Be aground

Misconceptions

I don't understand what really happened between me and Dika. I've done my best never even complaining about Dika's attitude towards me. But today Dika makes me very disappointed. Status read by everyone, then after reading friends Dika will not it be discussed them. Then what will Dika answer, will he blame my attitude on him, or is there anything else ?. I always ask myself what I did wrong until Dika had to make that status when he left before me. Even if I was wrong, Dika should have told me, instead of showing off to his friends that I was wrong. I was really disappointed with Dika's attitude like a child. Until I finally did not care anymore and did not preach it from that day.

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A few weeks have passed, even I don't care about Dika. Which I used to take my time for him, even always bothering him to work. But now I don't care, even I'm going to learn to let go of it in my life. Well at first I could even try to find a replacement for Dika at that time by getting closer to a male friend who is as close as I am. But it's back to how it used to be, I can't. When I always wanted to do that, I always thought about how Dika felt seeing me like that, I did not want him disappointed in my attitude that does not keep his feelings close to men. I always thought of doing everything just for her. Even though I've been missing for a few days and haven't even told Dika, I'm still focused on him.

But in fact it is different from Dika who is mediocre, even with good Dika always makes a status that is close to other women. They even left at night without telling me anything. I tried to hold back, yes to bear the pain. Pain, of course, can even be said that the pain the longer it becomes more and more impregnated with an attitude that makes me sicker. The attitude of Dika who wants to understand but does not want to understand others, makes me not care about the circumstances. I was like a place where Dika felt sad, but when happy Dika would move away from me. I know that, but I always hold on to sickening one-sided love.

The long night and the mood that was still carried away by disappointment, made me just spend time reading comics while listening to songs. Well the quiet night and the quiet atmosphere, made me forget everything, until suddenly my phone got a message. I'm lazy to open the message just let it go, a few minutes later my phone again reads indicating the message came, but still I don't care. I still love my imaginary world. I who was washed away finally felt annoyed because my phone ringtone sounded. Instantly I saw Dika's name back on my phone screen, then I lazily answered the phone.

"Call”

“Keluar” said Dika and directly ended the phone.

I, who had not said anything, could only get out of bed. Then opened the boarding door, looking at Dika who was already in front. I lazily opened the gate and immediately sat down without saying anything.

“How are you doing?” dika

“Why did you say it?” dika

“Why ? Am I wrong ?” say

Dika just fell silent without saying anything

“Do you have any problems?” say

“I'm not in the mood to argue with you, I just came here to find peace” said DIKA

“Aaaahhh.. serenity” said while shoveling.

“What you can't be my current stander” said Dika with a limp face

Then how can I ignore Dika who was acting that way in front of me. That pity came right then and there and even I forgot my frustration just to be able to keep her company. But all was never understood, Dika only knew where he felt comfortable then he would come, regardless of whether the person he came to receive it well or because of force.