Be aground

Unconfessed

I saw a short message on his behalf, making me happy but also hurt. How not, everything still crossed my mind, how I still feel hurt. Then how I still miss the self that is present in my life. How Dika and I were together for several years, it was not easy for me to let go and even forget about his presence. But the pain I was in made me fall silent again.

I who only read a short message, finally let it go. Because for me it must have been just a misdeliver that he intentionally did. And to be honest, I removed the number from my contact. Even so I still remember the number that I had been complaining about for several years.

I keep focusing on my niece who needs a friend to sleep with. A few minutes later, my phone rang again. I who have been lazy to see the cellphone was forced to focus back on the cellphone because the noise caused by my phone disturbed my niece who was sleeping.

Back I saw the same phone number with a short message back to make me speechless. And a few minutes later, I finally read Dika's message

*Short Message*

“Only read ya” says Dika

“Why ?” I said briefly

“Finally reply also” said Dika

“Mmm” my word

“When to return here ?” dika

“For what?” my word

“No why, I just miss” said Dika

“What do you mean ?” my word

“Well, I want to see you. Miss you. Don't you miss me ?” dika

“Ha?” I said briefly

“What are you doing, you are not telling me to stay away, then why are you coming again” I said

“Yeah, I did say that, because I intentionally did it” Dika explained

“What do you mean?” my word

“Well, he and I have nothing to do. I sold it to see how you reacted, but I got instead” said Dika

“Are you crazy ?. Do you think the feeling is easy you play so” I said

“Now the point is you go home or not” said Dika

“You have nothing to do with ku” anymore, I said

“I want to see you, why don't you understand ?” dika

“Forget it, malam” said by ending that annoying message

I read Dika's message saying that they have nothing to do to upset me. How they had no relationship when the woman had already posted those who were out for a walk when we were in trouble.

Whether by playing with my heart, Dika felt happy because it had contested two women. I was more and more distressed by her attitude which made me sick of continuing the story about her. But since I still couldn't let go, I was happy when contacted by him.

I was hoping to meet him again, but to be honest the pain still crossed my mind. Because I know they're still in that relationship to this day. And I'm so stupid I keep expecting Dika to come back into my life. I who loved him too much didn't even want to let go of him making me always accept him cheerfully, and even with a smile as if nothing had happened.

A truly deep affection made me a foolish woman with a sudden presence. I hope everything about him and all the memories we do happen again soon. My stupidity has made me fall back into a pain that has no limits. And everything has left me tormented at the stupidity I have done.