Be aground

Birthday Anniversary

Everything went well, with no obstacles at all. Dika and I always spend time on the phone at night. Even at work, we tell each other. Until my birthday came, where it was Saturday. On Friday night, I deliberately switched off my phone so that no one would interfere with the day. Because it feels the same to me. I honestly expected more from Dika. Even I hope Dika remembers her promise that said she would celebrate my birthday alone. Honestly, while together Dika never celebrated my birthday like other couples. Buying cakes, giving gifts, even congratulation that really spelled from his lips on me. Well, a relationship that I never felt in years. And right now I expect him and I hope he keeps his promise. But in fact it's not.....

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00:00 has arrived, and I'm just saying happy birthday to myself. Silent without any words from anyone. And I did it intentionally. Because I knew Dika was with that woman there. I can't do anything about it. I just pretended that I was okay. But it's just the opposite of what I showed. Until the morning came, I quickly got ready to return to the internship, so I would forget what was on my mind at this time.

I sat alone in a place where everyone was busy doing their job. I reactivated my phone, and obviously there was no word from anyone I got from Dika. The pain was again in my heart. How not ?. As long as we were together, every birthday I always bought her a cake even coming up with a surprise. Well I was selfish, asking for a reply from what I did, but I am his partner, but why can't I feel that from him ?. I closed my phone and resumed my activities.

The afternoon has come, at this time I was resting and saw my phone has a notification, I opened and saw a photo of Dika on display in the lava of my phone.

"Ah a message from the messenger" in my mind. I finally opened it and saw the message that was delivered to me, at first I was confused. Why should from the messenger he said, even though you often VC. But I don't want to get dizzy.

Happy birthday Vita, hopefully what you hope will soon be fulfilled for sure. Yesterday I called you but your number is off. And sorry I just said it now. Can you come here, though ?. I want to celebrate with you. I hope you reply to my chat

I quickly replied to Dika's chat

Thank you but I'm sorry I can't, and also we can still celebrate next year right ?. It's not the end, so there's no need for you to say that. I hope we can celebrate together.

Even though I said that, Dika still forced me to come to see him, but I was determined that I would not come, because basically I would only be disappointed if I came. The time he has is not only to me but to the woman he still meets without my knowledge even with my knowledge. It was stifling but still I put my stupidity with him.

I finally got home from work, and I quickly went back to the boarding house and laid myself down on the solitude I now felt. Well the day I should be happy, it turns out it's still the same in the last years. Alone and no piece of cake and candles on a birthday. I wish I could feel it with Dika. But with him, nothing ever happened.