried to have them turn the discussion to another discussion, he was not ready to answer the question.

Suddenly Azriel pulled Mentari's hand, clutching the hand that felt cold because it had been holding the cold drink they had been drinking.

"So, I love you. I loved you for a long time, but I didn't dare to reveal it because I was afraid that our friendship would be compromised. However, I realized that harboring this feeling was not good for either of us especially for me, I was afraid that you would belong to someone else who preceded me and left me." Azriel looked into Mentari's eyes.

Hearing that Mentari was silent, whether because seeing him along with the God earlier made Azriel express her feelings at this time.

"So, you want to be my girlfriend?" azriel said, still clutching Mentari's hand tightly.

"I can't answer it now, give me time" said Mentari, pulling her hand from Azriel's grasp, unwilling to look into Azriel's eyes, afraid that her tears would drip. Where he already knew the answer he had to give was no. Even though his heart wanted to say yes. However, the answer he had to take was no, as he recalled Farah's words to him some time ago. Mentari wants to give time to their friendship, he is not ready to make their relationship tenuous because of the word not to be given to Azriel.

"Jawab only now, sooner or later the answer remains the same. Mentari, we have known for a long time, I know for sure you already have an answer right and I hope the answer you choose is yes, I beg you say yes," azriel said with a smile on her face and it made Mentari unable to answer the question, she could not say no to the smile of her best friend.

"We go home now yes, please give me some time to answer." Mentari back pleaded. He does not want to make a decision, he will regret it.

"What if I give you time you'll answer yes?" said Azriel who strongly believes that Mentari will answer yes to his expression of love.

As the minister fell silent, he thought whether delaying answering would not only add to the pain Azriel would receive? Whether he should answer now and say no to the declaration of love from the man he had long known, the man who had actually been enthroned in his heart was also a long time ago.

Without Azriel knowing all this time Mentari was also waiting for the expression. However, the phrase came after he received a warning from Lucia's mother, accepting the fact that Azriel had been betrothed to another girl.

"Are you going to accept any of my answers even though they may not be the answers you want?"

Azriel is speechless as to whether Mentari will reject her declaration of love.

"Whatever my answer is, will you not change our friendship?" mentari said again looking into Azriel's eyes who were also staring at him.

Azriel's back. Somehow hearing those words he felt anxious, would Mentari reject him.

"Azriel wait, I think it's better that I answer her tonight so as not to make you expect too much of me."

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Azriel's heart stopped beating. What does it mean not to make him too hopeful. Is that a sign there is no hope for him.

"Monitor," said Azriel looking into the eyes of the woman he loved, he could see the eyes of Mentari who also dewy. It is clear that the clear details are inundated in his eye peluk. Mentari would really refuse it.

"Sorry, I don't think we can be together. I'm sorry I couldn't return your feelings, sorry for the word no I gave you to answer your question earlier," said Mentari then he turned his face because at this time a drop of tears had fallen in his eyes.

Azriel immediately clasped Mentari's hand, he could not believe the word Mentari did not say.

"So, please answer from your heart. Did you really reject me? Is that the answer from your heart?" tanyakanya.

Mentari just nodded, he could no longer answer the question from Azriel, his throat was prevented from holding his stuffing.

"No, that's not your heart. Do I know why you said no?" asked Azriel again to make Mentari just shake.

"I want to go home, I beg you to take me home," said Mentari made Azriel just sigh of frustration, then he turned back on his car engine and drove his car to the Mentari residence.

The two fell silent again, Azriel could not believe if this was a rejection, whether Mentari had never loved her.

Is his conjecture wrong if Mentari also harbors feelings for him all this time.

Once they reached the Mentari residence, Mentari immediately went down and ran to his residence without turning to Azriel's car which was still parked in front of his alley, because the car could not enter the hallway, Mentari slightly ran to get to his residence while Azriel just stared at Mentari from his place, there was a feeling of pain felt in his heart. Somehow despite hearing the word no from Mentari his heart said if it was not the answer that Mentari wanted to answer for his statement. Azriel felt Mentari was hiding something from her, why did she say no. However, he did not dare to look into his eyes and he could see there was sadness on the face of the beautiful woman who had graced his heart all along.

"So, I'm not giving up. I'm sure one day you'll be honest with your own heart, you'll say yes to my love" he murmured and drove back to his residence. He will make Mentari calm first and will ask what makes him reject it.