Be aground

Handrail

Dark and without direction, I stepped like I wanted to disappear from my relationship. Everything I've done, all the promises I've said, everything we've done, everything turned out to be lies. This is all not true, I want to make things clear, I want to know how the end of everything is, I want to know the reason Dika did this to me.

At that moment I stepped back to Dika's place, I ventured to hope that what happened was just a misunderstanding. At every step I took, I convinced myself not to cry anymore. I tried to step up and take a deep breath and when I got close to where Dika lived, I tried to keep my feet up. When I stepped my foot and looked towards Dika's place, I stopped again.

I who can't say anything, backtrack backwards. My steps that should have gone forward and met Dika, turned out to have to retreat slowly. I who retreated so slowly with a smile, had seen something that was getting me injured. Dika and the woman were sitting together holding hands, making me hold back. Dika who saw me, just silent, while the woman immediately let go of her hand and chased after me.

I laughed silently as I stepped back into the darkness to realize that they were playing tricks on me. I, who was already feeling disappointed, was getting crushed and hurt. She kept chasing me, but I didn't care. I quickly stepped my feet while imagining what I was going to do at this moment.

The woman didn't come after me anymore and she came back. I, who was really tired, finally stopped somewhere crying. Honestly, I want to get angry, I want to scream, I want to slap them both but I can't. My disappointment makes me not know how. I was so depressed and unable to speak, it hurt so much.

When I felt calm, I finally set my foot back to my friend's place, and I had to step my foot from Dika's place, and I had to step, to be honest I don't want to go back to where I saw them again. But what I can do, because that's where I can just quickly go to my friend's place. I hope I don't see them again. Until suddenly Dika approached me with his motorbike

“Naik” Dika says

I, who was fed up with him, passed by without saying anything

“You do not need to be smart here, just go home there” said Dika furiously

“If so, go home there” said Dika

“I go home or not, you don't have to interfere” I said while leaving Dika

Dika immediately went and left me, while I just laughed seeing everything. Well everything that makes me sick to keep going, sick to see everything that happened today. Until I finally reached Dika's place, when Dika saw me and immediately closed the door.

“Hahahhahaa, really a jerk” guy I said muttering

I kept going and didn't know what to do, I limply got to my friend's place. I, who had been devastated by the relationship I had held for so long, ended up being ruined because of someone who had come out of nowhere. Those who meet every day will now unite, while I who became a victim in this relationship turned out to be considered as the perpetrator of this relationship will damage.

The relationship that says it will always be together, the relationship that I have lived for a few years, the relationship that I maintain with crying turns out to have no meaning until the end.

...What a sickening end!!...