Be aground

Theatricals

Such a painful confession made me realize that everything I dreamed of was not up to my expectations. The confession that I was always proud of, that I was against both parents because of our relationship, turned out to be only limited to me. It hurts so hard for me to express, what about the heart of Dika doing this for a relationship that even runs a long time. I cried alone in the darkness of the night while calming down before going into the hostel. I don't know how Dika could easily say it plus, I who had been seen crying just left me without saying anything, even comforting me not. After I felt calm, I finally went into the boarding house and continued my sleep which made me tired in stepping.

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A bright morning came to me, even though I still felt no spirit to do anything. With the mood still wounded, forced to go to college. The atmosphere was so dark that I saw the last time Dika went online. That's when I realized, it turns out Dika does not care about me. Even to this day Dika did not say anything to me, and it made me even more tired. Then I finally realized, that Dika made a status. Status that I never imagined, status where Dika was going somewhere, even Dika did not show with whom he went. Dika who said he was at work turned out to go with someone else. And stupidly I was, I always believed in every word he told me.

I wanted to ask Dika, but continued to divert this problem and as if all was mediocre. The deeper this relationship I maintain, the more fed up I hold on to every promise I ever make. Well the promise I have said, is not a mere expression, but a promise I keep. I am a person who does not like to renege on a promise, if it has been promised should not be kept?. that's what I do now, if I promise, the promise of someone who truly loves without seeing how and what has happened.

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I who love him too much, even willing to do what to always be with him, make Dika with all my heart to play with me. Even easily Dika always does not care how I feel when Dika is always close to other women.

Aaaahhhh…..

I want to have a birthday where everything is still going normally, compared to the current drama full of tears compared to a smile.