Be aground

Delayed giving

The atmosphere of the secretariat room of the literacy club was so quiet this afternoon. There is only me and Riko who are still loyal every day hanging out here. This place makes me feel more calm, away from the crowd. On a whim, it occurred to me to ask Riko her opinion about my feelings towards Runa.

"Ko, have you ever liked your own best friend?"

"Why? You're starting to like Runa?" shoot that teary-eyed guy with a prickly grin.

"Jawab never anything he did naja anyway, even nanya back."

"Yee ... He's sewot," Riko's ripple is becoming.

Ah, it turns out that it was foolish to ask this to Riko. I was hoping to slightly reduce this increasingly uncomfortable feeling. The more days I wanted a relationship that was more than just a friend status with Runa. Especially since the last few weeks Runa seems to be starting to move away, making me feel more lost.

There is always a reason for the girl to avoid, but usually also as busy as she is, still taking the time to just chat about the alternation of lecture hours. Even now he rarely tells me.

"The dark is the face." Riko's voice sounded serious this time.

"You know, if you like. Things are accepted what has been no business lately. Men's time cemen." Back he chuckles.

"Gue was afraid that good relationships had become stiff."

"This is just ...." Riko took a sitting position opposite me, putting on a serious face.

"If you don't express feelings to him, sooner or later he will find someone else who will make him comfortable, you will stay too, right? At least you know how he feels. Let's not torture myself like this."

Trying to percolate the sentence delivered by Riko, weighing back whether it was better to say frankly to Runa what felt so far. If he stays away, I'll learn to live without the sun girl. Because the sun will not always shine, there are times when I must be ready to look at the darkness before he rises again tomorrow.

To be honest there is a speck of gamang taste that began to arise, if later Runa did not welcome my feelings. I have become accustomed to his presence, his warmth, and his cheerfulness. I can already imagine how bleak the day will be when he is no longer by my side.

"Udah, don't think too late. Brush up, bro!" Riko got up from her seat, patted vigorously on my shoulder, leaving me alone.

I just nodded in agreement. The quiet secretariat room helps a little to clear your mind. The darkness of all the events that Runa and I have been going through during my longing makes me more determined to just express this feeling to her.

Scroll clock on the wrist, five minutes more courses with the killer lecturer, half hastily I left the secretariat room to the classroom, dampening the increasingly disturbing feelings of uncertainty.

***

[Run, go home on schedule, right?] ask through a short message.

Even his college schedule was broken. Because my world just revolves around him.

Like the last two weeks, Runa didn't reply to my message right away. Tired of waiting for his reply, I took my foot toward his master building. Between the building majorsku and Runa separated by a small park commonly used by students to do various activities.

This afternoon quite a lot of students gathered there, some were in groups and some were just sitting in pairs. My eyes were pounded on the two figures of the couple sitting not far from the main building, blocked by the lush geranium that was blooming. Looks beautiful, if the girl is not with another guy.

Runa, the girl seemed to be seriously listening to her interlocutor, a tall-haired guy. I didn't really recognize the face of the interlocutor, because he was standing on my back.

There was a feeling I was unable to describe, taking a sip as if racing to jump out of the chest cavity. Suddenly, this foot just stepped towards them. Ignoring the usual feeling of arrogance lodged in the heart. I am not a man of manners, who would disturb others who are speaking, but the urge in my heart makes me unable to resist this step of not walking close to the two.

"Hi, Run. There's no more schedule, right? Go home yuk," asked me without regard to his interlocutor who turned to stare, visibly riled up with my presence.

"Stay, Bro. There's still something I want to talk to him about," the man said with an annoyed face.

"I told you, there's nothing more to talk about" said Runa, leaving her interlocutor and slipping her hand in my arm.

Even though Runa's eyes seemed relaxed, but I who had known this girl, felt something different from the way she held my hand. There was a feeling of awkwardness at his touch.

"That's Jody, isn't it?" ask me to get rid of a little awkwardness that makes a pause.

"Yes," he said briefly, not as usual who immediately chattered cheerfully.

Silence, my brain seems out of words. Let the silence pause to the parking lot.

"Go home first, Juni." Runa stopped her steps a few meters from where I parked the car.

"Run, I have something to say. So, please this time do not avoid again," I asked more to beg.

"Gue did not dodge, just gave space to Elo, Jun. I don't want to be bullied by girls who have a crush on you."

"Lo why the hell Run? Lately I've been feeling foreign to you."

"Just how you feel, I'm still as usual." He forced his smile.

"We talk while walking, yes. After this, I won't bother you anymore." I put on a bright look, usually always succeed.

"Yes," he said.

Nah! Don't you? Succeeds.

Runa went back to silence while in the car. Normally he would turn on the radio once it came in, but not this time. He just looked down, played his game. I kept him busy with his thoughts.

I'm pointing the car towards Dago upstairs. Malfunction at the Dago crossroads made the trip a little hampered. The silence created felt stifling. I turned on the radio for just a quiet repellent, right on the ref section of the band's group song Drive—I'm Him.

🎶

But you never realized that

He's been waiting for you

To express love

🎶🎶

"Surely he is me ... More than just your close friend ...Stop looking for ... Because you didn't find it." I followed the lyrics with great interest, glancing at the girl sitting beside me, just as she was also looking at me with her clear eyes. The vibrations that used to still feel smooth every time those eyes looked at me, this time felt so strong as if they were jumping around rhythmically.

After breaking through the traffic jam at the Dago junction, I stopped the car in the yard of one of the cafes famous for its stunning views of the city of Bandung. Runa and I chose a place that was side by side with a cliff with a view of the city of Bandung that looks so clear from its seat.

"For what celebration, Jun? Tumben bring me here?" Finally, after remaining silent, Runa opened her voice.

"Ehm ... There's no one. Just want to talk ..." I said while scratching the head that does not itch.

Suddenly the determination that had been round to express feelings, melted away just like that. I breathed in the soothing scent of the mountains in order to gain a little power from nature.

"Elo why the hell, Jun?" Runa gave me a glance, then turned her gaze to the drink glass that had just come.

I took a deep breath, exhaled slowly. If not now, do not know when else can kidnap this girl to be invited to talk.

"Run ..." I cleared my throat for a little relief that felt choked.

"Uhm?" this time he looked at me with a look of wonder.

"I don't know after this you will still behave the same to me or not, only I want to tell elo so relieved. Because ever since you started avoiding me, my feelings have gotten messy ...."

"Lo, what the hell is Jun talking about?" cut it.

"Gue likes the same elo ..." at last the sentence just jumped from my lips.

Runa. His face implied disbelief at what I had just said. Just like me, I am also unable to believe what has been said so easily.

"Sorry, I'm not asking you to accept Run. I just want to please just to be relieved," I said dispelling nervousness that suddenly attacked.

"Since when?" ask slowly, but clearly.

I looked at him fixedly. Trying to read the meaning of his gaze. This time he did not even turn his eyes.

"From the beginning of my life" I answered honestly.

"G ... Ha ha ha ..." Suddenly his laughter broke. Both of his palms were cupped covering his face.

"Something funny about my words?" I wonder if he's worried if he thinks it's a joke.

"Sorry ... I don't care about you, Jun. I'm just laughing at myself."

More and more do not understand why Runa laughs off like that.

"Gue also likes lo, Jun," he said in between laughter.

"Hey, don't worry about me. I'm serious, "my murmur was a little upset, I don't know which part of my confession he found funny.

"Gue's serious too" he said with a dikulum smile.

"Loe knows not, why lately I always avoid? Because I don't want to be like a fool, like my own friends," he said.

"Loe seriously?" I tried to confirm what my ears caught from the girl's lips.

"Yes, I'm serious. If you ask since when, I also do not understand. I'm sorry if I'm late," he said with a serious mimic while tucking a strand of wind-drawn hair, behind his ear

"Gue's not a dream, is he?" back to trying to ascertain the answer.

"I don't know, either. I also felt a dream," her arms showed off a line of dimples that trace deep on her cheeks, a little misbehavior.

Yeah, it feels like a dream. I didn't think it would be this easy to express feelings to my beloved girl. You know that from yesterday there is no need to worry.

"Remain smiling to himself?" runa's soft voice seemed to caress my eardrum.

"Ahaha... His name is also Happy, Run," I'm a little nervous.

"Continue, if you've realized you used to like me, why didn't you shoot first?" the look was still with a knotty smile that adorned his lips.

Aw, Run ... That smile made me seem to bewitch your charm. The light of the sun that was later dim, looks bright again. Whether because my heart is happy, or also because of the happiness that emanates, makes its charm even more dazzling.

"Gue's afraid of losing, lo. Afraid you're uncomfortable, keep leaving me," I replied honestly.

"Haha ... I feel the same way. Trying to maintain a friendly relationship, just because I don't want this relationship to be broken because of my feelings." He chuckles back.

It felt light at once full, that's how I felt. The cool sweep of the Dago Pakar wind and the orange tinge at the end of the afternoon sky, feels like a perfect blend for a happy heart. Really, I can't compare with words to describe the blissful feeling of happiness.