Be aground

Mother's Messages

I spent my time forgetting everything, even I who couldn't help but end up crying again. I cry when I can no longer. I cried with tears that would not even stop at that time.ill sick and disappointed even imprinted so deeply.

I who try to let go in the end can only say mengikhlaskan but in fact I can not. I was hurt more than the happiness Dika gave me. But I can't really reveal everything. I endured everything that would ultimately only give me more injuries than anything else.

I was hurt but curious about their behavior, making me curious about their social media. And I saw them so happy to show off their happiness, and I felt devastated again.

“Ah, they seem to have no guilt about what they did to me. Well they played well and this is the reality, I am the one who is hurt and like a fool, whereas they are happy with their choice” I said inwardly.

Finally I gave up on holding on to Dika, a promise I had not kept in the end I reneged on right then and there. I spent my time playing with my niece on the other side of the island. Well during the college break, I was deliberately in brother's place, to calm down my wounded self. I regretted defending him in front of my family, I was ashamed of myself for still retaining a man who turned out that what was said about him was true.

He was a dickhead, who even easily played around with women. I tried to accept everything, even I was blamed for this broken relationship. To be honest, I didn't even know what I was doing wrong until Dika told everyone and including the woman that I was wrong so Dika turned away from me. I smile at what I hear and see. Because in fact I do not want to put emotions that have no meaning for them.

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After two months at my brother's place, I will return to where I should be. Well next week, I'll be back to continue my studies, because in fact the campus holiday has been completed. I actually don't want to go back, because for me that place is a place where sickening memories will keep coming at me.

But my studies were important to me, because in another year, I could finish my studies with the title I had always dreamed of. I was determined to always put my title first compared to my disappointment. I closed my ears and eyes, as the discussion about Dika approached my day.

At first I thought so, until suddenly Dika's parents sent me a message

“Short Order”

“Nak, where are you?” mother said

“At sister ma'am's place, why ya bu?” my word

“I've heard of your problems, I'm sorry to represent Dika for what was done to you ya” said Mother

“well, I I was wrong, even easily go to the place of the woman” said Mother continued her message

I quickly switched our conversation

“Oh yes, Mom healthy there ?” ask me

“Yeah, mom is fine” says Mom

“Good” my word with brief

“Oh yes, when to come back here. If you want to come back to the house, let us tell more stories” said Mother

“Ah may be in front of me already back ma'am, just not to the village. Because next week's lecture has started” I said

“Oh yes it's okay then. The important thing is healthy always there ya” said Mother

“Iya bu” I said ending our discussion

At first I didn't want to tell you about me coming back, because later Dika will know from Mom. But because you already want how else, it all just depends on time.

Tomorrow night as usual, I will put my nieces to sleep, until suddenly my phone reads indicating a message is coming. At first I did not respond, until the sound always came. I quickly picked up the phone, because I didn't want my niece to wake up because of the tone of the message. And I quickly saw who was texting me, and how surprised I was, the figure I wanted to forget was back

...“Dika” said quietly with trembling hands. ...