Be aground

Wearied

Everything was going on all the time and everything was getting harder and harder for us to meet. I don't want to force it. That's why I try to spend time with my friends.

****

After a few months, Dika finally came home at night, would always stop by my place. Well in other words, I'll know what time Dika will come to the boarding house. Dika will arrive in front of the boarding at 12 o'clock, where all are already in sleep. While we will meet outside and discuss about the work that has been experienced during that day. But sometimes we don't talk either, just look at each other and end up tired and have to go home. It is our habit that we are currently doing. Though I actually wanted him to tell me everything about his job. But Dika more often tells about the women who work with him and how the attitude of Dika and women towards them. That's why I'm sometimes lazy to meet Dika. But Dika always took his time with me. Of course I don't want to waste that time with him.

Until one day, Dika was on holiday and at that time I was doing a lecture. At that time, Dika sent me a message.

“Short Order”

“Where ?” dika

“I'm in college right now, what's up?” say

“I'm on holiday” said Dika

“Oh yes later pick me up ya” I said

“No need, I want a break. You go home aja” said Dika

“Trus why where am I?” I said pissed

“Oh that, I want to fix my shoes, but I do not know where, can you find not ?” dika

“So you just contact me just for that doang” I said

“Yes delivery now” I said briefly

Neither did I reply to my message again, nor did I. How not, my annoyance comes with the attitude of Dika who only always thinks about her wishes compared to mine. Sometimes it feels like I want to let go, but it's always not as easy as I think. A few minutes later Dika called me.

“Phone”

“Down” says Dika with brief

I went down at that moment and saw Dika who was still in his motorbike. I was still upset with him just asking for his shoes. Likewise with Dika who had given her shoes at that time, immediately left without saying anything. Looking at her annoying attitude, it made me want to throw shoes at her. But it's impossible to do that on campus, because it would be embarrassing for me. I just took a deep breath and then finally could only hold back all of his attitude.

After coming home from college, I finally went to the store to fix Dika's shoes. And obviously, the cost I bear alone. That annoyance is getting longer and longer into my days. But forget it, it's Dika's nature and I'm used to it. After Dika's shoes were finished, I finally went home and rested, to fall asleep until night. Suddenly my phone rang and it was clear that Dika's name was on my screen. I also picked up Dika's phone

“Phone”

“What's up?” say

“I have not yet, tomorrow I have to work” said Dika

“Udah, come aj” I said

A few minutes later, Dika came and I immediately gave Dika his shoes. After that we just quietly, which in the end Dika left without saying anything. Obviously I was confused by Dika's attitude towards me, but I didn't ask that. Until I saw her status saying it wasn't up to expectations. Obviously I don't know what Dika means to say that, but obviously I'm really disappointed in Dika's attitude which still acts like a child. Even I don't understand how much I didn't live up to his expectations after what I've done to him all this time. But I didn't ask that, I'd rather be quiet than start a fight that ends up winning one-sidedly. And it's exhausting for me.