Be aground

Mistakes

I am like a person who is confused by the circumstances I am facing right now. I still can't believe what I'm hearing. I who wanted to know that more deeply, finally thought clearly.

“What time is a sis ?” say

“Jam nine or ten, it's up to adek” brother said

“Alright, I'll come” I said

At that time Dika came out of nowhere and I did not ask him that. Because everything I'm facing right now still surprises me.

“Come, let me take you home” said Dika from outside

I was ready and alone with the brothers who were there and approached Dika at that time. I just kept quiet without saying anything. And as I passed from where she was, I saw her watching us. I wanted to get angry, I wanted to see the woman, but I had proof of what to the point that I met her. I held back my anger and hoped that nothing would happen tonight.

I hope that what that big brother said was just a misunderstanding.

I leaned my head against Dika's body and hoped that everything was just talk. During the trip I was silent and did not know what to do and how, until Dika said something to me

“Vit, I want to say something” Dika said

Hearing that, I wanted to close my ears because I was afraid of what I heard from people, I heard from his mouth. I kept quiet at that moment and looked around.

“You heard no ?” dika

“I made a mistake, but that mistake will definitely never be able to forgive” said Dika

“What kind of mistake until you don't I forgive ?” ask me directly

“True mistakes you really won't be able to forgive” said Dika

I did not continue the conversation anymore, I fell silent while looking around the place we passed every time I came home from college.

“Will you forgive me if I make a mistake?” dika

“I saw first what mistake you did” I said

“Honestly maybe you won't be able to forgive me” Dika said

Hearing those words, made me unable to do anything and unable to even reply to Dika's words. I just fell silent and hoped that what Dika did with what that big brother said was a different thing. I always said in my heart that what I wanted to see tonight was a misunderstanding. I convinced myself without thinking about anything else.

Arriving at the boarding house, Dika immediately returned and quickly also I prepared to the place of my friend who was adjacent to the Dika boarding house at that time. I asked my friend to stay over there, thankfully my friend allowed me right then and there.

After all was done, I left alone without telling Dika. I'm like playing the detective role just to find the truth. Even I had help from another friend to accompany me to Dika's place. To be honest, they didn't know what I meant but I really needed a friend right then and there.

Arriving at my friend's place, we also spent time playing, telling stories while waiting for the right time. After ten o'clock in the evening, I pretended to contact Dika by making a video call. Because I was curious about Dika's situation at that time. Dika did not lift it at first, I do not know the reason but certainly my annoyance was there right then and there.