Be aground
Reiterated
"Arjun how are you?" Mother's question made my face look.
Unfortunately, my mother immediately noticed the color change that my face displayed.
"Ehm, it seems like there's something you're missing," teased the mother.
To be honest, I kind of feel sorry about my relationship with Arjun to mom. Because in my mind, mother still has not allowed for a serious relationship. Moreover, Arjun is also my close friend, confused about where to start to tell it.
"Kok quiet?" ask mom to investigate.
"He-he, no ... Uhm ... Arjun news is good, he also sends greetings to Mom," I said, still wondering whether to tell mom about my status with Arjun or not.
"Come dong, story." Mother's voice persuaded me.
"Arjun says he likes me, Mom." The words seemed to come out of my mouth. I tried to see Mom's reaction by giving a piece of my story to Arjun.
"Then?" ask mom as if waiting for my sentence to continue.
"What do you think?" ask for an opinion.
"Kok even nanya? How do you think Arjun is?" Mother asked back.
"Can I take it?" I was a little scared.
Afraid that mom will give a long nag as usual, "you think that school first, romance business will also follow if your school is real."
"Why is it possible or not, how do you feel about Arjun?" Mother's soft voice felt reassuring.
"I'm starting to like Arjun, anyway. Only if Mom doesn't give me permission I'm with Arjun, yeah ...."
"Originally you don't cross the line, take care of yourself, you have to remember that you can't keep an eye on you all the time. So don't break mom's trust" cut mom.
"So ... Can I be with Arjun, Mom?"
Mom took a deep breath, pulled me closer, looked at me for a long time.
"Your age is twenty-one years old, so it's only natural that you've thought about a more serious relationship. It's just that I'm still afraid, don't let you get swept away and do what's forbidden" she said.
"Yes, Mom .. I always remember Mom's message," I said a little relieved.
For some reason, all this time I could always tell anything with mom, except for feelings. After all, I was also not too interested in establishing relationships other than friendship with the opposite sex. My mind has been indoctrinated to focus on education. Moreover, since the father is no longer there, the determination to complete education on time so as not to bother the mother, the greater.
"Thank you ... uhuk .. kasih .. uhuk," said the mother, gasping.
"I'm calling the doctor, huh, Mom?" I was worried to see my mother's breath begin to wail.
"No, just a dry throat" the mother seemed to force herself to smile.
My hand reached out to the glass located on the small table beside the bed and thrust it at my mother.
"Thank you, baby," said the mother, then drank the water slowly I offered.
The worries that had evaporated, crept back up. Seeing my mother's changed condition suddenly made my fear come back.
"Mother rest," I told my mother.
"And it's not quite the story yet." My voice is starting to sound normal again.
"Mom's eyes are tired." I took the glass in my mother's hand and put it back where it was.
"Yes, anyway. The effect of the drug given by the doctor makes the mother so sleepy continues," said the mother confirmed my words.
"Yes, I'm sleeping." I pulled a blanket over my mother's body. Hugged my mother for a glance, then went to the empty bed across from my bed.
Didn't wait a long time, I was asleep. The atmosphere of the room felt so quiet. Only the subtle snoring of the mother, the occasional sound of the trolley being pushed and the beating of the nurse's shoes were heard in the front hallway of the room.
My mind was turned to Arjun. What the hell is that guy doing now. Usually when I'm with my mom, I don't think much about it. Since this time I couldn't spend too much time talking to my mom, I thought.
I also remember that I hadn't checked my phone in the morning. While waiting for the phone to turn on, I looked back at the face of the mother who was asleep. His cheeks that were once full and reddish looked thin and pale. His skin began to look slack. My face looks older than her age.
If only I could repeat the time back, I would listen to my mother's nagging all day rather than having to see her lying helpless as she is today.
Arjun's current presence felt like a soothing oasis in the midst of my mind's fear, leading the heart that from yesterday was like wandering somewhere, back to its place. Immediately I opened the message from the white guy with a little sensation of strange taste that felt in the heart.
06.00: [Bandung is overcast, the sun is not rising this morning. Maybe in Jakarta it feels hotter, because there is a new sun visiting it.].
I shut my mouth so as not to read Arjun's message. I don't know where the guy got the idea of writing a message that felt tacky, but on the other hand it made me feel valuable to him.
11.45: [Wkwkwk, why Jun again? What persambet? 🤣🤣] My reply still can't help but laugh. For a moment I was able to dismiss the sadness that from yesterday mastered.
Arjun immediately opened the message and wrote a reply for me.
What is the boy doing? Very quickly he returned a message from me.
11.45: [Tumben online? Usually off] reply.
11.46 : [Out again not healthy, now lg sleep]
11.46: [What pain?]
11.47: [common, lg flu] I reply. I haven't been able to tell Arjun about his current condition. Maybe later when we meet.
11.50: [May be healed soon, nyokap lo ya. Say hello from prospective ghosts, gitu😁😁]
The speed of my heart beating suddenly increased. It is an amateur basis in matters of the heart, just by the sentence I suddenly groggy. But the guy is not here.
Confused what to reply. I also don't want to be too happy to get that kind of appeal.
Uh, that includes seduction or isn't it?
11.55: [Gue has told us about our relationship] finally only that sentence that I can send after many times typing and deleting it again.
11.55: [Continue, what did you say? Seneng dong yes get a handsome ghost candidate?]
Oh God, this is a late child what?
11.55: [Sorry Run, that was just Riko. This child emang basic not-manner, not understand privacy, play grab hp aja]
Ha-ha is right? Not a typical Arjun who likes to praise himself. Although his confidence has increased, but he will not be as PD praises himself.
56: [Udah feeling me, not maybe you are rich enough scribble]
11.56: [haha, you know me well, yes.]
11.57: [Lo why else would Riko?]
Arjun usually spends the end of the week making covers of songs on YouTube. His voice deserves a thumbs up. Since the phobia of the crowd is still not fully healed, be the talent to sing it is only displayed off the water.
Already several times the scouts offer him to be promoted, not even rarely invite him to record. But always rejected by him. Because he thought, if he had entered the world of entertainment, inevitably had to meet with many people, he was not ready.
11.58: [again confiding in him, hahaha]
11.58: [Eeh? Curious what? How tumben ampe to the house of all?]
11.58: [consultation of the storm. Wkwkw]
11.59: [when did you understand this?]
11.59: [therefore he was, this son even consulnya same person who has no experience]
12.00: [haha, yes. Continued. I want to pray, Azan. Do not preoccupy Dengerin Riko vent, pray first gih]
12.01 :[OK. Ntar klo again free, yes. I want to call. Kangen]
Is this really how people fall in love, it feels like there are thousands of butterflies flapping their wings inside my stomach, running all over my body.
12.01: [OK, I'm also missing] Just a few words I can type along with the face that also feels hot.
Behind the grief, God sent Arjun to comfort me. Makes me able to slightly dismiss all the worries that increasingly feel strangling me. Or vice-versa? Behind my happiness, God gave me trials, so that I would not be too late in joy. So that I always remember and insist on asking for all His Ridho.
I don't know what God has planned for my life. Obviously, I will try to live it with all the grace. I am only a human being who has to submit and live out all the scenarios He has prepared for me. Hopefully at the end of there, no more thorns to block my steps.
