Be aground

Uncomprehended (2)

With the attitude of Dika who still shows his sad face, making me only able to accompany him even though I was also disappointed in Dika's attitude. But what can I do, right now I can accompany him. It's hard to change things, but everyone can only pretend that everything is going to be okay. I try to accept the situation by forgetting everything, but if things always have to side with him isn't that not fair ?. I also want to like Dika but what I got was different from what I expected. Dika will be angry back at me, even more angry than I want to do. Karen that's why I'm more silent than looking for trouble.

“I'm in need of someone right now” said Dika

“Well I know about it, didn't you come to me when you only had problems ?” say

“Why did you say it?” dika

“Because in fact that's what you're currently doing” I said

“Already, I don't want to make my atmosphere more and more difficult” said Dika who immediately stood up

“You want to go again like you used to?” I said with annoyance

“What do you mean ?” dika

“Already, I don't want to argue with you. Now it's up to you how, if you want to go yes already” I said

Hearing that, Dika sat down near me again.

“Do you have to say that when I come looking for you?” dika

“Alright, I'm sorry if I was wrong” I said

“Forget it, I don't know what to do in my workplace” said Dika

“Emang what's wrong with your work ?” say

“They seem to envy me, to the point that they always blame me” Dika said

“Isn't that normal, you should have learned a lot when you were on the opposite island, even where you live also did the same thing right, then why here you even complain?” ask me wonder

“What makes you uncomfortable there” I said

“Women who are close to me, they blame me for that” said Dika

I who heard that was really shocked, how could Dika be confident by saying that in front of me. How could it be with her thoughts just because of women, she felt burdened

“What use am I for you ?” much

“Why did you say it” said Dika who was astonished

“Why do you say, whether my feelings are useless to you” I said

“You're angry about it?” dika

“Is it that easy to say things that don't think about my feelings ?” say

“Blame them, why feel like me ?” dika

“I don't know what to do and how to deal with you Dik, I always tried to be patient but you didn't understand until now. We have been in a relationship for a long time but I always give up”, I said

“Then now you complain ?” dika

“I'm not complaining, it's just that I don't want you to care about that woman” I said

“I care who, that's my right right ?” dika

Hearing Dika's words, made me just speechless and unable to answer. I tried to hold back the tears that wanted to flow. I pretended to see the night sky unaccompanied by the stars. Just like me, dark and unshining, that was what described me before Dika who did not even care about my presence.