Be aground

Question

I who lay in an embrace at last felt comfortable and ended with a proper sleep being nearby. I who feel comfortable with him make me always wait for him in every step of my way. I look forward to the happiness I have dreamed of with Dika. And I hope Dika also feels what I feel.

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Until the time continues to run and indicates the day has begun to day. I woke up first to see Dika still asleep. I slowly turned around and watched Dika's sleeping face. I who always admired Dika's face, I who was always near Dika in times of distress, made me feel devastated.

I do not understand why Dika easily open his heart with other women, even betraying me who has survived with him.I am really confused, what mistakes I did, what I did, until Dika easily betrayed me even let go of his comfortable feelings for other women.I was dissolved in a question that I could not answer alone, making me want to ask that.

But every time I asked, Dika would never answer everything.Dika was like a mute person who would not even say a word that made me sure of him. Like a man who can't choose between me or that woman. It really made me want to give up. But every time I survive, every time my disappointment increases.

I was still watching Dika's face, involuntarily touching her face which made Dika wake up

“Ah, what time is it?” dika

“Already at 11 “ I said briefly

“Ah, I have to go home” Dika said

“Well go home, he's waiting for you there” I said

Dika who heard my words suddenly fell silent. I stood up and faced the door. I stood up while looking around the deserted hostel without anyone passing by. She stood up right then and got ready to leave.

“Where are you today ?” dika

“What cares mu” said I who directly saw Dika

“Okay Vit, aren't you tired?” dika

“Tired ?, Then how about you ?” say

“ Alright, then I will ask, we are now what ?” say

“Means ?” dika

“Well, what is our relationship?” say

“Entahlah” Dika said

“Hahaha, come on. When you make me sick” I said

Dika only fell silent when I said that. And it really makes me sick.

I went inside without saying anything to Dika.

“ Vita, I need you” Dika said

“Then, how about it ?” my word

Dika was back in silence

“Alright, good afternoon” said I immediately closed the door

I was silent for a moment, and I heard Dika who was ready to leave. I gave up, well I totally gave up on an attitude that always just couldn't give me an answer. After what happened Dika still can not be a person with his stance.

Well maybe with my departure to the other city for a few months, it will make me feel calm immediately or even in this way, I can forget about the problem that makes me depressed. I'm the one who immediately prepared to arrange the items to be taken to the opposite city.

Makes me forget for a moment the problems I've been having. I busy my time quickly, so that I could leave, even though it was not time to go to the other city. Then what am I here for withstanding pain that has no end.