Be aground

Happiest

I hope everything I feel will go away on its own. And I wish I had more happiness than I felt. Well that hope always came to me, but it also made me feel broken and uncertain. They always forced me to pretend that everything was okay. But everything makes me want to forget it.

Plus, when I want to forget everything, even open a new page, Dika always comes with a face or attitude of pity. Which always makes me melt even though sometimes I feel sick. I who saw her tormented with that felt made me feel sympathy, but when I returned to what I was, then Dika would return with her attitude that really made me wrong in giving her a chance.

*****

Today is the day I started my internship and hopefully me and my friends will be at home for sure. Because for four months it might feel heavy if you are always focused on one thing. But if it has been brought in casually, maybe four months is a short time.

I breathe so fresh air with so many trees growing around where I live. I walk my feet with a smile and a better feeling. I say hello to anyone I see today. Well like nothing happened and I enjoyed the day.

Arriving at the internship, I ended up making observations for a week before I did my job. Because there's no way I'm going to do something that I haven't even done. Therefore I observe every work that can help me later in doing the task given.

Well my time spent observing and not even using my phone during work is fun. Because it doesn't interfere with my concentration, of course. My friends and I did the same thing, observing each other's work. Then rest where it should be, then return to doing activities until the afternoon.

Tired for sure, but enjoying the process is my way to get better and even easier for me to forget the problems I face today. Until the hour came home, I sat for a while to rest and at that time I saw my phone.

Well.. The name again appears in my phone layer, messages even calls have completed my screen. I just read the chat without replying to it, because it's also useless for me to reply. He chatted to me this morning when I started my activities. Then it's afternoon. Of course he won't care isn't he ?.

I who had felt enough to rest finally took care of my things to go home. I who came out feeling Tired makes me lazy to look around, until the tone of my phone rings.

I am currently holding a mobile phone directly see, because I think it is family or friends, but in fact different. Dika called me again, and it made me even more lazy to do anything. I don't want to answer that call, because it makes me uncomfortable

“Phone”

“Why?” say

“You're still mad?” dika

“Do you think?” I said briefly

“I've moved” said Dika

“Well because of you, I don't want you to be angry anymore, so I moved” said Dika

I heard it, finally just fell out myself. Didn't expect Dika to move because of my request.

“Halo, why silence?” dika

“Ah, no.. I'm on the road again because I want to go back to kost” I said

“You just returned home apprenticeship huh?” dika

“Yes, that's why I didn't reply to your chat. From the morning we were busy” I said

“Well, I just told you that Kok” said Dika

“Aaan anyway?” my word

“Hahahaa as long as you are happy” said Dika

“It's tuh” my word

“ Alright, later if I'm back from work, I video call you yes, let me see how” kost said Dika

“Iya.iya” I said

“OK deh, already yes” said Dika ended the call

Obviously I'm happy, I thought I'd be upset again but in fact Dika makes you happy. I hope everything will be okay from now on.