Be aground

The feeling revealed

Today, I was allowed to go home. I've been in the hospital from morning with Vienna. While Maktuo and Vienna were taking care of the hospital administration, I was tidying up mom's belongings.

Mom's face looked excited as I stuffed her things in the nightstand into a large bag. The sunlight coming in through the window added to the bright face of the mother this morning.

"Mom can't wait to get back home" said the mother with a perfectly curved smile on her lips.

There was a sense of bitterness that I felt, considering that after this, I also had to part with mother. In a matter of hours, I will return to Bandung and leave my mother in Jakarta with Maktuo.

"Mom, can I stay until the end of the week?" Be careful when I say my request.

Mothers are also parents who are disciplined for education. He doesn't want me to want to truant with no clear age.

"No need, there is a maktuo that accompanies Mom," she declined. Like I thought.

"But I'm not satisfied with Mom's story." I'll give you a reason to let mom loosen the rules a little.

"Mommy doesn't want you nelantarin going to college, Run. You have to remember, the longer you graduate, the more expenses you have to incur." Pause, mother breathed a long sigh. "You know, our finances have begun to drag, do not let your scholarship be revoked just because you think too much about Mom. It's a shame the energy and time you've spent over these six semesters. If it's solved how much is that."

I dare not argue that mother has issued such calculations. The mothers are counting really good. But there is a point in what Mom said. Don't let my student be revoked for skipping college. I must maintain my values, so that what you have worked for my education so far is not in vain.

"Keep aside from feelings. You don't have to worry about Mom too much. Sooner or later we have to part ways, what are you afraid of?" Mother's voice is heard again. Soft but slicing my heart. No matter how much I faced my mother's departure, I still couldn't imagine my day without her.

I bite firmly on my lips, so that the clear liquid that has been hanging on the eye peluhan eye does not fall.

"This ...." Mother pulled me into her arms, gently stroking my hair.

I could no longer bear the suffocating feeling of tightness. Defense's collapsed. Sobbing clutching the body of the mother who is not as thick as first. Let go of all the feelings that run in the heart.

"I don't want to lose my mother" I cried.

Though yesterday, I have tried to cultivate the spirit to be able to face this reality with a spacious chest. It doesn't seem that easy. The fear of losing my mother still haunts me.

"Hey! Why are you so pessimistic?" Mother pushed my body slowly, looking at my face that had been soaked by tears. "It is only God who determines the death of a person, man only predicts. Not necessarily the doctor's prediction is correct. Don't you worry about what hasn't happened yet" comfort mom with a soft rub of my cheek.

"I want to be with my mom" I said.

"Yes, later if the condition of the mother is stable, the mother will return to Bandung. The mother must undergo several therapies first to stop the growth of cancer cells. So, you're patient, yeah. Let's just say mom is working."

I just replied to my mother with a nod. Removing the remaining hanging tears.

I should have comforted my mother, raised her heart. But the weakness of my heart makes it upside down. It is precisely I who was comforted by my mother so that there is no need to worry about her illness.

"Smile dong. Don't be so sad. Let the mother also eager to undergo the treatment process," said the mother.

For mother's sake, I forced myself to smile, eliminating all those who were still reluctant to leave.

"Yes, I'm sorry, Mom. I doubt Mother's spirit" I said softly.

Maktuo walked into the room right at the moment I finished putting all of Mom's stuff into the bag.

"Come on! Is there anything still to clear?" ask me when I approach.

"It's all done" I said. "There's no extra charge, Win?" I switched to Vienna.

"Nothing, it has borne all the same insurance," said Vienna. "You just lead the aunt let me carry her bag," Vienna said when she saw me about to bring a large bag containing mother's belongings.

"Weight, Win," I refused.

"Well, time doubts my strength?" Vienna bends its arms as if demonstrating its muscles.

"Ha-ha, alright," my kekeh led mother down from the bed, shoving a pair of rubber-soled sandals to mother's feet.

Just like in the room, the atmosphere outside is also very quiet. Only the sound of vehicles passing through the street in front of the hospital was heard from the front of the mother's room. I slowly led her to the exit after she said goodbye to the nurses who had been helping her.

"Hopefully recover, ma'am. Don't go back to this building again" one nurse said as she took off her mother with a warm smile.

"Thank you, Sus. Please pray," she hugged the nurse.

I led my mother into Vienna's city car, closed the door after believing she was sitting perfectly in the back seat.

"Win, direct anter Runa to the station so that he is not too late until Bandung," pinta mother in Vienna when the new car out of the hospital parking lot.

"Eh ... It'll be late afternoon, ma'am. I still want to be with mom" I refused.

"Vienna's love must go back and forth anther" said the mother.

"Later to go alone, don't have to be escorted." I made an offer.

"Later jammed, you night until Bandung. Already, Win. Just go to the station!" mother's orders.

Again, mother's command is an indisputable edict. I had to accept what my mother decided before I preached.

"We eat first to the place of Indra, new to the station, yes." This time it was Maktuo.

Agreeing with the motto proposal, Vienna directed his car towards Gondangdia. Shortly afterwards, Vienna parked a car in the courtyard of a restaurant that read "Food House Padang" on its windshield.

"Well! Aunty has come home," welcome Indra uda who just entered from the back of the restaurant. I greet my mother with respect. "Sorry Indra can't pick up Auntie" he said as he led her to sit in one of the chairs.

"That's okay, Ndra. You're busy again" said the mother seemed familiar.

Time is forced to move very fast. When she separated from her mother arrived. Mother was not allowed to take me to the station, so as not to be too tired. I was forced to part with my mother at uda Indra's place. I had to accept what was decided by Maktuo. The feeling of hesitation because it has been a lot of trouble for his family makes me unable to argue.

After saying goodbye to mother, trying hard to hold back so that there was no tear, Viennese and I left the residence of uda Indra. Muffled sadly when seeing the figure of the mother when the car moved away leaving her.

We arrived at Gambir station just before Azaan ashar roared. I got a ticket, exactly twenty minutes before the train left. Having finished farewell to Vienna, I hurried up the stairs to the departure point of the train.

Just shaking the body on the carriage seat, the carriage started to move slowly. Leaving the hustle and bustle of the capital, changing with the roar of machines. I was about to close my eyes, when the phone in the small bag I threw on my shoulder shook.

Uh! Definitely Arjun. From morning I had not had time to check my phone because it was too busy taking care of my mother's preparations to go home from the hospital. I quickly pulled that flat object out of my bag. On the screen there are so many signs of missed calls and unread messages.

Like I thought. All those missed calls came from Arjun. While whatsapp messages aside from group contacts, there are messages from Arjun and Beni kak as well.

Since Beni's message was in the top row, I opened it first.

11.00: [What time is it, Run?] message sounds.

I hurried to type a reply.

15.45: [Udah on the train, Brother. Thank you yesterday for repotting] I replied.

There's no reply. Scroll back the check mark on my message, still gray.

Hey, what's wrong with me? Why now do I even expect Brother Beni to reply to my message immediately?

I switched to opening a message from Arjun.

08.00: [Return to Bandung at what time?]

10.00: [Run, really busy? How come my chat isn't dibales?]

13.00: [Run, R u okay? Miss you's. Why so long ago bales?]

Take a deep breath. Is it true that I mean that much to Arjun? It impressed her like a child who lost a mother, sending me messages. Sometimes I feel that Arjun is too dependent on me. For a few days I was gone, he always showered me with words that showed his longing.

Then, why the presence of Beni with a character that feels more mature makes me feel worried. Is it possible that the brief meeting was able to mess up all the feelings that have been intertwined all this time with Arjun?

I hope what Vienna said last night is not true. Hopefully this is just a momentary feeling of worry. Arjun had first come and held my heart. I don't want to destroy his feelings.

I'll type a reply to Arjun,

16.00: [Gue is already on the train, just leaving. Wait for me yes, Jun ... Miss you too]