Be aground

Stuffy

I heard how Dika contacted Mom and even easily asked for money for the wedding left me speechless. I was silent as if nothing had happened and even I was blurting my face with a smile covering my feelings that I could not even convey, whether I was happy, disappointed, or something else. Juju Raku could not say anything.

Until the moment mom put her HP down, Mom looked at me with a sad face.

“Vita, are you okay?” mother said while holding my shoulder

I turned my face back to look at Mom with a smile.

“I can what mom, do I have to be angry?” much

Mother heard me just speechless and couldn't say anything.

“Ahhh, it turns out that what I have done everything is still useless bu” I said in a sad tone.

“Well we can't force their will and you know for yourself why they married in such a hurry.”

“True, they may not not be married immediately with a content that has been willing to live 4 months, hahhaahhaa I can not say anything more” said I

My mother was silent again with my statement

“Huh, honestly even they want to get married, Mom is not invited Vit. Dika still does not consider Mother as his parents. Just this just contacted me just to borrow money and see for myself when I said no money, he answered like that and ended his call.” said Mother

“Yes is already ma'am, we can what all depends on them. We'll see how they live their lives again. Then I might never walk here again, because I don't want to be a third party in their marriage, she's enough to ruin this relationship. But for me not bu” I said with a smile.

Hearing that, Mother could only be silent without saying anything even because she could not say she turned her face away and said

“I like you better than her, but since she is already pregnant with my granddaughter, I can't say anything. I just hope that you also find your happiness soon.” said Mother

I who heard that could not think back, I felt claustrophobic with everything I was living. Which finally makes me want to go home and rest at home. Without waiting for long, I finally said goodbye to my mother and just smiled with everything that happened.

How can everything be like this, where the mistakes I made until I and this relationship were destroyed. I have survived, but why is everything still not what I want. I don't understand what mistake I've made. I didn't understand everything, like turning my palm, everything went quickly without seeing any mistakes.

I spent my time in the village by forgetting what I had experienced, well by returning home in the village hoping that everything I no longer remember until suddenly one day, the sister who lives in my chat room.

*book*

“Kak, I want to tell you something” said sister

“Hm what's up deck?” repay me

“Kakak know, when my sister returned to the village, someone came to the boarding house. I don't know who, but obviously he was on the bike and stopped right in front of the kost.” said the sister

“Ha, then?” curiously

“He knocked on the door, then because there was no answer he peeked out of the window. Luckily I was in the room, so I wasn't caught. But honestly I saw two people coming, but since I dodged, I went straight into the room and didn't know who it was. But from her voice I know it's sister's boyfriend.” said sister

“Oh just leave the deck, do not take a headache. But they don't come anymore, do they?” ask me

“No brother, until now it is safe” said sister

I did not reply anymore and did not understand why it could be like that and what it all meant. I never bothered him back even I deleted his number from my HP but why did he bother me. I did not bring it back and the day changed. The time for rest in the village is over.

I went back to the place where there were many memories of me and him, but I had to go back because the campus work had piled up and there was no way I wouldn't work on it because of such problems. With a heavy heart, I set my foot back. It all felt bleak for me to live and during the journey I always saw HP whether he would contact me again or not or could he know I came back and met me again. Everything became a guess to me, but the more I thought about it, the more claustrophobic and irregular it became.

Arriving at the boarding house, I again stepped foot heavily and hoped that everything would soon be forgotten. It really tormented me in every way. I took a deep breath by closing my eyes.