Be aground

Promises

I didn't know what to do at that time. It could be said that the relationship I had with Dika was so complicated. I don't even know what the end of this relationship will be like. How would my family respond if they found out about the Dika family like this ?. What should I do to get my family to agree to our relationship ?. Mama who often opposed our relationship made me always try to make this relationship work well. I can't keep myself away from Dika even in other words I don't want to part with Dika. Dika also know that, I adore him even always want to be around him to make Dika sometimes feel funny about my behavior. I wish everything would be okay, but it's not. When Dika got married first, my parents did not know about it, and it was the thing that kept me safe. But when Dika's mom is getting married again, and my parents know it. Then it will all just fall away. I thought about what to do next and what to do.

Banning Mom's relationship ??

If I could, I would do it. But this isn't my family. I have no right to it, even I am just a person who came in the life of his son who was met with his family. I who pretended to support Mom to remarry was my own hypocrisy. Dika's life without a father figure has been felt when growing up.So also with Dika adek-adak at that time, they only get affection from a mother. I could tell how happy Dika was when a grown man was about to enter the life of those who would be called fathers in that little family. I know why you have the desire to remarry. Families without a father figure at home, will continue to feel lonely even though all full of laughter. They do not feel how the figure of a father who is angry because of our behavior, or even when the father spoils his daughter. I know that and that's why I support this marriage.

The mother who held everything alone, in the end needed a support to move on with life. And that decision has been decided in the future. I'm a woman too, and so is my mother. I know what a woman feels when she's going through a hard time, but I don't know who to share it with. It was the hardest thing, and therefore I tried to persuade Dika to accept mother's decision. Weight is certain, because he is not a real father. But mother's happiness is also the most important thing. I was selfish, I told Dika not to forbid Mom from marrying again, but I also did not want Mom to have the marriage. All the dilemmas I went back to, seeing that this had happened, I finally decided to let go of Dika. Because everything is going to be harder for me to live with him.

Well... At first I thought so, but in fact I can't. Dika who always comes to me when he has a problem, makes me always lethargic for him. Dika who was silent alone made me try to give him spirit. Even when I wanted to end all this, Dika came to me while leaning on my shoulder

"Don't leave me, enough of my family left me. You don't, it's just you that I have right now" Dika said

"Aaahhh came back on a tiring day" I said in my heart

I saw him and said

"Keep assured, until whenever I will not leave you and that is my promise. You're afraid you'll leave me" I said back

"I will not leave you, for to me you are my angel" said Dika

I can only be silent hearing that. All my plans ultimately failed to be done.