Be aground

Ecclesiastical times

Back injured with the attitude of Dika who immediately ran away from the problem. Without any clarity as to what this relationship was, it all became bleak for me to live with. Crying alone is painful, especially if it's about my story that's getting harder and harder for me to control. The longer the more selfish, the longer I succumbed to his selfishness. It all really makes me feel like a fool who endures increasingly nauseating feelings. There is nothing special about this relationship, but tears and disappointments that I always get.

The one who left let me cry alone on the outside, making me truly like a woman who had been dumped without any certainty. I could only endure the crying and went into the hostel at that time, then cried until these eyes were tired and fell asleep on their own.

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The morning has arrived, I who feel heavy to wake up can only resign because my lecture should not be disturbed just because of this problem. I, who felt my eyes so heavy, quickly reflected and saw my puffy eyes.

"Aaahhh how is this ?. I have to go to college but my eyes are so swollen" I said, standing in front of the mirror

I also busy myself by looking for activities from morning to afternoon. And the lecture has arrived, at that time I focus on listening to my lecturer at that time. Suddenly my teacher looked at me and said

"Whatever problems you face, you can cry as hard as it is. The tears just can't solve the problem. The only thing you can do is to talk carefully without anger. Then you will get the solution" said the lecturer while looking at me

When I found out that the advice was directed at me, I just smiled at the lecturer. Well the lecturer was right, I will solve that problem today as well. Because of our selfishness this relationship is hard to endure. Our increasingly irregular communication makes Dika and I can only greet each other at night. Therefore, I try to change my attitude for him. I have given my best during this relationship, and then I will be better off staying with Dika for longer. I threw away my selfishness for her, I forgot all the pain I was given. And hope Dika will see my sincerity to continue with her. And during that lecture, I thought about how I could get him to listen to me for today. During the lecture, I focused on him, until the lecture was over I continued to find ways to contact him. Arriving at the boarding house, I also sent a long message to him and hoped that Dika would read it and reply to me.