Sharing Love: Loving Myself And Herself

Season 2: chapter 29

Arriving at home, Mentari saw his mother and two other people who had helped him make a cake order to be delivered tomorrow. They were done, it looks like they were all cleaning up the equipment to make the cake.

"Mom, Mentari will make it right, Mentari will make another cake for Azriel," said Mentari made his mother nodded and chose to rest as well as two other people who since the morning worked there, they chose to go home.

Ibu Mentari deliberately chose people to help him who came from around their place, in order to make it easier for them to come, no need to use transportation to get there as well as when it is night they can go home to their respective homes. Helping to make a cake is not difficult.

Mentari began making cakes for Azriel, after cleaning herself. However, he did not concentrate, he even incorrectly put the number of eggs in the dough and the worst in the egg shuffle there is an egg shell, and the worst, it looks like Mentari put the shell and throw the contents of the egg so not concentrated.

"So, what are you doing, son?" asked Rusmi who saw what her daughter was doing.

"I want to make a cake for Azriel, ma'am. I was the one who gave him the wrong cake, I wanted to make another cake for him and I gave it tomorrow," replied Mentari still turning on the mixer to shake the dough.

"What recipe cake uses egg shells like this," said the mother took a mixer held by Mentari, hearing that Mentari immediately saw the dough in the container. He was also very surprised, why he put the egg shell into the dough, he immediately looked at his mother.

"Have changed the other one, just throw it away. Why can't you concentrate like this? Is there a problem?" rusmi asked, this is the first time he saw his daughter was not concentrated on making a cake to be given to someone or making cakes ordered people, for them customer satisfaction is the main thing.

"It's okay, Mom. This Mentari will be more careful again," he said.

"Oh, maybe you're tired, son. You just rest, this is for the mother to make."

"No, Ma. Mentari is not tired, Mother must be tired. Mentari will concentrate and will not make mistakes, Mother rest again Mentari only make one, will not be long," said Mentari clean hard make it, mother nodded.

Before leaving, Rusmi provides the ingredients to be used to make the cake to be made by Mentari, even the mother first broke the egg that will be used by her daughter, the daughter, afraid if until the Mentari again make the mistake of inserting the eggshell.

"Remember to carefully enter it, if it feels wrong it will be different," said the mother once again before leaving, making Mentari nodded and re-mixed everything. Mentari tries to concentrate on forgetting what she has been thinking about, especially if it is not Azriel's declaration of love for her.

Once all is done, Mentari has put the cake in the oven and set the time. He sat down on the chair and stared at the oven with his hand propping his chin.

"I would be wrong if I rejected Azriel, why does it feel like I was rejected. It hurts," muttered Mentari rubbed his chest.

As he thought about the problem of his rejection of Azriel, a message notification from God entered his phone, as usual God always greeted him at night and discussed things that were not important.

"Do you have a lover?" tanya Mentari made the God across there frown reading the message.

"Why do you want to be my girlfriend?" asked God in a joking tone, seen from the laughing emoticons listed at the end of his message.

"Do you love your lover?" ask the Mentari again.

The god who saw Mentari not responding to his jokes reread the message, it seems like Mentari is currently in serious mode.

"I don't have a boyfriend, I haven't found a woman that's suitable and comfortable for me, why? Has anyone expressed any feelings for you?" ask God.

"Yes, he just expressed his feelings for me, but I refused."

"If you don't like it, it's okay to be rejected, than you do it. However, by force, it would even hurt yourself as well as the man," God retorted.

"But what I did instead, I also loved her, but I refused and as a result I felt hurt myself. I'm so silly, right?"

"The problem is that we are very different. As we say it is like the earth and the sky, you know I work hard to make money even to pay for my education, while he ... That is so," said Mentari did not continue his writing.

"Is he the son of a rich man? Has anyone looked down on you from his family?" ask God.

"Hee ... Why do you know?" ask Mentari with so many question marks at the end of his message.

"I've experienced that, too, so I understand. I once expressed feelings to a woman, but someone said things that offended her and she finally rejected me and what hurt me I only found out after 2 years she rejected my declaration of love. If I had known then, of course I would have kept my love and would have kept trying to have it."

"Then?" tanya Mentari who was curious about the love story of God.

"Then what? I only live in regret and also disappointed in the person who insulted him."

"It's never too late if you still love her, why don't you reveal it back and convince her if you accept her for who she is."

"I told you it's too late, she's even married to someone else. I just found out that he turned me down because of pressure from other people, after we had separated. I chose to leave the country at that time. I just found out all about it from people who insult the woman I love. He apologized, but it was too late. After I met that woman she was even pregnant with someone else's child, very painful right?"

"Very. You're so pity. Is that why you still don't have a boyfriend?"

"Hmmm ... I want to be in a relationship with someone who loves me and will fight for our love."

"If you were in my position, what would you do?" ask Mentari.

"If I were you, being a repressed woman, I wouldn't be a stupid woman who obeyed what someone who emphasized me said. All this is my life, this is my love as long as that man also loves you what you fear. If that time the woman I loved told me all that, if she was under pressure. Of course I would do anything to be with him, for me he is something very precious."

"Do you think I'm valuable to him?"

"of course. You don't know how sick it is to get rejection from the person we really love and even more sick when we know if he loves us, but he refused just because of the difference you said earlier."

Hearing that Mentari fell silent.

"If you love him and he loves you too. Why you should listen to the words of others. If you're sure he's a good man to you just tell me why you rejected him, if he's willing to keep you, he loves you he'll fight for you. That man won't care about anyone who's against your relationship."

"But he's been betrothed to another woman."

"Does he want to? Does he agree with the match? No right? If he agrees he won't express his feelings for you."

"Yes too, but."

"No words but, if he comes back to express his feelings for you or even asks for an explanation why you refused just tell him the truth, say what is stuck in your heart. If he does not want to fight for you at least you will not feel regret in the future and so will the man, he will know the real reason and from there also you can see if the love he really loves you sincerely or just a word," explained God. Somehow hearing Mentari was also in the position of the woman he had loved made him feel upset, he was upset at someone who considered social status was something that could hinder their togetherness.

The Mentari let out a long sigh, along with that the cake she cooked had also matured.

"All right, thanks for the advice. I will do what you say" said Mentari.