Be aground

Ask about choices

After struggling to resist sleepiness for the sake of listening to the lecturer who taught for two hours, finally the lecture schedule today was completed as well. With a slight haste, I tidied the module papers and my notes into the bag. I wish I could go home this time before Arjun shows up in front of my building.

Actually I am also confused, why should I continue to avoid like this. It's not even weird. I'm sure Arjun won't let me keep avoiding him. Sure enough, a message notification from Arjun was plastered on my phone screen. For a while I let the message go without any intention of opening.

I just stepped out of the classroom, a loud voice called out to me. Uh! Again that guy, Jody. The guy from Class B who I rejected twice, but still hasn't given up.

"Runa, I'm asking for a moment" he asked with a regional accent that was still a bit thick.

I, who was a little difficult to reject the requests of others, just agreed to Jody's request.

"Yes, let's just talk there," I pointed to the park.

The atmosphere of the park was crowded, hoping that Jody would not speak for too long because it was uncomfortable due to the sound of the hustle and bustle of the park.

"What else is it?" ask me directly without bases - stale.

"Oh my goodness, Runa. Sit down first, what is the direct time. I'd like to have a quick chat with you" he said with a smile showing off his hunch.

"Gue hurriedly, if there's nothing really important, I stay yes" I grumbled.

"I'm just asking you to reconsider my request the other day. I'm serious about you, I don't sleep well every night thinking of you constantly."

Haduh, why do I suddenly have goosebumps hearing the words that Jody said.

"Sorry, I can't. Not want it, if I'm the same lo, but my heart for others," said me while rubbing the neck that is still goosebumps.

"It doesn't matter to me, Runa. I want you to think of something else, just to be with me."

Euh, why am I getting so crazy about this guy. God, why did you give him a chance to talk. Confused about leaving him how.

While confused at the thought of an excuse to leave, Arjun came as if saving me from a lump of Jody. Inevitably, I reached out in Arjun's arms, hoping that Jody would assume I had a special relationship with Arjun and give up on her approach.

Towards the parking lot, I caught Arjun glancing at me several times. He must have felt my change. All this time Arjun seemed to have a special radar to catch the signal that was not right with my attitude.

Justright. Once in the parking lot, he asked for time to talk. Again with that glare. I could never refuse.

I don't know where it's going, I don't intend to ask. All of a sudden she was singing a song whose lyrics were like insinuating my relationship with her. Can I have a little hope? It's not just me who feels this feeling. Little hope Arjun had realized the feelings between us were not pure feelings of two friends anymore.

As usual, Arjun chose a place away from the crowd. The atmosphere of the cafe in the Dago Pakar area this afternoon is quite quiet, because indeed this place will be crowded on weekends. Ordinary visitors who come mostly from outside the city such as Jakarta. What is special about this place is the view of the city of Bandung from a height and the air is fresh.

Trying to shake off her feelings, Arjun says he likes me. Then without me knowing, these lips also state what the heart keeps. I don't know where the logic that had been the controller, as if it just decayed dissolved in every word that shot out of my mouth.

It feels like a dream to listen to Arjun's submission, or rather a dream come true. Happy of course, with relief. The burden that a few weeks feels more and more heavy is falling as if lifted just like that.

It's not just one-sided feelings. On the other hand, there was a feeling of confusion as well. Then, after this what? Actually there is or is not that statement, all this time we have felt comfortable with each other.

I'm used to going alone just spending the rest of the day with Arjun, but this afternoon feels different. It was as if there were thousands of flower buds that began to bloom in the heart. Even the view of Dago Pakar that I had been used to seeing, this time looked different. It feels more beautiful of course. Even the usual piercing cold air, felt slightly warmed up.

The figure that has always seemed to fill my days, this afternoon looks so special with the background of twilight with a tinge of pinkness. His firm jaw, shady eyes, sweet curled lips when he smiled, looked like a matching equivalent to God's work.

"To daydream what?" Arjun's heavy voice seemed to pull me back, greeted by the gentle gaze of his shady eyes.

"Uhm? No ... Haha ... It's just that, I didn't expect it to happen like this," I said suddenly misbehaved.

"Sama ..." her demeanor looked just as wrong as mine.

"Then ... Why did you finally send it to me?" I still feel half-believing.

"Then you ...."

"O objection yes if for example we do not call 'elo-gue' again, let there be a little difference," he asked hesitantly.

"Engga, anyway. Is it just not weird?"

"Awha ... Aye yes. We have been comfortable with each other all this time. Why is it just a matter of calling so it makes us like everyone else."

"Well, that's what I mean. Other than status, there should be no other changes. Let it be like this, like our relationship all along," I said, again spending the rest of the lasagna in the ramekin.

"So, why are you thinking about shooting me?" I repeated my question again.

"Yes, ever since you got rich playing cat-kissing with me. I was afraid suddenly you appeared to recognize the guy who managed to win your heart," he explained with a smile continued to decorate his face.

"Gue ngindarin lo because I'm afraid of hearing that I also like the same elo," kekehku slowly.

"Oh elo, Run. Why should I be afraid? It's only natural that feeling grows."

"Gue is afraid it's just a feeling of awe, why I just started to like to elo when the look you've changed, why not try it before."

"Yes ... I also don't understand the theory of heart problems, Run. At least now we know each other's hearts. For me it's enough," he said still with a big smile adorning his lips.

The twilight just passed by, its beauty was defeated by the taste that bloomed in the heart. The high has changed thick night decorated with flickering lights in the city of Bandung.

"Reverse, yuk. Lo kanya already drowsy," asked Arjun when he saw me several times yawn.

I actually wanted to linger here with Arjun, but my eyes didn't seem to hold on to staying open.

"Yuk ... I want to sleep, I haven't been able to sleep in a few days" I said getting up from my seat.

"Think of me, huh?" god with a wicked grin.

"Ke - geer - an deh," kekehku.

I shivered a little when the wind was blowing a little. The short-sleeved shirt I was wearing, made the cold air attack me mercilessly. I held both of my arms in front of my chest, hoping to slightly expel the piercing cold.

Suddenly Arjun covered my back with the jacket he was wearing, the soft scent of cedar greeted my smell.

"So sweet really, Jun," I cheated.

"Newly realized?"

"Not really," I said suddenly misbehaved because of his gentle gaze.

Maybe from now on I should get used to the subtle vibrations brought about by his gaze. Even though I'm dealing with the same person, the taste is different.

"Run, we're here." A slow pat on the shoulder woke me up, blinked my eyes trying to shake off the remaining sleepiness.

Arjun had been standing in front of the open passenger door. Waiting for me to come down.

"It's so sleepy, huh?" he looked at my face that was not fully awakened yet.

"Yes ..." I said as I got out of the car.

"Until tomorrow, yes ..." said Arjun by phone, when I had entered the house.

"Yes, thank you." I hung up the phone.

Suddenly the sleepiness that was heavy just disappeared. It turned out the same, before and after knowing Arjun's feelings, I still couldn't close my eyes. But at least a lump of wedge that was lodged in the heart, has now vanished away. May I greet you tomorrow with a bright smile with my heart.