Be aground

Reenacted

Everything is still the same as it used to come when it needs to go when things are going well, and I who saw everything can only be silent and continue everything without thinking about how the end of everything. Although honestly I was always tired of this painful situation, but I can what, all like tied to me who can't stay away from him. Well, I who was easily always influenced by his attitude even always accepted his presence.

Well like forgetting the way given to me even the pain that still continues to imprint in my life. I who always accept him with a smile even give him comfort turned out not to change the situation even did not change Dika's attitude to me.

All are still the same until now, only giving wounds that never heal. Even the wounds that used to be still imprinted in the heart.

“Ah I am tired, I also want to feel how someone gives more attention to me, I want to be appreciated like a woman who is important to her, she said, or I want to feel what it's like to have someone who thinks I even value myself by not approaching other women or even caring about other women except me. Am I selfishly expecting that?”

I always wondered if I was expecting something from him that was getting harder and harder for me to have. I always get blamed in this relationship. I always try my best, even if I never show my attitude or selfishness, I always try to give up with the attitude Dika gave me, which in the end all only hurts me. Dika never cared about me.

*****

After going through everything, I finally returned to where I was. The internship problem was completed next I will finish my studies well. Well that's what I'm thinking right now, I don't want to deal with him anymore. I who came home relaxed finally arrived at the boarding house and rested. I didn't tell him because to me, it doesn't matter anymore. I will try my best to stay away from him. That's what I can think of and that way I can try to open my heart to others.

But Dika finally called me back, and it was always me who was easily affected by him responding again. I even told him I was at the boarding house.

“Why?” say

“Where?” dika

“I again rest” answer me briefly

“Iya, but where?” dika

“At kost, why?” my word

“I just miss hearing your voice Dika said

“Far and also later tonight I still work” said Dika

“Near really, usually also you are always fast come” I said with santanyaa

“Means?” dika

I quickly realized that I should have avoided it, but I told him instead. What happened to me, I was really confused. And in the end I didn't reply back, then went to the stall to buy snacks. During the journey, I slowed my pace and looked around. Until finally my eyes were fixed on the figure of a man standing right at the boarding gate. Well the figure that is getting harder for me to reach, even in his heart my name does not mean anymore.

I kept looking at him and set foot to meet him. It really makes me want to cry. About everything we've been through, why it's so easily destroyed. Even I don't understand, what I did wrong until he didn't love me anymore, I always look for the reasons that really happened, or in other words if he didn't love me anymore, why give me a false hope that always adds to the deepening wounds.

I, who was right next to him, could only accept the self that had been waiting for me

“What's up?” say

The one who heard my voice, immediately looked at me and smiled happily. Well that smile I haven't seen in a long time when we were always fighting.

“You're back, why don't you tell me” said Dika who followed me from behind

“I just want to rest without any interruptions” I said as I opened the boarding door

“I miss” said Dika who directly hugged me from behind

“Ah comfortable hug that turned out also already felt by others” (my words in heart)